Helplessly foolish no matter how I try

Cause even the seasons can change so why can't I?

For a little moment, I forgot that she's gone, i though that right now would be a good moment for taking a photo of the sky and send it to her, but the truth hits me like a punch and sent me back to the reality. It was all my fault. If only i had treated her like she deserved, I wouldn't be here alone now. "But.. It's not my fault at all.. I love her, but I don't know how to treat her right.." I though remembering how I was selfish, when she asked me a little complexed favor, i never accepted. I never helped her, just with simple things, but I was too busy thinking about my own business to care about her problems. I though some words of comfort would let me seem a good person, but they don't.