Atlanta, Georgia

7:00 PM

August 22, Thursday

I walked into the house and peeled my shoes off of my feet.

Earlier I got off work at around five and had to meet up with my probation officer right after that.

It was my second week on this shit and I fucking hate it.

If I would've just did my time I wouldn't even be having to go through this bullshit.

I really ain't been on the block since I got out and I only talk to everybody if they come over here.

Yeah I ain't supposed to be around them niggas but I don't fucking listen and fuck the law.

I'm only trynna do right by Kodi.

Ever since the day I called her we've been talking on the phone nonstop.

She's goofy as hell and every time I hear her voice it just lights up my mood.

I haven't invited her over here yet but I'm thinking 'bout doing it tonight.

"Alex you hungry?"my mama asked me as she walked downstairs.

"You know it."I said while picking my shoes up off of the floor.

"Aight well it's some fried chicken wings, french fries, toast, and peach cobbler in the kitchen."

"We ain't doing this mama..."I said while shaking my head.

"Doing what?"she smirked at me.

"Helping me gain all of this weight, you see I done already got a lil buff."

"Boy your lil chest havin' ass needs some more weight on your body."

"Oh so it's like that?"

"I'm just keeping it real, as your mama."

"Yeah aight, I appreciate it."I said while beginning to head upstairs.

I stepped back once I remembered that I was gone have Koko come over here tonight.

"Aye mama..."

"Whats up son?"

"Tonight Ima have company and you mind making my plate?"

"That's cool and making your plate!?"

"Please ma, ain't you proud of me? I've been working all day and staying outta trouble."

"I am proud of you but I'm tired of making your plate every night."

"Aight let this be the last."I said.

"Oh trust me it will be."she said and I chuckled before heading upstairs to my room and hopping into the shower.

I know half of y'all wondering why I'm with my mama.

My P.O. wanted to make sure I was being supervised by someone who would keep me out of trouble, and at the time I got locked up I was house hopping.

My mama doing a good job or whatever.

She warns me about some of the shit I be doing but the only thing she can't warn me about is being around my patnas.

Once I got out of the shower, I made sure I did my daily hygiene routine before putting on my clothes.

Yeah I might be a street nigga but I'm the cleanest one I know.

Nigga might look dirty but I ain't ever that.

This shit is only to impress me though and not no other bitch or nigga.

After going downstairs to eat, I called Koko over here.

She told me that she would be on her way in about thirty minutes.

"Postín' the devil she think she me or sum! Canary yellow she thinking' she me or sum."I sang to Me or Sum by Narco Wick, Future, and Lil Baby as I drove to Scarr's mother's house.

His mother is familiar with my brother so I'm pretty sure she won't have a problem with me.

I really hope she doesn't because if she does then shit ain't gone end well.

I pulled up to her house shortly and parked my car in front of her house.

Before going inside, I texted Scarr to let him know that I was here.

I'm outside...

🤕

Bet

I fixed my hair and reapplied my lips gloss while waiting on him.

Maybe if I fix my appearance, his mama would probably accept me more knowing that I'm a pretty bitch.

Once I saw Scarr walking outside, I got out of my car.

I waited for him to let me into the gate and when I was inside the gate, he started smiling.

"Wassup."he said while staring me up and down.

"Hey."I said shyly.

"Damn I can't get a hug or none?"he asked me and I furrowed my eyebrows at him.

"Oh now you want a hug, you were just saying I was fake."

"Shawty you cap, when I said that?"

"Okay play dumb."I said while opening my arms towards him and hugging him.

He hugged me back and when I felt his arms get low, I hurried up and pulled away.

"Aight when you come inside just speak and we gone head up to my room."he said while leading me inside.

"I know nigga."I said and he stopped walking causing me to run into him.

"Bitc—stop playing"

"Watch yo mouth next time then."he said while opening the door.

"Aye mama you remember Kobi right?"he asked the short dark sinned woman with lemonade braids who stood in the kitchen.

"Yeah the tall one right?"she asked him as her attention shifted to me.

"Hi."I mouthed while smiling at her and she looked back at Scarr.

"Yeah."

"What about him?"

"This his twin sister, Kodi."

"Mhm she doesn't look like his twin sister."she said while staring at me.

"Hi."I said once again but with my voice this time.

"Well this her and can you at least speak back?"

"Boy this is my house!"

"Come on."Scarr said to me and I glanced at his mother one more time before following him upstairs.

"Don't be fucking in my house either!!!"she yelled from downstairs.

"We not ma!!"he yelled while leading me to his room.

When we got to his room I looked around.

It was clean but some of his things were just scattered in different areas.

He closed the door and I sat down on the bed.

"How you been?"he asked me and I smiled.

"I've been good, thanks for asking. How have you been?"

"Shit you see how I've been."he said while looking down at his ankle.

"On lock down ain't it? I've always wondered how that works, you mind explaining to me."

"Shit you basically just gotta meet with yo probation officer everyday let 'em know about any trouble you done got in. If you done got into some shit they gotta send your ass back to that hell hole. You can't really do shit else."

"What happens if you go back?"

"You gotta serve a two year sentence depending on how many violations you got."

"Mhm. Well it looks like I won't be getting locked up anytime soon."I flipped my hair while leaning back on the bed and looking at him.

"Why the fuck you always wearing lip gloss and lashes?"

"I don't look cute?"

"Did I fucking say that?"

"No but I'm just saying, do I look ugly or something?"

"Quit putting words in my mouth, why you always wearing that shit though?"

"'Cause I want to and I fucking paid for it, problem?"

"What I tell you when we was coming in?"

"Fuck all of that, you got a problem with what I'm wea—"I began to say before I felt a water bottle hit my forehead.

"Why you do that?"I asked him while rubbing my forehead.

"I told you to watch yo mouth."

"That don't mean you fucking hit me with a water bo—"I began to say before he hit me again.

"That's it I'm calling your probation officer."I joked while pulling my phone out and he laughed causing me to.

"You funny as hell."

"How long you gone be on probation?"I asked him.

"Shit about two years and three months."

"You know you didn't really have to help me that night."

"Why the fuck you always bringing that up? That shit is in the past now, leave it. It already happened."

"Well maybe I just want to reassure you on how thankful I am for you being there and how much I respect you for what you did."

"Don't you think you've done that enough?"he asked me and I shrugged.

"Nah I'm serious though quit thanking me for that. Shit it really wasn't even about you, I had been looking for the nigga."

"So you didn't do it to help me out?"

"I did but at the same time no."

"So if it was another nigga you would've just let it happen, right?"

"I'm not saying th—"

"Well what the fuck are you saying because I'm confused!?"

"Watch yo mou—"

"Nah for real I'm not playing. What are you saying? You're really not a good person and you've just been putting on a front this whole time!? Using me and shit 'cause you were locked up and now you're on probation and can't do shit!?"I spat while getting up off of his bed.

"That ain—"

"Nah save it!"I semi yelled before opening his room door.

"I ain't finna chase you shawty!"

"I ain't asking you to anyways, fuck you."I said while walking down the stairs.

I walked out of their house and headed back to my car.

Once I was inside, I headed home.