A week has went by since the whole I'm a rat thing. Everything is still tense, everytime one of the guys came around me i still jump or get nerves. My mom told me that it'll blow away. But I'm convinced that it won't. Happy and i are doing okay, I can still see that the hurt is still there but more then less we doing good. I pulled into the lot and stepped out of my car. I walked over to the picnic tables and set down. My brother came over and set with me.

Jax: you doing okay?

Elizabeth: a little

Jax: your still a little jumpy

Elizabeth: yeah I am.

Jax: anything you need me to help you with? Talk?

Elizabeth: I don't need a therapist jackson. I'll be okay, just give me time.

Jax: i know sis, I just feel bad for the way I treated you.

Elizabeth: and you been telling me that everyday now. Jackson i forgive you.

Jax: i know.

Elizabeth: I'll be fine, I still love you guys all the same. Just give me time.

Jax: alright sis

Elizabeth: how is able and Jonathan?

Jax: doing good

Elizabeth: good.

We was sitting there in silence when i felt someone's hand on my shoulders. I jumped a little.

Tig: shit sorry goddess.

Elizabeth: it's alright tig.

Jax and tig shared a look.

Tig: clay called a meeting man, in about five.

Jax: alright, you going to be okay sis?

Elizabeth:I'll be fine.

Tig and jax walked back into the clubhouse. Happy pulled in and walked over to me. He picked me up and layed me down then kissed me.

Elizabeth: hap you have to be in the Chapel in five.

Happy: yeah i know. Just wanted a kiss.

Elizabeth: well thank you and here is another.

Chib: happy chapel.

Happy: i got to go, I'll see ya later baby.

A few minutes later i walked into the clubhouse and start helping halfsack unload the beer we just got in.

Halfsack: you going to get in trouble you know that?

Elizabeth: oh well, got nothing else to do. Can't go home, mom kicked me out of the office. There's nothing else to do.

Halfsack: alright.

We started stacking up beer putting them in place.

Halfsack: so

Elizabeth: so what?

Halfsack: what do you think about the weather?

Elizabeth: do you have any better things to talking about then the weather?

Halfsack: can't really talk to you about much. Orders you know.

Elizabeth: ya the damn club rules.

Halfsack: you like football?

Elizabeth: no, but I was a cheerleader

Halfsack: cool

My dad then came out of the chaple.

Clay: Elizabeth chaple now!

Elizabeth: now what? I've been in trouble five times this week. I feel like a kid again.

I walked into the chapel and took the empty seat between my brother and happy.

Elizabeth: what am I in trouble for now?

Tig: first thing why are you helping halfsack? Stocking the bar is his job, he is a prospect.

Elizabeth: I got nothing else to do. Mom kicked me out of the office, can't go anywhere. I'm not about to sit around and scare at four walls.

Clay: I'll talk to mom about why she kicked you out. And you are aloud to go out with

Elizabeth: someone with me I know. But I can't very well do that cause you all are in here.

Jax: did you wake up in the wrong side of the bed or something? You got a attitude out of this world.

Elizabeth: no I woke up fantastic mood.

Clay: quite now.

Elizabeth: what you guys need?

Clay: jax here notice you still are a little jumpy.

Elizabeth: couldn't let it go, could you.

Tig: hey it was my doing to.

Elizabeth: well i am fine.

Just then i felt two pairs of hands hit my shoulders and I jump. Bad mastake.

Clay: what do you know, thought you was fine.

Elizabeth: ya and? Is this my little therapy group?

Jax: would you quite.

Elizabeth: I'm find really, just give me time.

Happy: you had time babe, your time is up.

Elizabeth: what do you me to say? yes I still jump, yes the image it's still with me. It's not going to go away over night. I have scares and there going to stay there for ahwile. ( I looked down) the pain still there.

Clay: what can we do to help? That's what this is about?

Tig: ya goddess, we don't want to see you

like this.

Elizabeth: rewind the past.

Jax: wish we could sis.

Elizabeth: take the detail off of me then. Stal is gone.

Clay: hale still here through. And as much as we love you, we don't trust hale.

Elizabeth: or me right?

Clay: sweetheat we trust you

Elizabeth: then take the detail off, do a trial run.

Clay: we can't do that just yet

Elizabeth: see trust isn't there, I'm not going to stop being jumpy and nerves when i know you guys can't trust me. We family, family trust each other. If the trust isn't there then everything is broken.

Jax: sis

Elizabeth: no, I'm done. I got things to do.

I got up and walked out of the chapel, tears running down my face.

Gemma: baby whats the matter?

Elizabeth: ask the therapist.

I walked out and over to the office and shut the door.

Gemma: what did you guys do?

Clay: I don't know. Try a help her I guess.

Gemma: she doesn't need help. What she needs right now is love, respect, and trust. It's the only thing that will help her heal. Right now she has a broken heart that will never heal if she knows everyone is against her and don't trust her. What she did yes was horrible, what we did to her was even worse. Make the problem go away and everything gets back to normal. Take the damn detail off of her, let her be her for once. Let her breath, then when she is ready she will talk. But right now what you guys are doing isn't helping is pulling her into a dark place that i or you guys don't want her to go to. She needs to know that we love her and trust her. Alright

Clay: ya i heard ya.

Jax: we all here you.

Gemma: and no secret detail either, she is our kid she will find out. Then that would start a whole new war and we don't want that

Clay: thanks babe

Gemma: your welcome. Now happy when are you asking her?

Happy: planning on tomarrow nignt .

Gemma: alright, I got everything set. Yoy guys are in charge of decorations tomarrow day. Us girls if taking her shopping then cooking her engagement dinner.

Clay: that's why you kick her out of the office

Gemma: yes. I got my ways.

I was sitting in the office spinning around in the chair when my dad walked in

Clay: go, be free. Yoy need a break

Elizabeth: really? No detail?

Clay: nope, go. Be back here at 6. Answer when one of use calls.

Elizabeth: will do you daddy. Lovd you

I kissed his check and jumped in my car. Crystal lake here i come. I pulled into the parking lot and walked to my favorite spot. I set down and put my legs into the water and let the tears run down. Finally alone to breath and melt down. A couple hours later I heard a motorcycle pull up, I looked at my phone and seen five missed calles. Ya uh my bad. My brother jumped off and came walking over.

Jax: thought in find you here.

Elizabeth: yeah

Jax: you been crying?

Elizabeth: why do you think I came here?

Jax walked over and set down besides me. He put his arm around me and pulled me into a hug

Jax: sis

Elizabeth: I'm sorry, I'm sorry everyone thinks I'm a screw up. I'm sorry that i did what I did. I'm sorry that i can't be a perfect old lady. Sorry i can't be a teller.

Jax: hey don't say that sis. You are not a screw up. Nor are you a bad old lady. Happy loves you what his heart. You are a good old lady . And sis your a teller, your my sister. Our moms daughter, clays daughter. Your family sis. Why are you saying these thing?

Elizabeth: cause everyone thinks it. You guys, the town hell even hale. Just a adopted person who is just here.

Jax:Elizabeth we love you and that's not going to change. I know what we did to you was horrible and im sorry for that. We should of never did what we did. Belive me sis we all feel like ass's because of it.

Elizabeth: I'm scared jax, scared that it's going to happen again. Scared that you guys isn't going to trust me again. Scared that I'm going to lose my family and the love of my life. I can't lose that, I won't be able to make it.

Jax: sis listen to me, your not going to lose us or happy. Trust me, sis your home is here and always will be. I love you and so does the guys.

Elizabeth: I guess I just need to hear that.

Jax: i love you, you are my sister and trust you. Nothing is going to change that.

Elizabeth: thank you .

Jax:now come on, it's cold.

We got up and jax gave me a hug. We pulled into the parking lot and i closed me eyes. I slowly got out of the car and seen jax taking to the guys. Here i go. I started to walked over, when i got to the picnic tables. My dad walked over and pulled me into his chest. I broke down right there.

Clay: I'm sorry baby girl. I love you sweetheart and always will. You have nothing to be scared of alright. We love you and we trusted you. No more of this crying and being scared. We got you.

Elizabeth: alright. I love you guys to.

The guys hugged me and all kissed me.

Elizabeth: thank you.

Clay: anything for my baby girl. Now go, happy is waiting for you.

I smiled and left for home, I feel like the world is finally lifted off my chest.

Clay walked over to the office and smiled at gemma.

Gemma: everything alright with the world?

Clay: yes, thank you for that ass chewing.

Gemma: your welcome baby. Anytime.

I pulled into my drive way and walked inside the house. Happy greated me by the door and swoop me up. He carried me to our bedroom and layed me down.

Happy: i want my old lady.

I smiled and kissed him. He began kissing my neck. Happy took off my shirt and bra and kissed down my chest. He then started to unbuckled me jeans. I smiled, nothing more like heaven then this.