It has been good the last few days. He has kept his promise, returned on time, and given me the attention I desire.

Nevertheless, here I am again waiting for him like a foul. 'sigh'

It's already 3.

I just made a fool of myself, didn't I? It's already the third time he has broken his promise.

WHY CAN'T I JUST FUCKIN LET GO OF HIM?

And here he is yet again looking like someone who just had sex.

When was the last time we had sex? Maybe 7 months?

Was he oblivious to me or did he ignore me and leave to go to ou- his room?

I guess it's time for me to go and sleep to.

Wait why was I awake again? If he doesn't care then why should I?

But I still go and do care gosh I am such a stupid bitch can't you see he is done with you.

But why can't he say it to my face? Does he still feel a little?

No not a chance well it's funny how a cute and happy relationship turns into an one sided love in few years.

Throwing the food into the bin I made my way to my room.

I don't think it's even worth preparing food if every meal just ends up in the trash.

The feeling of utopia that arose during the beginning of our relationship makes me wonder if I will ever be able to experience it again.