*Chapter 13*

A few weeks quickly passed by where I mostly spend my time at home since Zaron didn't allow me to spend my time at his place. But I was not really mad about it, whether I had been there or not it wouldn't have changed the fact that I couldn't get to see him.

It made me really lonely. And that I didn't even know where he had been lingering around, didn't make it any better. So I couldn't just show up at his place since he wouldn't be there anyway.

I was even playing with the thought of him growing tired of me. I mean there is a high probability that he did, but I still couldn't believe it. I don't want to believe it. But there is no way around it.

Even my brothers were highly suspicious about it when they noticed that I have been more present than I used to.

"So did your boyfriend finally dump you?" Myles snorted. But I was not up for his hopeless attempts to upset me this time. I was already upset so it didn't change anything.

I just sighed as I let my head fall, sitting upside down on the couch. At that moment Ramon came through the door and stopped in tracks when he noticed the unusual mournful atmosphere. "What's up?" He frowned.

"He's lovesick," Myles snickered and shook his head as he left. Ramon cocked a brow and head over, taking a seat next to me.

"Lovesick, huh?" He repeated. "I never would have thought you could ever get a heartache because of some guy." I sat back up and looked at him with sad eyes. "I guess, this time it is really serious."

I throw myself at him and whined. "Ramon! What should I do? He won't text me back," I complained.

"I still don't understand. What is so special about him. He's just some other guy. You should finally concentrate on something that is really important, practice for example." I huffed and stand up. You really couldn't talk with Ramon. "H-hey, where are you going to?" he wondered, but I just ignored him and head over to my room.

I knocked the door close behind me and let myself fall on my bed as I looked on my phone. Still nothing. I closed my eyes and let my phone fall beside me, thinking that I could have my peace for a while but that was immediately proven wrong as soon as I heard a knocking sound before the door opened.

"Quentin." It was Jin. "The others are worrying about you, they said you aren't feeling good." He slowly approached me and sat next to me.

"Liar!" I outed. "Just say that they are making fun of me," I grumbled.

He chuckled with a bitter undertone and raised his hands in guilt. "Alright, alright I got it. So what happened, why're you lovesick? I thought you had finally settled down to someone trustworthy."

"You are misunderstanding something. I mean, he didn't do anything wrong. Even though you could consider ignoring me as something wrong but I just-," I took a deep breath and looked away. "I just miss him." It sounded so harmless but it didn't feel harmless at all. It felt like I just lost something very important to me, but at the same time, I did not. And it doesn't help that it's the first time feeling like that. "Besides, I really really indescribably want to have sex right now," I whined.

"So you haven't had sex with him yet?" He snickered. I gave him a slap, showing that I didn't mean it as a joke. "Sex is not the most important thing in relationships, you know?" It may not be but it's nevertheless still a huge part that comes along with it. "Just get yourself off, what's the deal?"

"I don't want to," I confessed.

"What do you mean, you don't want to?" He frowned.

"Because it's weird. I kinda get turned off the moment I realize that I'm touching myself." As soon as these words left my mouth, he remained silent, not knowing what to respond. "So now, the only thing I can do is wait." It's not like I had any other possibility besides cheating on him and nope, I'm definitely not gonna do that because I'm a loyal human being. Okay not quite... but sleeping with someone else is still a taboo.

"Have you tried speaking up to him?" He asked.

"I did," I nodded. "He also told me why he doesn't want to and I can understand it, but still he should finally stop thinking of me as a kid that doesn't know how to take care of itself."

"You're thinking too negative, at least it shows you how much he cares, doesn't he?" I didn't answer. "Besides you are still a kid that doesn't know how to take care of himself," he winked and stood up before ruffling my hair. "Just give him some time," he advised and approached the door, leaving me alone.

I huffed and crossed my arms. "Jerk," I mumbled and unconsciously checked for new messages on my phone. But there was still nothing.

I sighed. I hate waiting.

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It was in the middle of the night around 4 AM when the phone that I fell asleep within my hand started vibrating. I jumped up in shock until I realized where it came from. My eyes were still fade from the sleep as I rubbed them to get a better view of my phone that was blinking blue.

Why would someone write me at such a time? I groaned and unlocked my phone to see who the message was from. And in the next second, I was immediately awake once I saw that it was from Zaron.

~Meeting at 4:30, be quick

That was the only thing he had to say, but looking at the time, there were only 20 minutes left to get there. Who is he kidding? I rolled my eyes and jumped out of bed, changing my clothes into the best things I could find in an instant before wearing my shoes, grabbing my keys and heading out towards my car.

During the drive I severally caught myself tapping my fingers on the wheel. I couldn't tell whether I should be happy that I could finally get to see him or be angry since he ignored me for that long. Probably both and on the third side, I was curious as to why he called up for a meeting at 4 in the morning.

So when I arrived I was basically storming towards his front door and knocked. The door immediately opened as I saw Zaron looking at me with a soft smile. He made some space for me to enter and closed the door behind me before he was aiming for my face. Though, I quickly dodged away in annoyance and was ready to head to the living room where I assumed everyone was waiting.

"Quentin, wait!" He called and dragged me back.

But I just pulled my arm out of his grasp and pointed my finger at him in a warning. "Don't you dare say my name in front of others!" I squinted my eyes before continuing the way to the living room. I only allowed it once and that was his brother that doesn't mean that I trusted his mates.

I went ahead to where I was greeted as I, this time, took a seat next to Memphis who looked at me with a frown and gave Zaron, once he decided to join us, a questionable glance. He just sighed and sat down before he started talking.

"So, I know you were wondering as to why I ordered you here now. Simply because I'll be busy in the afternoons and I won't have the time to decide for a good day we can do a meeting on. But today is quite urgent," he started as he leaned back.

At the same time, I could hear a tired yawn from Collin who was half dead laying on Loki who in comparison seemed to look like he had been awake the whole time. Jesus, just what was he doing twenty minutes ago?

"These last days I was quite busy. The reason is that we got another mission. I accepted it mainly because it comes with a high reward since it's quite short termed and they quickly need some support. I know, I didn't consider your opinions but I'm convinced that when everything goes well it'll be only in our advantage."

"Well, not that I am against it, but what is it all about? Something dangerous? And what is going to be with the other case? How much remaining time do we have for that?" Pixie spoke up in a criticizing tone.

"That case will be pushed aside, seeing as we still got three months left. The mission I'm talking about is already going to be in three days. So I thought it's for the best that I let you know as soon as possible." He leaned for forwards, resting his elbows on his knees, looking at us where his eyes were caught in my eyes for a second before I avoided his glance.

"To get in detail. It's about defense. The C3-Gang already received the information that they're going to be attacked. Though they neither have the information on how strong they will be nor on how many. But there is a high chance that the opponents have formed an alliance with some other group. So to be on the safe side we will operate as help and support for them on that day," he explained.

Anyway, since then I didn't find the need to pay any more attention than it was needed. I was too tired one way or another. I swear, it felt like hours as the time went on.

In the end, I almost fell asleep if Memphis hadn't had nudged me up just in time. "You are always sleeping, aren't ya?" He smirked and shook his head.

I yawned and stretched myself once I looked around, noticing that Zaron wasn't here. I guess, everything was already said, huh? I wanted to question Memphis about it but before I could he was faster to speak up.

"What did Zaron do? Like why are you sitting here and not clinging to him as usual?" He pointed out. "Did you fight?"

At that moment Jane jumped up from the corner and squished herself beside me and him as she looked at us with curious eyes. "I want to know, too. I thought you guys were on good terms."

"Right. We were. Just before he ignored me for more than three weeks. And once I thought he finally wrote me back, it was just to say that I should show up at 4 in the morning for a meeting," I complained. "I mean, if he doesn't care then I can go and waste my time at some better place."

"Is that how you really think?" I heard a sudden voice pop up from the side as all our heads turned to the same direction. I bit my lips as I saw Zaron with a stern look.

Directly afterward, Jane stood up after giving me a brief pat on my thigh. "I guess that is the cue for us to leave," she winked before standing up followed by everyone else and leaving the house.

And with that Zaron and I were alone. "Is that how you think of me?" Zaron repeated and went to sit next to me. I on the other side avoided looking at him and instead let my gaze land all around the room. "Quentin! Look at me when I talk to you!"

I hesitated but eventually followed his order, looking at him. "And what if it is like that? Is it wrong to think like that?"

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