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I didn't even have a chance to greet her, as soon as I got in there we locked lips. I had forgotten about whole reason I was there.

Before I knew it we were in her bedrooms and clothes were coming off.

I kissed up on her neck and she let out a small moan while reaching to unbuckle my pants, I stopped her.

"Why did you stop?" She asks me.

"Because.." I started, while getting up and buckling my pants. "I didn't come over here to fuck you." She scoffed and put on her clothes too,

"Then why are you here?" She asks.

I sighed and turned to her, "I need to tell you something, and for some reason I feel like you're the only person I need advice from right now..and good hearted advice." I explained. "I know you don't really like him and-"

"Is it about Jahseh?" She says cutting me off. She rolled her eyes and shook her head.

"What advice do you want from me about Jahseh?" She asked.

"Just please try to help." I insisted. She sighed deeply and waved her hand, "Fine. What is it?"

"I know we've dated in the past and..seen each other. And you know I've been with other people, particularly girls, in the past." I started. She furrowed her eyebrows but said nothing, "So..I've been feeling a certain way about...about Jahseh."

She chuckled, "What? You don't like him?" She said.

"No. No. No. I..I like Jahseh."

"You like him? Then..what's the certain way feel against him?"

"I don't have any..feelings AGAINST him..I-"

"Have feelings for him?" She says with a little voice. "You like him THAT way?"

I nodded not being able to say anything. She is..I think the first one I came out to. Officially. Never thought it would be her, I didn't think I was gay until recently with Jahseh now I'm fully convinced that I am gay. It's going to take a while to get used to, but it is what it is. Everyone including Valerie deserves to know.

She stared at me shocked, not knowing what to say.

"So..this means you're..gay?" She says finally.

I shrugged. I guess so, there's no other way to put it.

"So then what am I supposed to do?" She asks.

"Well..if I like Jahseh should I tell him?"

"Of course you should tell him..if you like someone it's better to tell them you do than to just watch them. They're never going to come to you on their own, in Jahseh's case he might but you never know Stokeley. He might feel the same way."

"But..he has a..thing for Kim..which is pissing me off." I wish Kim would just back off so it would be easier for me to tell Jahseh how I feel. I don't know what's REALLY going on, if it's just a joke or they are really over here fucking each other, regardless it's making me feel a certain way.

"Kim? Kim is out of jail? Since when?" She asks.

"Like..a week or so. I don't know."

"Oh. Well.. is Kim gay?"

"What? No. Or..I don't know. Jahseh has man stealing capabilities, gay or straight."

She hummed in response, "I know." She says smartly. "But anyway, if you're asking for my advice, you NEED to tell him. I never really liked Jahseh, I can admit he is a little bitch. And I was really annoyed with him when he was with you because I thought that he was going to take you away from me."

"I can't tell you who to be with, Stoke. Although it is a sudden change of heart, and perhaps sexuality, I would tell you to tell him. Be bold, Jahseh is bold. I can give him that. I could never be as bold as him." She continues.

Not to be rude, but those are the the nicest things I heard come out of her mouth, and the smartest. I thought asking her would be a bad idea but I guess not.

"So..that's it?" I asked.

She shrugged and nodded, "Hell yeah, nigga. The fuck? Did you expect me to tell you to propose to him? Once you tell him then we'll talk about all that." She says laughing, I laughed along with her.

I liked this side of her. Yes she can be rude, disrespectful, annoyed, out of pocket but she's a good person...when she wants to be at least.

"It's pretty late, now. I think I should be on my way." I say. She nods and smiles before pulling in for a soft hug.

I feel my phone start vibrating violently. I think it's the group chat so I ignore it for a little bit. She pulls away before pointing at my phone,

"I think someone's calling you." She says. I pull out my phone and see that Jordan is calling me. Weird because I never talk to Jordan on the phone. We see each other at work and talk or we text.

I answer, "Hello, Jordan?"

"Come back to the hospital now, don't ask any questions just come." Jordan says seriously, sounding a bit worried. I hear sirens and of some sort in the background but it could just be cars, I also hear voices talking in the back and I'm not sure why there are so much people I can hear it through my phone.

"Why? What happened?" I asked. I didn't get an answer, all he did was hang up in my face.

"What's wrong?" Valerie asked.

Then he hung up without even telling me who I'm coming to the hospital for.

One minute, I was distraught and angry at Kim for making Stokeley leave when he said that he was going to prove to me he liked me.

We argued after he left, things were said that shouldn't have been said. Things I shouldn't have said. And he left, slamming the door.

At first I thought it was just a simple argument, he was going to come back and apologize, I apologize and it's all good. I was waiting for him to get back, and got a little bit worried because I know he's been off drugs for a long time and I've been helping him keep up his sobriety. And he had nowhere else to go except my place and Stokeley's but I don't think he went there because he walked the opposite way.

I got a call from an unknown number, "Hello, are you Jahseh? Kimetrius's roommate?" A man said over the phone.

"I am. Why?" I said, I heard ambulance sirens or police sirens in the background of the call. And also heard voices in the back too.

"Kimetrius has been shot, and from the looks of it, we don't know if he'll make it. He's being taken to Mercy Hospital immediately, He said to contact you and I think it would be great if you'd come down here as soon as you can, sir." He said. My heart instantly sank and I nearly dropped my phone, grabbing my keys and rushing out the door not knowing if I locked it or not, shit, if I closed the door even.

I fumbled with my keys but managed to get them in the ignition.

I got into the car and my hands started shaking.

I don't know what hospital I'm going to, or who I'm going to the hospital for. I just hope it's not maybe Jahseh, or Miles, or anybody that I'm friends with and care about in that matter.

I texted Jordan, he didn't tell what hospital and I need to know immediately.

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I drove and drove and drove for what felt like forever. I was starting to get frustrated because of how long it felt I was driving. I got a text from Miles while I was driving, he said that everyone is there, they're just waiting for Stokeley and I.

I finally made it.

I ran inside and up to the check in stand where the lady was,

"I need to see Kimetrius." I said quickly.

"Woah, slow down..you're talking Kimetrius Foose?" She said picking up a clipboard and a pen leading her eyes down the board. She then suddenly got a call. She answered it, I got annoyed and rolled my eyes because I'm talking to her why are you delaying the time I could spend with my friend who

"Passed." She said

"W-what?"

"He's passed, sir. I'm sorry."

I ran past her into the ER, I heard her trying to call me back but I just kept going. I looked around frantically trying to find everyone else because they're here but I don't know where.

I then saw familiar red hair and ran towards it. It was Miles and I think he saw me too. we ran towards each other, giving me a hug. I immediately burst into tears. I didn't get here fast enough. Only fast enough to hear that he's dead.

"It's okay, Jahseh. He said he wanted to see you." Miles said sounding like he'd been crying too.

"He did? Where's everyone else?" I asked sniffling.

"I don't know, when they..announce he's gone then they all just scattered." He said.

Kim can't be dead, I saw him less than an hour ago.

"Let's go outside and wait for Stokeley." He said again. I nodded and we headed out.

I made it to the hospital. And pulled into the visitors parking. I see a familiar car, then look forward to see Jahseh and Miles sitting outside, Jahseh, from the looks of it is crying hysterically.

I got out out of the car without turning it off or parking it. I walked up towards Jahseh, he immediately gets up and hugs me, crying harder.

"He's dead, Stokeley." Jahseh says in between tears.

"Who's dead?" I asked confused.

"Kimetrius. Kimetrius is gone." He says. I look over at Miles who just nods in response.

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