《Seeing Red》This is the part it kinda gets bad
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"Don't fucking touch me!" I pushed his hand away.
"Tara-"
"Stop saying my name that way, Stop. Please stop saying my name." I broke down.
Something inside me snapped, I didn't want to run away anymore. I wanted to scream, I wanted to cry and I wanted to let my feelings free.
And so I did, I didn't hold back. I let it all out.
"You are selfish. You cared about me only as long as it was profitable to you." I cried.
"No that's not-"
"Sorry my bad, you never cared. I was just some stupid fan girl for you to take advantage of. No you're not responsible for my heart or the fact it still cares for you, what you're responsible for is-"
"So you do still care-"
"See! It's always about you. Everything is always about you. When was the last time you thought about someone other than you??"
Silence.
"That's what I thought, don't even get me started about the kiss. I was head over heels for you way before it and that just made me completely melt and to you it was nothing."
"No-"
"Don't lie anymore, you said it meant nothing. You just invalided everything I felt towards you. I'm starting to think you just go around kissing people, oops forgot my wallet at home maybe I'll kiss the grocer and take my groceries home for free-"
"I don't do that Tara. I don't kiss people for free groceries?"
"It's pointless trying to explain anything to you." I laughed wiping the tears off my face.
"If only-"
"You lost your last if only long ago, you never wrote back, you never looked for me. It says enough." I sighed . "So, in conclusion you've caused me a lot of pain." I looked into his eyes, emotionless. "But somehow, I still don't hate you. And I'm afraid-" I didn't want to complete this sentence anymore.
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I zipped the bag shut and walked out of that apartment, the city was falling asleep, I knocked at Charlotte's door, handed her the bag and left.
What was I doing in this awful place? Stop filling my mind with memories anymore. Why don't you want to let me hate him?
I managed to find myself at Harriet's apartment door. I knocked on it, hoping she was still awake.
I heard the locks click, she emerged clearly quite sleepy. Rubbing her eyes trying to figure out why the fuck her older sister was standing at her door, weeping.
"Dummy! What happened?" She pulled me into her arms.
She guided me to the couch, and sat me down to get me a glass of water. I drank the water, cried some more and then laughed like a maniac.
"Tara, tell me what you're doing here, all of it." She wiped my tears away.
I told her about how worried we got after the FaceTime with Mia, Charlotte decided that she had to come get her daughter till Charles got his shit together. Followed by everything that went down at the apartment.
"Go on, finish that sentence for me."
"No, I- I can't."
"You don't have to be afraid, it's me. Your dear Harry not Charles!" She laughed.
"Don't laugh at me or beat me up." I took a deep breathe and continued, " I'm afraid that if I'm around him, I might actually forgive him."
"Why do you have to be afraid?"
"Because I won't just forgive him stupid! I'll fall in love with-No. I'm not speaking anymore." I placed my hands on my mouth.
Was I admitting to being in Love? I mean who'd love a smart, charming, witty and beautiful man right? Yuck.
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"Tara's in LOOOOOVVEEE!" She teased me.
"Shut up. Just give me a blanket, I'll sleep here." Patted the couch. "Your place needs a pick up, I'll do that tomorrow morning before I leave."
"Stop with the housemaid talk!" She threw a blanket at me. "Sleep well and if you need hugs I'll be on my bed trying to plot murder."
I wished her a good night and pulled the blanket over myself.
Fuck. I just admitted to being in love with him. But I just messed it all up, I literally exploded on him. Forget about being loved Tara, you'd be lucky if he didn't get a restraining order against you.
I lay there, staring at the ceiling. I hate emotions, I hate feelings and I hate how they mess up everything I do.
I could hear someone faintly calling my name, it got louder every minute until it became very distinct. I knew who it was.
My heart and head felt so heavy as I slid out of the blanket and walked to the balcony.
There he was, defeated, on his knees screaming my name. The neighbours started switching on their lights to see who this idiotic bleating goat was.
"Tara, let me in. You never let me explain myself." He cried.
"I'm sorry, I can't let you in. Find a way." I smirked. Gosh it felt good, for once to be the one dictating what happens next.
"Well this leaves me no choice."
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Undeniable Attraction ✓
"And where the hell is the supposed assistant?" He angrily asked. "I'm here." A soft voice answered shyly. There was something about the voice that was oddly familiar. He was ready to fire the person until he turned around to find no one other than Shayan West, a woman he heavily despised. Her heart was pounding in her chest loudly as she stared at him, it was him, standing in front of her after five years. Everything was going great for Shayan until her new boss arrived. What happens when her new boss turns out to be no one other than Kel Adrios, the man who caused so much drama in her life. Would she continue working or quit? Will they overcome their misunderstanding and start a new or loose their love to revenge? After all it takes two to tango and the more you hate, the more you fall in love. Read to find out. You will experience a surge of emotions and your heart strings will be played like a guitar chord.Check out my blog belowhttps://niannilifestyleblog.wordpress.com/2020/07/29/how-to-deal-with-your-insecurities/
8 296Falling for a Star (Complete)
I had never paid much attention to celebrity gossip or what was going on in Hollywood because that was so far from the lifestyle I lived as a poor college student, working as a barista to save up for my own house after graduation. But then, without my knowledge, my Dad submitted my name into a talk show sweepstakes to win a week with Hollywood superstar Dylan Chase, to see what it's like to live like a celebrity for a week. My Dad thought it would be the perfect chance for me to get out of Iowa, see the world and have an adventure for once. I was dreading leaving home, flying for the first time and going by myself all the way to L.A. Plus the idea of spending a week with an arrogant, rich, snobby actor that was probably the worst kind of womanizer didn't sound like my idea of fun. What I found when I got there and met Dylan was the total opposite; a man that was humble, hard working, easy to talk to, and down to earth. Spending a week in Paradise in the guest house of Dylan Chase's Malibu mansion right on the beach, attending a movie premiere on his arm, shopping on Rodeo Drive and eating at five star restaurants was like a dream come true, but sleeping in his bed and falling for a guy from a completely different world than me was never part of the plan because we could never end up together. WARNING - 18+ Very mature sexual scenes.Highest Rankings: #2 in Erotic Romance out of 12,000 stories.#1 in Celebrity out of 18,000 stories
8 447HIS BABY
Watching the most desirable man that ever walked the planet is captivating. He is titillating mouth-watering with so much sex appeal. All women look at him, they stare with lust, seductiveness wanting him to pay attention to them, but he does not show interest. I just stood watching him as he stimulated my senses. He casually walked towards the office, not even taking a glance around him. My heart began to slow down when he disappeared into his room. Then the door closed. So many sighs could be heard coming from women who had their mouths agape. I smiled, taking my seat to finish my workload.
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8 179Ugly Bones || p.jm
❝What is the use of a pretty face if you're ugly on the inside. Ugly all the way to your bones.❞Jimin Park is a writer who is disappointed by the rejections thrown his way by publishing houses and Kazimir Lee, a pretty shopkeeper who tries to scam him into buying bread by double the price, just happens to be the only one with the right words to set his writing soaring up to the sky. But where Jimin is awed by her writing, Kazimir is too busy wringing metaphors right out of her bones to fill the voids inside her before inking them down on paper. They cross paths enough times for Jimin to become a secondary character in the book of her life right where the plot twist is supposed to be. But Jimin is too caught up in the words that slip from her fingertips unto the keyboard to notice he picked up a book with a trigger warning about an illness typed in invisible ink just beneath the beautiful cover and the captivating writing style. Will he be able to take her out of the dark abyss she had started to call 'family' or will he too, be pushed down among all the people that merely walked her pages but never managed to understand the extent of pain one may suffer on the hands of a merciless fate engraved on her bones long before she was born and even more so, the unnamed consequences of bearing the burdens of a well-favored face. Ugly Bones - storefront ©2020, a dark-themed slow burn romance.(First Draft.)>Winter Flower Awards First Place Winner!
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⚠️trigger warning ⚠️ please do not read if you are sensitive to strong language, self harm, depression, anxiety, or r*pe !!!in which y/n had been r*ped and can't put a finger on the profile of who she believed had been her rapist.
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