I wake up to me being dragged out of bed by my ankles, I hit the hard wooden floor. "What the fuck was that for?" I yell pissed. "Get up and go have fun with everyone" they said then left, me being me I fell back to sleep for another hour just on the floor.

When I finally got up I showered and changed into black leggings and a white hoodie. "Do you think it's possible to feel nothing?"I ask walking downstairs asking no one in particular, "are you okay Lilith"Bucky asked I looked at him dead in the eyes "do I look okay to you" I roll my eyes and look over to Natasha that was sitting in the room reading a book. "What you reading Natasha?" I ask her she doesn't even look up from the book or speak. "Okay than if anyone needs me, I'll be somewhere. Don't find me" I say taking a bottle of vodka and leaving.

"Dinner is ready" Wanda saids walking into the room "I'm not hungry" I simply answer, fidgeting with the ring I always have on my hand. It was a silver crown ring with diamonds on it, I never took it off unless I showered or something else along those lines. It's was a 18 thousand dollar ring, I know it's crazy to even spend that much on a stupid ring. But one day I was going to give it to someone who deserves it.

"Is this because of Nat?" Wanda saids siting next to me and I looked down trying not to let tears fall. "It doesn't matter, nothing you can say is going to fix it" after a bit Wanda finally got me to go and eat with everyone but I didn't eat much just sat there in my own world. Everyone was talking when I decided just to leave and go to the bedroom.

Natasha came in not long after shutting the door behind her. Next thing I knew I had her up against the door kissing her roughly. "Lilith your drunk" she said barely able to understand it since my tongue was exploring her mouth. I quickly went down to her neck and found her sweet spot that Nat moaned. "Lilith stop" I didn't listen and kept kissing her neck knowing I'm leaving dark hickeys. "LILITH I SAID STOP IT"she said raising her voice and pushed me away to walk to the bed and put her head in her hands and I just realised what I was doing. "Fuck" I said under my breath.

"Natasha I didn't mean it, I didn't know what I was doing" I say bending down to her. "I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry" I kept repeating with tears in my eyes about to fall any second. Natasha looked up at me it's very rare for people to see me cry, every since I was little I never let people see me cry since it made me feel weak, I hate feeling weak. "Say something please" I say with a tear rolling down me cheek. "I want to sleep alone tonight and I don't want you near me ever don't talk to me nothing" I nodded understanding why she would want that. "I'm really sorry, I really didn't mean too" I say again before she pointed to the door and I left.

After a bit I went into the room to see Natasha asleep, I went way to fucking far and I really didn't mean to I don't know what happened. I packed my suitcase and went downstairs for the taxi that was waiting outside for me. "Airport please".

I wake up to the cold feeling of no one holding me for body heat. Than last nights events came to me. I sighed getting out of the bed and changing into sweats and a tank top seeing I fell asleep in yesterday's clothes. Walking downstairs I see mostly everyone away. "Wanda or Pepper do any of you have a hair tie?" I ask and Wanda gave me one I thanked her and put my hair up. "Woah Natasha did someone attack your neck or something" I hear from someone and I went to a small mirror. I saw at least six hickeys on my neck.

"Auntie Nat is auntie Cleo still sleeping?" Morgan asked me I picked her up and put her on my hip. "Auntie Cleo didn't sleep in my bed last night so she might be sleeping somewhere else" I say to my goddaughter. "Oh okay" she replied.

The day went quickly we were all packed and ready to go, why packing I noticed Lilith's things were gone. I thought she must have came in here when I wasn't and did it. "Has anyone seen my sister we have to leave" Stark saids and everyone said no he was on his phone for a second and sighed rolling his eyes. "Let's go everyone" he said. "Where's Lilith?" Steve asks. "My sister is on a plane right now to somewhere" Stark replied to Steve. My eyes went wide along with everyone else's. Did I take it too far I didn't want her to actually go to a different country. No Natasha she was the one that kissed you and had you pinned to the wall.

But I love her.