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I bite my lip and slowly start typing, I huff in frustration as I keep erasing what I'm try to say through the message. «How am I supposed to respond to this?? "Oh nothing really happen, I just cried at the thought of losing Cody, found pictures of myself in his closet, got drunk, kissed Cody, and realized I may or not have a crush on him..." Woah WAIT! Okay maybe I should calm down.. I'm not gay or anything this is just the root beer talking again.. yep..»

I sigh and finally type up a half ass respond, [Junbug: yeah a few things happened but nothing crazy..well maybe a few crazy things. Mostly confusing things happened i guess..], I reread my message again a few more times as I anxiously wait for Joseph to respond. Not too long after, Joseph quickly responds, [Joseph: Oh well you can tell me tomorrow lol. Don't forget the rest of the dare dude, it's going to be so funny haha], my heart drops again. «Shit this was a dare.. right I almost forgot. But what else was I suppose to do?! I thought coming here was the dare..», I quickly respond, [Junbug: wait.. what else did I have to do? I thought coming to his house was it..], a few seconds past and Joseph responds and all I wanted to do was cry.

[Joseph: Really dude? Remember you have to ask Cody out and when he's all excited BAM you say it was a dare! The look on his face will be hilarious! Xd], I read the message over and over again as I remember exactly why I was here and why I'm doing all this..just for some dare. I thought back on how Cody and I opened up to each other, at the time all this didn't felt like a dare. I tear up than quickly wipe my tears, not wanting to think about it anymore.

I collect myself and respond, [Junbug: right dude..well he's sleeping now and I guess I'm staying the night.. I'll tell him tomorrow morning before school..], Joseph then response with an "okay dude" and I leave it at that. I put my phone away and then rub my neck, feeling the bite mark. I blush and think about the kiss Cody and I shared moments ago. Half of me wanted more but the other didn't know what I wanted.

I felt scared, confused, and guilty. «What would Joseph think? What would chef peepee think?! Hell what would dad think?! What if they'll hate me.. no..why would they hate me, I'm not gay this is all for the dare. This means nothing... I'm not gay..I don't have a crush on Cody..I'm not gay..I don't have a crush on C–» I was interrupted by a gentle peck on my jaw and I felt heart flutter. Cody seemed half asleep but I guess he noticed me being distress somehow.

Cody's voice was quiet, "You okay? Are you uncomfortable..?", I blush and felt extremely warm all of a sudden, "I-i'm..ok..just warm..", Cody immediately sits up and moves off me. He lays next to me and mumbles an "Sorry.." before looking away. I sit up, propping myself up by using my elbows, I look at Cody, "C-cody.." I groan and scoot close to him. I lay my head on his chest, "Stop apologizing all the time nerd...a-also is it okay if I stay the night..?" «fuck I should just leave now..I can't go through with the dare..but Chef Peepee is definitely sleeping now..what am I doing..», I felt Cody's heart race and I couldn't help but feel fuzzy inside.

Cody finally speaks up after a few moments past, "y-yeah..of course..just be ready in the morning.." I hum in response and close my eyes, I finally relax as I listen to Cody's heart beat. I didn't want to think about what might happen tomorrow, I just want to stay like this forever. Before I could fall asleep, Cody speaks up again, "I like you..", I open my eyes and look up at him, "W-what..?" Cody looks back at me, his face redder than ever, "I said I like you..w-wait is that really a surprise..?", Cody seemed a bit embarrassed but he doesn't break eye contact.

I gulp and felt fluster, "i-i..I mean I kind of knew that..it's just..hearing you actually say that..is surreal..", Cody nervously laughs and then finally looks away, "Y-yeah..my bad, I just wanted to let you know..it just felt right I guess.. tonight was confusing but it made me realize I really do like you.. as much as I make "jokes" about it, I mean it Junior, I like you a lot." Cody looks back at me, clearly feeling more confident, I was speechless and strangely jealous of Cody's confidence. Cody knew what he was, he knew what he wanted, he has everything figured out and here I am, a confused mess. Why couldn't I be like Cody, why does he have to confuse me more??

Cody must have notice my expression or something because he quickly adds, "But that doesn't mean you have to know how you feel and shit like that, it wouldn't be fair..just because I like you doesn't mean you gotta like me back..or know if you like me back or something..j-just don't feel pressured from my confession, okay?" I felt relieved and slightly at ease, «damn it why does he have to be so annoyingly nice sometimes.. but I can't just leave Cody without any answer..»,

I gently lean up and kiss his cheek, I quickly move back slightly, feeling embarrassment crawl up my spine, "C-cody..just..I need to think for a bit..", I look at Cody to make sure he wasn't upset, but he only hugs me tightly and mumbles, "Take all the time you need, Junior.." I felt the heavy feeling in my chest once more, but this time it felt comforting. I slowly hug back, ignoring the negative thoughts in the back of my head. I mumble a small "Thank you", before closing my eyes and just enjoying Cody's warmth. «I wish I could tell you everything.. but I'm too afraid this will end..I can't lose you especially now..»