It was when I got the final blow. It was when I finally gave up of finding love. I don't want it anymore if this is what the universe want for me. I just gave up. Although it gives me a constant pain in my heart. I know for the nth time I could recover. It's just so tiring. Really, really tiring.

Please universe, if you dont want me to be with someone else, then so be it. Just make my heart stonecold. This time, I promise for real, not anymore. I just surrender.

It might hurt a lot today, but I promise I will come back. Strong and someone who doesnt give a fuck.