kanpo dropped me off near the jype building even though i insisted she just let me get an uber back.

she of course declined and took me straight there.

"it's fine, i won't be late." she'd told me.

although i hardly believed her, i let her take me anyways.

now, i was back at practice, learning more choreography and even helping make some of it.

most of the practice was silent since we were all trying to focus and be productive.

as the hours passed we took breaks in between, and in those breaks i texted kanpo and sent her pictures or updates of us.

"hey gyeom, where'd you go for lunch?" jaebeom asked as we all took water breaks.

"went with kanpo to some place in cheongdam." i replied, drinking from my water.

he nodded, "be careful though."

"yeah, of course."

"we don't have the dating ban though," jackson interjected.

"right, but still, it's better not to start scandals." jaebeom said shrugging.

"well twice members are starting to date too, so i don't know what the deal is." i said shrugging.

"dude, they're dating idols, you're dating a girl from down the street. you know how many things you can ruin for her?" jaebeom said shaking his head.

"well, i know that but-" jaebeom interrupted me.

"there's not buts gyeom, don't be selfish, think of her too." jaebeom shook his head and went to the front of the room.

the other members just stayed quiet after the exchange.

i hadn't really thought about how it would affect her if fans were to find out.

she could be doxxed, harassed, stalked, even injured.

maybe kanpo was right, maybe this wasn't all that much of a good idea.

i don't wanna break up with her but then again, i don't want to hurt her in any way.

i promised to never hurt her.

i don't want to be the reason she can't live a normal life.

i sighed and went back to the group, where we continued to rehearse choreography.

after class let out i went down to the library to get some work and to check out some books i needed to study.

i finished an essay and went home at about 4pm.

once i was home, i fed kuma and continued finishing assignments while having some tv show in the background.

overall, the rest of my evening was uneventful, i made dinner and ate while still doing some assignments i missed.

hey love :)

heyy :)

what's up??

nothinggg

wanted to see what u were up to

i was getting ready for bed

hbu??

mm me too

i was thinking abt this afternoon

oh?

i rlly have no self control

around u

lmao that's ur definition

of no self control?

was i not up to your tastes??

idk

imo u could've been

a bit rougher

that wasn't rough for u?

mmm

not rlly

omg stop trying to corrupt me

jesus is watching

jesus was also watching

when u took that pic too

jesus knows i couldnt

miss the opportunity

then jesus must know

that u deserved that

good gawk gawk 1000

then he must know u deserve

everything and more 🥺💗

omg it was starting to get spicy

but awh 🥺

ur so sweet gyeom :(

what'd i do to deserve u :(

you existed

u were hand picked just for

me love :)