When I'm gone

When I'm gone

You gonna miss me when I'm gone..

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I have been to dumb. Too naive. Been stupid to love. I have been carried away by stupid feelings that I feel inside.

I cried hard. Not enough to remove the deep thorns that Julian gave me.

I washed my hair that was now sticky because of slushies. I cried enough.

I looked to the mirror. Found myself horrible.

"Why?" I muttered. I am alone here. I decided I should skip class for today.

I looked like a wet duck.

For all this time I have loved you..

I have been patient..

I've been loyal..

Yet it hurts like damn..

I looked back again to the mirror. I clenched my fist hard. I swung it to the mirror and it created a large, crackling noise.

"Arghh!" I punched it one more time. Leaving some blood dripping. I winced in pain. I bit my lip..

I ran to the unknown path of school gate in which only cutting students used to get outside here. I ducked all the way out the small hole.

I stood up and brushed my pants. Looked around to see a lot of buildings.

I ran to the small street but I was surrounded by three men's and one woman with strange looking tattoo in both of their arms.

"Sorry to intrude but I was just finding my way out." I said politely. The woman came near me and brushed my hair to my ears.

"No need. Let's get her." He motioned the two boys and shocked filled them. I just let them carry me. Numbness followed.

I can't feel anything..

n

"Kiss me Julian.. Please?" Chloe was kissing my neck, trailing it to my jawline. She was brushing her hands to my legs

"Chloe stop." I said sternly.

She didn't stopped. She slowly undid my buttons. Her hands trailed my face and she giggled.

"Nope. Not until you kiss me." She said playfully.

"I said stop!" I removed her grasp. I stood up. She's getting on my nerves.

"Don't shout at me! Respect me!" She shouted I scoffed.

"Respect? I aint got no respect for you because you just want to have sex with me! You're seducing me! What do you really want?" I asked her. Her eyes widen. She stood up to my eye level.

"I don't want you to respect me! Go! Touch where you want! I just want you to love me!" She said. She kissed me. I didn't cooperate well. She shoved her tongue but I stopped it.

"Please, stop." I said. Calm Julian..

"Not until I get what I want." She said. I grabbed her waist. Pulled her closer. I licked her neck to her right ear lobe and gently nibble it. I whispered.

"How bout this?" I Gave her some kisses to her neck and she moan hard.

"Julian.." She muttered and I stopped. I wiped my lips by the back of my hand.

"I should go." I walked away. I need to see Chelsea. I needed to confess to her.