《The Survivors Of Eden》13
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Lachlan and I spent the next few weeks together as much as possible. We didn't waste a moment, filling our days with kisses, hugs, and all the sweet things you could imagine. We tried to be normal for the short time we had together, not thinking of the emotional consequences we would face when the EcoPan was fixed and ready for me. Lachlan did a good job keeping my mind off of that. When I was with him he made me feel alive, and I didn't worry what it would be like to give that up.
Nonetheless, the EcoPan is now fixed and my few weeks of freedom are over. I try to remind myself that it was stolen time anyways. It was all a gift. And now, for my last night as a normal human, I want to spend time with my family. Lachlan and I are on our way to my mother's house where we will all sit down for dinner, say our goodbyes, and then send me off. Lachlan doesn't hold my hand on the way there. We walk in silence and I feel the tension grow.
Not now, I think. Not now when I need his support most. I can't have him doubting me.
"Hey," I say gently, slipping my hand in his. "I need you right now."
We exchange small smiles but he looks uncertain and my stomach feels hollow. He could never understand how important this is to me. When we reach my mother's house he stops, looking at me guiltily. I look at him, realizing what he's about to do.
"I'm not staying," he says, rubbing the back of his neck nervously. "I...I can't. I'm camping on the beach for the night...I'm getting away. I've tried to be strong for you Rowan but...this is too much. I can't watch you become the EcoPan again. Once was enough. I don't want you to be mad at me but..."
"Just go," I whisper. I close my eyes, holding back the emotion. I'm not going to let myself falter because of him again. I'm not going to let myself break. What difference does it make anyway? It was going to be over the second I became the EcoPan. Maybe it's only fair that I let him walk away by his own will.
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"I love you," he says apologetically. "It's just too much...knowing I'm never going to see you again." Tears fill his eyes. To him, I am dying. And I find myself thinking the same thing he said to me a few weeks ago, I should have never fallen for you again. We've made this so much more difficult on ourselves for our own selfish reasons. But I don't want my last day to be about him leaving. I insist on having a good night with my family regardless.
"I love you too," I say, holding his face in my hands. "You were the love of my life. Goodbye. I'll be watching you."
He kisses me lingeringly, takes one more good look at me, memorizing my face, then walks away. As much as I'm hurt, I know it's worse for him. He has to live his whole life without me. Me, however, all I have to do is make it through this last night. I can't blame him for choosing to walk away. All he wanted to do was protect the last little bit of his heart that would have shattered had he not gotten the chance to say a proper goodbye in private. I take a deep breath, feeling my feet grow a bit heavier as I walk inside.
When I step into my mother's warm home I am met with all the faces I love most. Some are sitting at the table, others sitting on makeshift couches. After the people of Eden were freed they inevitably didn't take well to some of Harmonia's traditions. The glass houses were one of them. Instead, the people who felt that they wanted private houses were assisted in building them and regulating how to use as little natural resources as possible. Nature will always come first in Harmonia. My mother decided to leave her glass sphere, not because she didn't like the lack of privacy, but rather she couldn't imagine staying in the home without me. So her, Ash, and all our friends helped her build her new, smaller home, and she of course helped them in return. First I hug my mother, taking comfort in her the way I always have. She glances back at the door and I suspect that she realizes Lachlan isn't coming. It hasn't been a secret Lachlan and I have been trying to make up for the lost time these past few weeks, and she can assume he'd be with me.
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I see that everyone is dressed up in tunics nicer than an average day. I suppose this is a nice occasion, my final supper. I almost want to joke about it with Ash, but decide it's better not to. I know this isn't easy for him, but thankfully he understands. Other than humanity, nothing matters more to me than Ash's happiness. And if he's going to be okay without me, they all will be.
"I'm glad you could make it," Ash says when he hugs me and I smile in confusion.
"Obviously," I say, punching him playfully in the shoulder. "It would be awfully rude of me to stand you guys up."
"Well...I'm just glad you could make it to the wedding," he says then gives me a kiss on the cheek, turning away to talk to someone else. I grab his shoulder to keep him from walking away and I look at him expectantly. "Well, you didn't think I was getting married without my big sis by my side?"
I see Ash's face turn into a grin as he sees the realization hit me fast. With all the excitement of Secundus, I almost forgot he was engaged. Tears fill my eyes as I realize they moved their wedding up for me. I suspect they would want a small wedding anyway since there's no legal marriage in Harmonia. To them, love is love and a silly paper doesn't change that. For the most part, the only documents are records of births and deaths so our future generations can make sense of us. Our stories can't follow us forever.
I bring Ash into a tight hug, nearly suffocating him in the process. I try to bring all my love for him, all our lives, to this one hug. This is why I believe in humanity.
When people refer to a moment as 'animal' they mean that it is wild, dangerous, or disgusting. And when we refer to something as 'human' it is vulnerable or understandable. But it's quite the opposite, wouldn't one think? And if there's one thing I can learn from being the EcoPan and being human...it's that we can be both. We can be selfish humans and vulnerable animals. And this is what I've learned most from my family since I've come home again. They are my humanity. And when I'm lost to the machine they will guide me down the right path...even after they are gone.
So moments later as I watch my brother marry the person he loves most, I understand the duality of humans. The change, the difference, the mistakes. The coincidences, the surprises. But most of all I learn true love and true partnership. I learn to never truly separate from those I love. I relearn what I thought I already knew. Do any of us actually understand humanity? Or love?
And in this moment, I understand what I want. For the first time in so long, I don't have a doubt. And I wonder how I couldn't have done this sooner. I wonder how I couldn't have done this the moment I saw Lachlan's sweet sobbing face when he tried to stop me from becoming the EcoPan.
Aaron is now dead, and his secrets are not mine. Nor are his values or decisions as the EcoPan. And as much as I talk about being connected to my family through the EcoPan, I don't want to watch them die. I don't want to die when my duty as the EcoPan is over. I want to live a full, happy, life with the people I love. And despite Aaron keeping it a secret all these years, the truth will finally be out.
I can take them with me.
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8 121The Twin Lands
Join our heroine Enru on her journey in a world where humanity lives in perpetual light and warm while their enemies, the spider beings called Araxin, live in perpetual darkness and cold. Just because they live in the darkness and cold though doesn’t mean the Araxin want to stay there forever however, and this time their bid for the Southern half of the continent looks to be shaping up worse for humanity than ever before. Every ten years the planet nears its second sun in such a way that the Northern half of the continent warms and thaws and the Araxin enter a period of explosive growth, before always attempting to assault the humans in the South. Through events that you will need to read and discover yourself, sixteen year old Enru ends up vital to the survival of humanity, but can she succeed? In a world full of humans, dragons, giant intelligent spiders, trogs, behemoths lurking in the deep, magic, politics (can’t forget the politics) and more, what wonders await you? NOTE: This is my very first attempt at writing ever. Not just my first attempt I am showing people or my first attempt that went anywhere, but my first of any kind. I welcome constructive critisism and I know my grammar is not always the best. If something is majorly bothering you please leave a good comment or review on it rather than just a 0.5 rating and saying I suck. NOTE2: The main character will be gaining power that is, if used correctly, well above the standard for her race however I plan to implement it in such a way that she does not end up being crazy over powered and able to end every fight at her whim. She will struggle, she will lose sometimes and there will be loss along her journey to save her race. There will be no harem and I am unsure if there will be any sex scenes or even romance as this is my first story and I am not confident yet at being able to write that properly. So if you came here for the standard royalroad super OP guy that flies around having sex with every female character he meets, this is not that. Update Frequency: As this is my first story and I am still in the early stages, I cannot say how often updates will be. I lead a very busy life and this is a new way for me to relieve stress. I hope to be able to put out a few thousand words every few days at the least. Enjoy the story! PS. Cover was found on the website thedailybell.com, they did not source where they found it. I rotated and resized the image.
8 76Amygdala Hijack - A Genetic Engineering Sci-Fi Novel of Impending Dystopia
A platinum-gold obelisk crash-lands on a Saskatchewan farm, warning of imminent alien invasion. Peter Scott, a science podcaster with ratings in decline, considers this a gift from heaven. He plans to reinvigorate the show's slumping popularity by interviewing a cast of edgy experts with brazen proposals to defend Earth from the anticipated invaders. But the planet has bigger issues than space marauders. That's because it's 2037, and DNA is just another programming language. Gene editing has vaulted society toward anarchy as humans rapidly hybridize, modifying their bodies with edited DNA, robotics, and computer interfaces. Add to that the constant existential threats from engineered microbes. Alien invasions, social disruptions, and pandemics are not the only concerns for Peter and team. Shadowy forces will stop at nothing to kill the podcast – or them. (episodes 1-28 of 159 in the series)
8 63Grasping Destiny (Temporary Hiatus)
Growing up in a world of cultivators with guidance and love doesn't stop a young boy from meeting a cruel fate.He lays too still for a living boy, but right before death's embrace an unbeknownst force intervenes. When he returns to the land of the living, he exudes a new mentality and his body thrums with newfound strength. Strength so profound that untold power is easily within his reach. The power to protect loved ones, the power to supplant the strong and the power to stand on top of the cultivating world.All the power he has ever dreamed of, and more. All he has to do is tempt fate.Dare he grasp it?** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** **WARNING: Tagged [18+] for strong language, gore and violence. Novel has some game-like elements. Credit for title and synopsis goes to Cerethor.
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After he'd slain the Spider Mastermind, Doomguy was betrayed by Dr. Samuel Hayden. The Crucible was taken from him, and the doctor had believed he'd sent Doomguy back to Hell. Instead, Doomguy has been sent to the world of Remnant. Now, stripped of his power, Doomguy must accustom himself to life on Remnant, while also contending with life with four new, quirky allies.I do not own any of the characters in this story. Respective rights go to Rooster Teeth for RWBY and Bethesda Softworks & id Software for DOOM. Enjoy!
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