Jimin's POV:

It's been two months since he left and things haven't been going too well. I've been left with my members with no one to help me if they start acting up. Which happens often.

I mean yeah, I have Hobi and all. But still, even he seems to be slowly drifting away. I think he may be blaming me for what happened to Yoongi. And so am I. If I didn't join the group in the first place, their relationship wouldn't have fallen apart 'cause they weren't being the nicest towards the new guy.

I miss him.

And I don't know how I'm supposed to stay with these guys. 'Cause so far, all they've been to me is: fucking bitch ass annoying as-

"Jimin get your fucking stuff ready we have rehearsals in less than 10 minutes! We need to go now!"

-Let's just say they aren't the nicest people when it comes to me.

I get up and play with my hair for a few seconds to make myself look more presentable. I grab my bag and my phone and head out. As I'm walking outside the door, I brush past a not-necessarily-too-happy Jin who rolls his eyes as I leave the dorms. I sigh.

- They'll never like me, will they? -

I just wish Yoongi was here. 'cause when he was, I could ignore the eye rolls from Jin, the weird looks from Jungkook I catch at the corner of my eye or even the many annoyed scoffs from Namjoon. Honestly, so far Taehyung hasn't really done anything, just quietly ignoring my existence. And Jungkook's not that bad. I heard he can get shy around new people. But, that's okay 'cause he's practically a fetus compared to me his buff manly hyung.

I silently laugh at my thoughts. I am sooo funny.

I also cry on the inside. This is honestly sad. I rely on Yoongi too much, I need to be independent. Yoongi would want that from me. I don't want to have to wait for Yoongi to come and rescue me when I know I can do it on my own.

I hop into the van a plug in my earbuds. I don't need another ride in the van of awkward silence and just feeling eyes pinned at the back of my head. Mostly from Tae and Jungkook 'cause it's usually them in the van that I use. I wish they would talk to me... or I wish I had enough courage to talk to them. They seem different from Namjoon and Jin. Not necessarily to the level of Yoongi and not really however Hobi feels (probably mixed feelings considering Yoongi's gone so it gets awkward at times).

I don't know...

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We finally arrive at the Big Hit building to start practice. I can imagine this is gonna be yet another long day.

And cue the sigh.

- I guess, let's do this... you got this -

I try to encourage myself...

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Welp, what a day that was...

I come back home with the boys. We're all exhausted. I can tell that they are since no one has commented anything about the fact that I messed up so badly the last time we did the choreo for 'No More Dream'. It's just 'cause I'm used to the positions with Yoongi, even the song has to be changed since his parts have to be cut off or sung by either Namjoon-hyung or Hobi-hyung. The song doesn't sound as good though. There was something about Yoongi's rap that just made the song feel complete. Now it's just missing something. There's an empty space waiting to be filled...

Damn, Tired-Jimin is poetic.

- I should probably sleep before I write my own mixtape... -

And that's exactly what I do. Sleep, not write a mixtape... Sorry