they drag me from under the bed by my ankles while i kick and scream, "I'm not going!" i shout as the twins and mum and dad are in the room trying to get me to go to school.

"baby, we need to go, wether we are late or on time, we are going, you can see the pups when we get home!" Aidan finally gets me from under the bed and pulls me into his arms while Nathan sorts out the over sized clothes i'm wearing.

"but what if theres a problem that mum or dad can't fix?" i ask holding tightly onto Aidan, "or they wont feed, they have only fed from a bottle once?" i ask and they sigh.

"they are safe, Raden!" dad sighs and i let out a groan.

"you don't know that, what if you run out of milk and they haven't finished feeding?" i panic, once again trying to get out of the hold they have on me, "What if something bad happens to the runt and you have to take him back to the doctor?" tears streaming down my face as i try to pull away from everyone.

"then we will take him to the doctor and he will sort him out and we will give you a full list of everything that happend in the day!" mum says and i wriggle about.

"but they need me, what if the milk isn't good enough or the heat packs aren't warm enough, what if you don't clean the cot out properly or they get sick?!" i shout from the top of my lungs and Aidan and Nathan growls.

"you can have my phone so you can see everything that goes on in the room, okay?" he asks and i sob, calming down now i know i can at least see them through the day.

"and if something goes wrong you can call mum to tell her what to do!" Nathan adds and i sigh.

"but what if they miss me? there's six hours in the day, i go to them every two hours unless it's through the night!" i say a bit quieter, as they purswade me to go.

"they will be fine, the doctor said the runt is doing better with the extra care!" Nathan reasures.

"and the pups are gaining more and more strength as it is!" Aidan adds and i just look at them.

"why aren't you two worrying about this?!" I cry out, pushing against them again as everyone sighs.

"because the only problems at this moment in time are those in your head!" Aidan says with frustration.

"and we all know they are going to be safe and theres things in place to assure that they stay safe, you can contact our mum when you need to talk to her!" Nathan says as he kisses my cheek as i calm down.

"i'll keep my phone on the whole day so i won't miss you!" she says and i sigh.

"fine!" my voice is crackly and they both pick me up in there arms.

"now come on or we will be late!" Aidan says and they both walk out the room. i am just limp while Nathan carried me out the door, sitting me in the car as we set off.

we walk through the doors of the school and it seems like everyone was waiting for it as they all look over now and again to see me slugging through the hall like a depressed snail while Aidan and Nathan stay with me to assure i don't make my way back home, and while they walk with me i think over every possible thing that could happen while i'm away, "what if-"

"she promised to keep them in the cot and if not in the cot in the room!" Aidan cuts me off and i keep walking as we walk up to the small group.

they all talk and some try to talk to me but i talk with no one..... "But what if-" 

"she has a baby monitor with her at all times so she'll know if someone goes into the room unannounced!" Nathan cuts me off while the rest of the group just looks suprised by the sudden change in conversation.

i let out a breath and cross my arms while they both bring me into a hug, "five and a half hours to go!" i grumble as the bell goes i hold my hands over my ear, "ugh, i hate the bell, when will they turn it down?" i grumble, oh shit, "What if-" i snap my head up to them and they both groan out.

"she knows not to make loud noises!" Aidan says and i let out a grumble as i sob.

"little red, just get through the day and then you can see them when we'er home!" Nathan says softly and kisses my cheek.

"just stare at the baby monitor all day and you'll feel better, the teachers know that you are completely out of it!" Aidan added, kissing my other cheek, "see you at break!" he says softly and i sigh, letting out a small whimper when i realise that i wont get to spend the whole day with them either.....

"wait, what lesson do you two have?" i ask looking at them both and they sigh.

"room 3A!" they both say and drag their hands down their faces looking very frustraited with me.

"sorry, it's just in case!" i grumble looking down to the floor, slightly ashamed.

"it's fine, we understand!" they says kissing my cheek again, i sigh and hold my arms around them, i keep them there for quite a while when they both sigh again, "Raden-" 

"fine!" i say and walk off to my lesson. 

i walk into the room and sit down on the chair, "ah, hello Raden, i hope your doing alright!" the teacher says and i mumble something, i don't quite know what, but it worked and i put my head in my arms.