February 15, 2020 Saturday

It's been two years and eight months since my transformation and now everyone has found out. I am the queen and soon to be moon goddess.

Did I almost forget to say that I'm 21 and my babies are three years old

I've also gotten some tattoos over the years so I'm pretty different to the eye.

everyone knows me around the world now but they don't know my name or where I live. they just know me as Queen Luciana, I don't know why they call me Luciana.

Maybe because the meaning is a beautiful Latin name which was originally given to children born as the daylight was breaking.

I am both light and dark.

I am both kind and sinister, but there is one thing I will not do while being dark.

I will not hurt my family. That's the light part but I will hurt anyone that hurts my family that is my darkness

it's been three years, and those years have been kind to me but they also been terrible.

let's just say when I told Damien that I was going to change. I changed in a big way, some people didn't like it. some people just dealt with it. it's not like I went dark on everybody. I stayed in the light in some ways. I still kept my old ways, but I had to change for the better of my family.

I know who to go dark on and it's not the family that I went dark on it's the ones that are threatened by me. those are the ones that will get my Darkside.

my children, Jacqueline, Damien the pack, and this whole town is my family, but because of me changing my ways, somebody is threatened by me now.

So yes I will have a problem. they will see the Darkside. other than that I will only show the light to the ones I love, and to the ones that I'm threatened by. well let's just say whenever I do come by one of those then I'll figure that out, but right now I'm with my children and all I care about is them right now.

"mommy! mommy !mommy!"

Both of my three-year-old girls came running towards me screaming mommy. I wonder what they found now.

"what did y'all find now? "

Did I forget that we were looking for houses? yeah we're looking for houses. me and the girls are finally moving out of Jacqueline's house. me and Jacqueline didn't fight it was just time for me and my girls to leave. The girls are getting bigger and sooner or later maybe I might find someone and maybe we would want to start a family.

only time will tell.

" a room with a little door. come on and look."

"see the door."

Both my daughters told me about the door and told me to go inside. I mean I wanted to see what is inside the door to but this is a big house. What could be behind this little door?

"let's go inside mommy"

I finally open the little door and when I did I saw stairs. how can stairs be here and they're not even in this house to where I can see them. I started to go inside but my daughter's started to follow me. I don't know if I should let them. I'm scared to what I find down here.

"sorry babies Mommy's going to go by herself and check this out before I let y'all go ok."

"OK.OK."

They both said OK simultaneously I wanted to take them with me but this is a new house or old house I don't know but I had to check this out before I take my babies anywhere.

now, I mean they take their adventure from me. I see why they want to go and look through this little door but Mamas got to check it out first.

"When I get back I'll take y'all OK."

"Ok"

as I started walking down the stairs they began to get longer and longer and longer. I don't know where the stairs came from but I haven't seen them in the house and they sure as hell are dusty. nobody has clean down here

"Hello is anybody here. Worth a try."

I finally made it to the end the thing is I thought it would've been a little bit better but every level I passed was just rooms the final level it's kind a like a tunnel

I think I might keep this house. If anything ever happened to the ones I love I at least know where I can hide them. where I can keep them safe. where I can keep my children safe specifically. I went back up and found my girls sitting. waiting for me. I smiled at them and told them if they wanted to go and look around because this is gonna be our new home and they jumped and said yes

me and the girls walked all over the house and checked every room.

The house is gorgeous and I wouldn't choose any other one.

There was enough room for the girls to play and run.

A lovely metal staircase when you walk in. The house was a Victorian-style but I styled the house in my own way and kept some places the same

I passed the first and second floor. those are going to be the guest rooms. the third floor is going to be Seraphina and Corvina's room the fourth floor will be mine.

I stopped by a door that Corvina was looking in.

"Do you want this room?"

"Yes."

"Ok, imagine how you want it ok."

She nodded her head and I moved my hand until her room appeared as she wished for.

She screamed and yelled thank you mommy. After doing her room I went to Seraphina.

"Hey, baby, you chose your room already."

"☑️."

She is such a sweetheart and so forward. I don't know what I would do without my two babies. They are my light to the little darkness I have growing. Why just why do I have to have darkness in me. Why can't I be a pure soul instead of half-light and half dark?

"Ok, imagine what you want your room to look like.

Do you have an idea in mind?"

"Yes, I do."

"Ok, here we go close your eyes and think about the room."

I moved my hands again and the design that she wanted for the room appeared.

Both of my daughters have different taste of style. One likes the chic style. The other prefers a more Victorian style.

And once I was done with theirs, I went to my floor and to designed mine.

I first wanted to do the bedroom. my style is between theirs. I have a chic style but also Victorian style mix in mine.

After thinking about my room I did my magic and there it was my room. I liked the difference between one and the girls even though I kept it original.

Next is the bathroom.

Yes, the bathroom. The master bathroom. All to me

To be honest I left it the way it was but fixed some things that needed to be fixed. Like the plumbing, and the walls needed to be painted. I also put new curtains, because I sure as hell don't want someone to see me nude.

Last but not least the office. Cause I don't know what to do with the rest of the house yet. Still, have ideas just don't know if their good or not. Like I want to did a sunroom or my own home movie theater but I'm still thinking.

So I finally made up my mind on how I want my office and I came up with a suggestion. I'm putting my office in the library. Yes, the library. The girls are not likely to go in there. Well right now.

I went downstairs to the second floor towards the library and did my thing.

I moved my hand and the next thing that appeared in the room was what I imagined in my head.

my office came out to what I imagine what it would be like. A desk, two chairs in the front, and four chairs around a table.

Once I finished the room I went to the kitchen and started making dinner. I invited the family over, but there is something off. I need to talk to the girls.

I'm Not talking about Seraphina or Corvina. I'm talking about Jacqueline and the rest of the coven that's here in town.

Ever since my powers have grown I've been getting this feeling that something about to happen and I need to tell them before it's too late.

maybe it's just me but I don't feel the same. my mother hasn't contacted me in over three months already. I don't know if this is a sign or maybe I'm just in that stage where I can't go that long without missing her.

or maybe it's just me. being a moon goodess is busy. I should know I've been a queen down here for almost 5 years already and it's active to where I barely see my baby girls. I see them on Saturdays and Sundays but on the weekdays I only get to see them when they go to sleep or during lunchtime.

I wonder what being a moon Goddess would be like. I'm not saying I want to be one right now.

I'm just saying if it's gonna be worse then being queen and not being able to see my daughters like I want. then my mother Musta gave up a lot.

I feel for her but she should have left me with memories of her. She could have told me what I was to become, but she left me with my drunken father who hated me. Who never talked about her.

I just wished she told me who I was. But she let me grow as a mortal knowing she mated me with a werewolf.

I don't despise my mom I love her. I just wish she told me or left a letter or book for me to read saying what I was to become, but that never happened.

My mind drifted off towards me being queen. how I don't even spend time with my daughters. to one day I will be Moon goddess. I also drifted to my mother, but I remembered that I have people coming and that I'm cooking so no more off-topic.

Ding dong

"Hey, girl."

Hey, bitches, like I said again this is the first book I'm writing so if I'm bad please don't judge but if you do well I don't give a fudge.