Chris and I were having a real problem! We kept renting bdsm themed porn movies (for you vanilla readers thats Bondage · Discipline or Dominance* · Sadism or Submission* · Masochism or Master* - *depending on who you ask) but every time they were about to get to the good part - the SEX part - the damned movie would end!! We spent hours watching these people prepare to have some really mind blowing sex - teasing the hell out of each other! Tying her (or him) up... Threatening to do this, that or the other if they didn't comply... and there they'd be - tied to the bed or a rack or on their knees, blindfolded, naked or gagged - and the movie would end!

No, I'm not kidding!

It was like there was a part two that the video store didnt give us! BUT EVERY SINGLE ONE?! COME ON!!

Oh sure... Laugh if you want to but I'm telling you, it was starting to affect our sexlife! Talk about a come down!

I guess you could say we became a bit obsessed then. We were at that video store every evening to return the of movies we'd rented the previous night only to pick out another 5, 6 or maybe even 7 more movies to take back home with us. But they always seemed to be missing the big finale! The last 10 minutes! The (can we say...) CLIMAX!

Now, if you add that up in hours, we're talking about 10 to 15 hours worth of movies - daily! After the first couple of days, it got to where we would put the video in and just fast forward thru the whole thing just pausing every once in a while to watch a part that seemed promising. but still... nothing!

Finally, one night when we walked into the video store, particularly irritable about the whole thing, I said,

"What the hell is it with these movies?! Is there some club you have to be in to get the ones with the happy endings? I mean, what the fuck?!"

And the store manager looked a little confused and said,

"There are no bdsm flicks with sex in them. Its against the law!"

"Oh, you didn't know?"

Chris and I stood there, dumbfounded. I felt the heat turning my ears a deep shade of red as I contemplated how to get this guy to return all the money we had spent on these terrible and grossly misleading pieces of bad filmmaking! Oh! And the acting!!!

Wait... These people weren't exactly acting, were they? I mean, they were getting whipped and spanked and hmmm... My thoughts went back to Leather Anne. She had laughed at my naivety. But I knew something now that I didn't know back then...

No, I'm not going to tell you that it happened to me! Although I now know there people who get off from pain itself, I am not one of them. The infliction of pain will never be the cause of an orgasm in me, much less a mind shattering one! But... I had learned something since that night...

I wonder if you can feel me blushing while I write this...

When the sex is intense, and endorphins are raging... is no pain!

It's true! When the forplay has left me breathless and the anticipation has me unable to see straight... You can whip me, spank me, fuck me in my ass! I will feel no pain! sensation! They get added to the myriad of bursts of lightning and heat and all I can feel is it building up from my core. It rises up thru my body - this energy - this ball of fire that I can no longer contain. My eyes are open but I can't see ... Can't hear anything but my own heartbeat and the sound of a freight train, as it roars thru me and explodes out the top of my head!

And then - I sleep.