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I finally made it out of my last period and i quickly ran home. I felt the worst. I hated myself for treating Mikasa so poorly, just because she liked someone else. As I heard my friends call my name, I just ran faster. I knew I was the second fastest in the year, and the first was Riener, so I didnt think they would catch up to me.

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As i eventually got home, my head was down, and my happieness was the lowest it has ever been. I walked up the stairs to my house and saw a red smudge on the floor. 'That's weird' I thought. As i looked up, i was horrified. My door was wide open, with blood everywhere and all sorts of rubish over the floor. As i walked in i saw broken plates, smashed windows, open cuboards and.... a corpse. My Mum was robbed and murdered....

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It was late in the evening and the police finished clearing up, and i finished screaming my head off. I was contemplating suicide most of the time as i thought thier was no reason for me to live anymore. I dont have anyone to love, and no one loves me. I was sitting on the pavement against a wall as a cop walked up to me.

" Umm...kid sorry again for your loss, i know you dont wanna talk but i just need to know if thier is anyone nearby that you trust to take a night in until tommorow where we can find you a suitable home." He sounded very sorrowfull. I new thier was always Mikasa but... I knew i needed to ask them.... I Nodded my head and said my nieghbors. This was going to be horrible.

As we knocked on the door we saw Mikasa wearing my scarf looking shocked.

"MUUUUM!!!" Mikasa shouted. When Mikasa's mum came the cops exclaaimed to her what happend, and he said that I knew Mikasa very well and if i could stay with them for the night. Luckily, they said yes and i started to get 'unpacking'. Eventhough we were robbed, i managed to salvage some clothes. Me and Mikasa both knew we needed some time away from eachother so i decided to ask if i could sleep on the couch. Luckily Mikasa's mum was very nice and polite so sheallowed me to. After that i just sat on the couch thinking....Thinking of what i just went through...Of how it was real life....Life is so cruel.

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It was in the middle of the night and i still couldnt sleep. It wasnt school tommorow though so If i could manage to sleep now i would still be able to sleep aslong as i want. But after about 10 more minutes i gave up. I just couldnt stop thing about what happend. I started to tear up. I just couldnt handle this so i knew what i had to do to calm down. I got up from the couch with still blurred eyesight from the tears. I adventured to the kitchen and managed to find a small sharp knife.

"Perfect." I mumbled as i strolled over to the bathroom. And then i started. I started to have small cuts on my arm, and started to moan out with pain and pleasure. I soon realised the adrenaline was helping with my thoughts. I needed more i thought. Soon enought i made 5 cuts on eacharm, Every one getting deeper and deeper, till the last one was nearlly jabbing half way. I was about to make another one till i heard a knok at the door. 'Shit' I thought.