Lexy's POV

I look around the club and I can't help but beam at the crowd that has come to support my girl and her band. She's so talented and I'm so lucky to have her. She treats me amazing and I honestly believe her to be the one for me.

I see myself being with Ashley for the rest of my life. She's my one and I believe I'm hers, she's subtle in the ways she expresses it though. Have you heard all the songs she been writing lately?

I've been away so much with work and I think my absence has triggered her inspiration. She hasn't written this many songs since I've known her.

I'm so glad she and Spencer have gotten along so well. I was a bit nervous about their meeting. Your best friend and your girlfriend the two most important people in your life, if they don't get along it would suck. I'm glad I don't have that problem.

I watch as the band walks onto the stage and Ashley nods her head cuing Mikey to start the beat of the first song of the night. She's got such a great group, I never really feel like I belong with them though. They're nice enough but sometimes I feel like they're only nice to me because of Ashley.

How can I tell?

Well sometimes you just get a feeling with people and I get a feeling with them, but it's fine. Ashley loves me and I've got Spencer and honestly I'm all set with just the two of them.

My heart swoons as my girl sings the final chorus of 'I'd Rather Be With You'. This is my favorite of hers. A smile tugs at my lips as I listen to the lyrics. Ashley introduces a new song that she just wrote the other day and I'm really excited to hear it. She's so talented.

She looks a little nervous but she doesn't need to be; she's amazing. I smile widely as I try to lock eyes with her to reassure her. She strums her guitar and looks up, I'm expecting her to look at me but I notice that her gaze is past me.

"I won't do what you told me. I won't do what you said, no. I'm not gonna stop feeling. I'm not gonna forget it. I don't wanna start over. I don't wanna pretend that. You are not my lover. That you're only my friend."

As I listen to the lyrics, trying to make sense of what they could possibly mean... I hear Glen make a smart remark and snicker. What's so funny? I look at Spencer to see what Glen could be laughing at and she's looking at him like she's about ready to kill him. I look back over at Ashley and her eyes are still locked on Spencer.

Spencer's trying not to look at me. I swallow nervously as Ashley continues with the song.

"Cause when you took my heart. You took it all. When you gave it back. It fell apart. So..."

No…She's not…She wouldn't.

I look at Spencer and I look into her eyes. They look…guilty.

"Maybe you're not right for me. Maybe it's just hard to see. I get lost in your beauty. And I just start questioning. Cause when you took my heart you took it all. But when you gave it back it fell apart."

My heart races as I take another look at Ashley. I see Stacy at the piano and she seems to be sporting the same look I feel growing on my face. She looks at Spencer, everyone seems to be looking at Spencer. She's looking at Spencer some type of way. I look at Stacy as she watches Ashley and I watch Ashley as she watches…Spencer. This isn't happening.

No!

Spencer wouldn't. She's my best friend…practically my sister. She'd never…

Of course not. I laugh internally because it won't come out of my mouth. I'm sure this is all just a misunderstanding.

"Did you know she was gonna do this?" I hear Paula ask Spencer. I turn to look at them but they're too engaged with each other to notice that I witness the exchange.

No…no.

No, no, no!

I'm just going to ask.

She'll say no and we'll move on from this.

"Is she singing to you?" I ask, confusion and sadness lace my voice…apparently my emotions are recognizing the situation a lot faster than my brain is allowing me register.

What the fuck is going on?!

I look at Ashley but she hasn't looked at me once. I see something in her eyes when she looks at Spencer…something I've never seen when she looks at me. I don't know why I never noticed this before.

My eyes start to sting and my heart is racing as I come to a conclusion that everyone seems to be aware of. Everyone but me…and Stacy.

Is that why Spencer broke up with her? Because she's sleeping with my girlfriend.

I look at my best friend…if I should still call her that and she's trying to read me. Good luck Spence cause right now I don't know how to express myself for even me to understand.

"I won't do what you told me. I won't do what you said, no. I'm not gonna stop feeling. I'm not gonna forget it. I don't wanna start over. I don't wanna pretend that. You are not my lover. That you're only my friend. Friend. I won't..."

Ashley's voice is the only thing filling the room right now. She's not singing to me. She never was. I internally scoff... I was never her inspiration.

I take a deep breath and close my eyes. Just once more. She didn't answer the first time maybe she is just as confused as I am.

"Spence?" I ask. It comes out so weak and she doesn't say anything.

She's looking like she's panicking.

I grit my teeth because for the first time in my life I feel hatred building up in me. It's making me tremble slightly and I want to cry but I'm so angry.

"I won't do what you told me. I won't do what you said, no. I'm not gonna stop feeling. I'm not gonna forget it. I don't wanna start over. I don't wanna pretend that. You are not my lover. That you're only my friend. Friend. I won't...No, I won't..."

Ashley stops singing and the room erupts in applause. I don't I'm too busy staring at Spencer. The tension obviously has risen and it's only at my table.

Humiliation.

Betrayal.

I can't breathe.

Deceit.

Lies.

I can't move.

My head falls and I feel my eyes burn as I try to fight back tears.

"Lexy…" I forget about crying, the fire in my eyes burn all the tears away. "Lexy wait, let me expla—"

"Go to hell Spencer." I spit out angrily. I stand up and storm away, I don't bother to look at Ashley. I already feel so much hate in my body I don't think I can take anymore. I hear Ashley call for Spencer and that just pisses me off more.

Spencer grabs my arm and I quickly flinch away. "Don't touch me!"I don't recognize my own voice. Spencer doesn't either, I've never spoken to her this way. Then again she's never given me reason to.

"Lexy I'm sorry." I try not to laugh because her apology is bullshit. "I never meant for this to happen. I didn't plan it or anything I swear."

"This whole time it was you. This whole fucking time."

I can't believe this.

What the hell is wrong with me? How did I not see this? She's my best friend how could she?

She betrayed me in the worst way possible. I throw the doors open and pass a couple, I don't know who they are but the fact that they know Spencer makes me slow down. She says their name and my heart drops. She met her fucking parents?! I've been with Ashley for almost a year and she barely utters one word about them to me and Spencer met them after a fucking month?!

"You have got to be fucking kidding me! How could I have been so stupid?!" I shout and storm away. The fact that Ashley's mother asks who I am is a punch to the face.

I think I'm going to be sick. I need to get the hell out of here. I don't hear Spencer following me anymore, probably fucking setting up wedding plans with in laws. What the fuck?! I'm so angry and hearing Spencer call out for me isn't doing anything for me. She used to be able to calm me down now all I feel is rage every time she opens her mouth. She's asking me to give her a chance to explain. There's nothing to explain.

"You can what?" I finally stop walking and turn to face her. What could she possibly say right now that would make what she did okay?

"I can-"

"Explain to me how for the past month and a half you've been fucking my girlfriend when you're supposed to be my best friend?" I ask seriously. Cause if she can explain that then I'd like to hear it.

"It isn't like that Lex. I swear." Oh spare me the bullshit! "When I met Ashley I didn't know that she was your girlfriend." Are you kidding me right now? Seriously? Seriously?!

I finally piece it together. Ashley's the girl in New York, the girl she flirted with on the plane. I scoff as I remember that I encouraged her in seizing the moment. Looks like she took my advice. And fucking Ashley... I guess out of sight out of mind.

I snap my head as I hear Ashley shout for Spencer. Awesome.

I shake my head storm away again. I'm a grown ass woman stomping my feet like a damn three year old but walking normal right now isn't doing it for me. My feet hit the pavement hard with every step I take. I'm so close to my car and I know I probably shouldn't be driving in this state because all I see is red. I leave them both behind, not like they'll notice I'm gone they sure as hell didn't before.

As I get in my car the tears that I was fighting before begin to fall. I don't wanna cry. They don't deserve my tears. A knock on the window pulls me back to reality. I look and see it's Spencer. She's fighting back tears and under any other circumstance I think I'd be the one comforting her. She begs me to let her explain. Haven't we done this already?

"Get the fuck out of my fucking way Spencer!" I shout to her, but she looks confused like she can't understand what I'm saying right now. It should be perfectly clear what I want from her. When Ashley asks me to get out of the car something in me snaps. I can't believe she would fucking do this to me. I jump out of the car, "Fuck you Davies! My best friend! Of all people?! Who the hell do you think you are? Don't ever talk to me again, I hate you..." I scoff and turn to Spencer. "...and you!" I shout, pointing a finger at her. "Move." She looks hurt, like she was expecting more. She wants me to yell at her?

"Lexy please I just…"

"We're in love Lexy, we didn't mean for any of this to happen." Ashley cuts her off and it takes everything in my power not to run over and punch her in the face. She shouldn't talk to me right now. My judgment is clouded right now and I think it's safe to say I may do something irrational.

"Ashley, shut up!" Spencer turns and shouts to her. I can't help but laugh at the pair.

How the fuck did I not see this before?

"Oh you're in love. Oh I'm sorry I thought you were just fucking because you were bored. No you falling in love with each other behind my back makes it so much better. Please forgive my erratic behavior. I didn't know it was love." I grow quiet, choosing my next words carefully. I want them to know exactly what I'm feeling right now. "Fuck you! I don't give a shit that you two are in love, you both betrayed me. So since you two are in love you can do without me, because I sure as hell don't want to be around either of you. I'm done." I turn to walk back to the car when I remember the conversation Spencer and I had earlier tonight. How fucking dumb could I be? "And how fucking stupid am I?! I sat there and consoled you, I..." She shakes her head and laughs sardonically. "I thought you were in love with me?!" Ashley screams out a 'what' and Spencer tells her to shut up. Wow. I shake my head and turn back to the car. I turn back to them once more. "I have to be the biggest fucking idiot on the goddamn planet!" I shout before getting in my car. I can't be here anymore. I can't look at the two of them without wanting to hit them. I speed off and see Ashley snatch Spencer out of the way. I guess she thought I would actually hit her. Aw fucking cute, she's saving her life!

Fuck them!

–

I'm not sure how I even got here. I'm sitting in my car in front of my apartment and the drive here is as blurry as ever. The last thing I remember is pulling away from the club.

I bang my head on the steering wheel, trying to knock some sense into myself. I keep asking myself over and over how I could have been so fucking stupid. All of this was happening right under my nose and I had no idea.

Not one clue.

I've always been so trusting and loving and I guess I never expected anything like this from Spencer. We've always said how much we despised cheaters. I guess a year in New York changed her.

I try to compose myself before getting out of the car and walking into my apartment. The apartment I share...shared with Ashley. The girl I thought I would spend the rest of my life with.

I think what hurts the most is that I'm not only losing a girlfriend but my best friend too. I don't know how we can come back from this. It's the ultimate betrayal. They let their temptations get the best of them instead of just talking to me first. I'm not sure how I would have taken it then either but it has to be better than finding out this way. Getting humiliated in front of everyone. Even Mrs. Williams seemed privy to what was going on.

Was I the only one?

A bang on my door startles me. I've been standing in the foyer trying to figure everything out. How I could have not seen any of this? How long it's been going on? Just everything.

I turn and look out the peephole. It's Spencer.

"Lexy open the door!" She shouts as she bangs on it. Really? What the fuck could she possibly want? "Lexy please just open the door! Just let me explain please!" She begs.

"Get the hell away from my door before I call the cops on you Spencer!" I yell back. I won't really, but the threat should be good enough.

"I'm not going away Lex. I can stay out here all night." She yells back. Ugh! I just want her to go away.

I groan as she bangs on my door again. Just go away! She grows quiet. I contemplate for a minute then decide to check and see if she's gone. I open the door and she falls in. I fold my arms over my chest and give her the meanest look I can muster. She really looks pathetic right now.

"I swear Spencer, if you don't get the fuck away from my door I'm gonna-"

"I'm sorry Lex." She tells me as she picks herself up from the floor. "I don't know how to make you understand how sorry I am. Words can't even begin to-"

"You don't get to do that." I shake my head.

"I-"

"Don't talk to me." I tell her and shove her out of my apartment. I can't listen to another word...another lie. I turn to walk away, knowing if I stayed any longer I may give in, when I hear her phone ring. She answers it and the name she utters refuels the rage that had fizzled out. I whip open the door causing her to fall backwards onto the floor.

"That Davies?" I ask her, she looks like she wants to tell me a lie. She better not! I already know that it is. She finally nods her head yes and I scoff.

"UnFuckingBelievable. Tell her she can come get her shit at any time, it'll be on the street." I tell her and slam the door quickly, causing her to have to dive out of the way.

Fuck!

I sigh, looking at the door once more. I really can't believe this is happening.

–

I've been in bed for the past half hour trying to sleep so this stupid day can just be over with, but the constant banging on my door is keeping me up. I climb out of bed and go downstairs. I open the door and Spencer fall in again. Ugh! I wish she would just go away and give me some space.

"Can you stop doing that you're pissing me off!" I tell my ex-best friend.

"Lex please." She begs, sitting up on her knees. Oh great! Now she's begging on her knees. I can't take this.

"What the fuck could you possibly have to say right now?" I ask, and the opening and closing of her mouth tells me that she's got nothing.

"Uh..." She says. See! Nothing! I roll my eyes and shut the door. I have to be up for work in a few hours and I really don't have time for this. I walk back up to my room and after an hour I'm finally able to fall asleep.

–

I open the door to leave for work and Spencer falls in again.

"Shit I'm sorry..." I stop myself realizing the reason she's sitting outside my apartment in the first place. I quickly become angry again. She greets me good morning and I decide to ignore her complete existence, locking my door and stepping around her to head towards my car.

"Have a great day at work!" She shouts to my retreating figure. I fight a smile, shaking my head. Leave it to Spencer to be a smart ass in this situation.

The drive to work was hard. I can't help but keep replaying last night in my head. The look Ashley was giving her, Spencer's face when she realized that I was piecing it all together. I wonder how many people knew about this... was I the only one that was in the dark?

"You're late Alexis." The dragon lady greets me as I enter the office.

"I know I'm sorry." I tell her, handing her her morning coffee.

"Sorry doesn't get this portfolio complete on time." She says without even looking up at me. Ever since that night in Vegas... she's been extra bitchy towards me. What night you ask? Well I'll tell you later, right now I have to get the hell out of this office.

"I know." I nod, picking up the pile of papers on her desk as she types away on her computer. "I swear I'll have this complete by this afternoon. I tell her softly, I can't really deal with any more of her crap right now. I think I'm liable to cry at any moment. Usually I can take all the bullshit she throws at me but today... I just can't.

"Alexis..." She stops me as I turn to walk out of her office. The softness of her voice catches me off guard. I don't think in the year I've been working here she's ever been nice to me. I only stay because the pay is amazing and I have a real chance at becoming something under Meredith. As much of a bitch she is... she's the best Marketing Exec in California. Anybody who's anybody calls her for marketing advice.

Being a lackey isn't exactly how I planned to spend my first year here but if that's what I have to do to come up then I don't mind doing it. I turn around to face her, readjusting the stack of papers in my arms.

"Yes Ms. Lewis?" I elect to use her real name and not dragon lady... wouldn't bode well you know.

"Is everything okay?" She questions, looking me dead in my eyes. Is this concern I'm seeing from her? Genuine concern?

"I..." I trail off. I can't go there with her. I don't want to seem weak and have her use it against me later. "No." I shake my head. "I'm fine." I force a smile and turn to leave again.

"Alexis." She calls me again, stopping me. The tone of her voice is vulnerable. I've heard it once before. That night in Vegas. I guess now is a good time to tell you about what happened. Okay so on our recent business trip to Vegas to pick up some client papers as well as attend a few meetings, she kinda made a pass at me. We were in the hotel and she just called me into her room, I'm thinking we're gonna go over some business papers or something but no... she tries to kiss me. I was apprehensive to decline because I didn't want my job to be in jeopardy but I'm not a cheater. I would never cheat on Ashley... on anyone. It's not in my DNA.

Little did I know I was being cheated on the whole time.

Anyways, I explained this to her. That I can't cheat, that I won't cheat. She told me she understood and things went right back to how they were.