I honestly feel so terrible.

I feel like I'm all alone

even between a lot of people who love me.

All of you are my friends,

you say you love me,

and I appreciate it,

but I still feel like it's not true.

I want to experience love.

I want to feel it,

I want to be motivated by it,

and I want to give love.

I know he likes me.

And I feel like,

I just can't get from one point to the other.

Nor with him

nor with others,

nor with school,

nor with my family.

I just can't move things from this stage,

to a better one and this makes me so frustrated.

The perfect phrase for this,

is that I feel so frustrated,

because nothing goes the way I planned it,

and I feel like no one by my side will help me through this.