Breathe

Relax

Take life slow.

Try and think..

Think about what happened.

Try to let the pain you hold ever so close go.

But never forget.

Never hold it in.

I know it's hard.

Trust me.....

I do..

I know the struggle

It is true.

Painful too.

Feel these feelings you may have.

Whatever they may be.

Feel them strong.

Hold on.

Not just for me. But for you.

Feel the anger, the sadness, the regret, the feeling of "If I had/hadnt done this would today be the same? Would I feel this same way as I do today?"

This pain, though heavy.

I cannot give in.

Not to you.

This enemy I try so hard to keep in.

Don't show.

Please go.

If so, leave quietly and slow.

Never show yourself.

Not to others.

Keep them far from you.

Don't involve them in the storm you created for yourself.

You're not welcome with anyone else.

If I have to take the pain from others by keeping you close holding you as tight as ever.

Then try me.

I will.

And in the end you will never win.

Not with me anyways.

So, please stop trying to bring me down as low as you are.

I won't believe anything you have to say about me anymore.

Because I'm sick and I'm tired.

I'm sick of you being like this to me.

And its sad...

Because the funny thing is....

I created you...

Not on purpose...

Not out of habit...

For the simple reason I started to believe what others said about me.

When the only one who was laughing was you and the few who implanted the though of you in me...

I'm sick of being kicked around by you.

You can haunt my dreams all you like but we're DONE.

I'm done listening to you and whatever you have to say about me.

Because trust me.

I'll try my hardest to win.

And I WILL move on with or without you.