I couldn't breathe properly, I was completely on edge after talking to my long lost family. I don't know why I was so upset, but I couldn't stop the heavy stream of tears falling down my face. 

It's like all of my fears were finally confirmed. I had parents, but they simply didn't want me. It must have been my fault that I've had this life. 

Above everything I felt a twinge of jealousy. Alexa and Maddie got to live a normal life with parents... With my parents. Why wasn't I allowed that luxury? Why wasn't I currently best friends with my two sisters. Why didn't I ever get to play that older sister role, helping them with homework or talking about boys with them?

The door opens slowly, "hey, it's ok love." Maddox kneels down next to me, pulling me into a hug. I bury my head into his neck continuing to sob, attempting to steady my breathing.

"Did I deserve all of this?" I hiccuped. He held me even tighter, before pulling away holding onto my shoulders and looking me in the eyes. 

"Of course you didn't. Your parents made a stupid mistake, and I don't expect you to immediately forgive them for what they did. They went about this all wrong sweetie. They told me they've been looking for you for several years, but your old pack kept you off the radar. Once we unofficially announced you as Luna and Queen they were able to finally find you."

This didn't make me feel any better, I guess I'm one to hold a grudge. 

I sighed, and began wiping up all the tears on my face. I was happy Maddox was here to help me, but really I just wanted to be alone.

"Let's run, forget about our problems." June chirped in my head. I sniffled and nodded my head.

"I'm going to let June out. What are you going to do with my family?" 

"I gave them a room to stay in for the week, before they head back to their pack." Would have been my pack too I thought. I wasn't too happy about my family sticking around an entire week, but it's my job as Luna to provide for wolves, even if it's my scummy parents.

I gave a quick goodbye to Maddox and quietly made my way to the back door of the pack house. While I was definitely more comfortable around the pack now a days, I was really not in the mood to deal with anyone. To be honest, I kinda just wanted to wallow in my own self pity for a little while.

Soon enough the wooded area surrounded me. I left my clothes next to a tree, and just ran. I needed to clear my mind, but stupid thoughts kept nagging at me. A half hour passed and June was already getting tired, I really needed to start training. It's hard to be a wolf with still lingering injuries and never being able to consistently shift, it would take some time for me to build up the endurance most normal wolves have naturally.

I enter a small clearing, and spot a stream. June laps up some water, but then freezes when she hears a noise behind us. If they were rogues, I wouldn't be able to take them, I would have to try and outrun them, which was unlikely.

Reluctantly, I turn around and I'm faced with two auburn colored wolves. They aren't huge, but compared to my small, stunted wolf, they were pretty big. They look up at me, eyes wide, one of them had a backpack hanging from her mouth.

I growled lowly, warning them to stay back. They bowed their heads submissively, they weren't dangerous. Thank the moon goddess.

They begin to shift back, and I turn around momentarily until I hear a soft, somewhat familiar voice say "you can turn around." 

I turn and instinctively growl when I see my sisters, Alexa and Maddie. Maddie flinched slightly, but besides that, they were unfazed. They must have had clothes in the backpack, as they were both now dressed in cute teenage girl outfits, something I wasn't too familiar with, I used to wear whatever hand me downs I could get my hands on.

"We have another set of clothes if you want to shift back," Maddie, the younger of the two says.

I didn't necessarily want to talk to the two, but as Luna, it would be seen as disrespectful to ignore them. June nods her wolf head, and they turn around, leaving the backpack next to me.

I shift back, and rifle through the bag. I pull on the black leggings that were a bit too baggy on me, I guess that's what happens when you barely eat for years on end. I bite my lip when I see there's only a t-shirt. I hated having my skin exposed, the scars visible to anyone, especially on my arm where the words "Alpha Taylor" are clearly evident, the scars risen from the rest of my skin.

I coughed uncomfortably when I was done, they turned back around. While they tried to hide it, it was blatantly obvious that they were gawking at my arms. Alexa hid it better, pretending to look at the stream behind us, Maddie on the other hand was remarkably more obvious.

Her mouth was parted slightly as her eyes skimmed the damage, seemingly mesmerized. 

"Uh, hi... Nice to see you again," I lie. I had seen them a few hours ago and I had been yelling at them and their parents. It was awkward to have to face them again after my little meltdown earlier.

"I didn't know we had an older sister," Maddie practically whispered, still staring at my arms, which I began to subconsciously scratch at. "I'm sorry- sorry you couldn't grow up normally with us- sorry that my... our... parents did this to you." Her eyes were watering as her older sister, put her arm gently around her shoulders.

I almost felt bad for her, blaming this on her parents, the people she presumably has looked up to her whole life. I nodded slightly, not quite sure how to respond to her useless apologies.

"I know this is all hard on you, but if you are ever willing to let us back in your life, we would be honored to provide you the family you have deserved your whole life," Alexa smiled lightly, "Even if that means I have to become the middle child." She joked lightly.

I forced a smile onto my face, they didn't deserve the anger I was giving them, but I couldn't help it. I couldn't stop the overwhelming feeling of jealousy I felt for them. The two clearly cared for one another and grew up in a happy home, where as I grew up without a single person caring about me in a living hell hole.

The offer seemed enticing, having a loving family, but I don't know if I'd ever be able to forgive and forget my past.