A/n:this story is kinda dying.

I go in the bathroom with my towel on and let it drop to the floor and step out of its circle I go in the shower and turn it on letting the hot water hit my cold skin relaxing my muscles, combing my hair with my finger while looking up a little with my eyes closed.

It was raining outside the rain always reminded me of my mom. I could then feel my eyes become glossy remembering everything I then get to showering myself by using my fav body soap and do all that skin routine stuff.

I get out and grab a fresh towel I go up to the mirror thunder sounds filled the room from time to time I looked at myself and felt miserable worthless just ew I drop the towel and go to the bed and lay there naked but under the sheets I think of mattia how we met how stupid.

I think of him and realize I don't know this man and I'm gonna marry him this reminds me of the book I read wouldn't think it would actually happen I play with my fingers and think dirty things I wanna do to mattia and then think of how he may get the death penalty he's a drug lord it's likely to happen.

"Ok I better get some sleep" I said a little terrified of what I thought and got comfortable on the bed

So my bf is ignoring me

This boys ain't shit

Bye