Jennie's POV

I sat down on the foot of the steps infront of a closed candy shop. It was the nearest place i could settle down with little to almost no people around. The snowflakes continued drifting down from the sky peacefully. It was serene, almost peaceful. Except there was a raging war in my mind.

I put on my brown leather jacket. It was cold outside. Not that it mattered ofcourse, if i froze to death out here. I sighed and a misty cloud escaped my mouth disappearing into the air. I had stopped sobbing on my way here, i used up every drop of my tears over that woman, whom i still couldn't accept was nothing more than just a colleague.

Surely there was something more between us that was unspoken of. Or i couldn't have fell for her so fast and hard in just one day. Even right now after knowing that everything was just a lie, i crave for her presence. Is that normal? Or was i just going insane?

I ran my fingers through my hair wishing the ground would open up and swallow me in a gulp. In just a few hours or minutes, and i don't even know the time right now, i would forget everything. And i didn't even know if it was a good thing or bad. I would be back to normal with my boyfriend whom i think is Taehyung, and Lisa would just be a normal colleague in my memory whom would have never crossed my mind to have shared such a deep connection with me. Normal. I would be living that lie from then on. I wiped an incoming tear from my eye. Damn, those just keep coming.

"I'm sorry." i mumbled into her back sniffling softly. She smelled so good.

"Hey. Hey it's okay, i'm fine." She said reassuringly, pulling me away gently so that i can face her. "Look. I'm strong!" She pretended to flex infront of the mirror grinning foolishly.

I started chuckling a little while wiping away my tears. "Yahh~ you pabo."

"There we go. That's my Jennie. Don't ever let me see you cry again except for tears of joy arasso?" She said soothingly while cupping my face with both her hands and smiled, waiting for my answer.

A few drops of tears landed in the pile of snow beneath my boots, this time i didnt bother wiping my eyes.

I stared at my pair of black boots, they were wool on the inside and they kept my feet warm. Lisa had bought them for me when we were at the flea market.

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"Over here nini!" Lisa called out motioning me to come forward. I walked over to where she was and i saw that she was holding up a pair of black winter boots.

"What?" I asked confusedly looking at her eager face.

"Try this on, see if it fits." Lisa said, plopping the boots on my hands.

The boots weren't exactly my style and i didn't understand why she wanted me to wear them. She could buy it for herself if she likes it so much?

"I don't want to, they don't suit my clothes." I said pushing the boots back to her.

She frowned. Then to my surprise she knelt down and swiftly took one of my leg and took off my shoe, then she fitted the boots to my feet snugly, they were just the right size.

Lisa beamed as she saw that it was a perfect fit.

I was about to complain that i didn't want the boots when she spoke.

"These look good on you. You're going to need them because its very cold here, look its got wool on the inside, they're soft and comfortable! And it'll keep your feet warm all day. Your shoes aren't enough in this weather." Lisa said as she took the boots to the cashier without waiting for my reply.

I stood there surprised for a few moments. I've never thought that anyone could care so much about me, especially with the bratty attitude that i possess. I never thought that anyone would willingly put up with me and treat me sincerely like i was the most important person in the world. I never thought that the person would be such a beautiful woman whom i swear can beat any magazine cover model any day. But here she was. And here i was.

My heart swelled and i let out a tear out of gratefulness.

Lisa came back with a big carrier bag with a huge smile on her face, but as she saw me she immediately dropped her smile and rushed to me urgently.

"Baby what's wrong? Why are you crying? I-I'm sorry. Is it because you really hate the shoes? I can get a refund if you'd like." Lisa stuttered.

I wiped my tear and laughed, pushing her arm gently. "It's not that pabo. I just can't believe i got so lucky. I love you so much Lisa." I said softly as i hugged this human. I'll never let you go.

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"Jennie."

I snapped out of my painful thoughts as i looked up to see just the very person i was thinking of.

For awhile no one spoke, we stared into each other's eyes and it seemed like the world around us stopped as well. It was just me and her.

"Jennie.." She said again breaking the silence as she hung her head down low.

"What is it?" I answered coldly.

I was still confused. I didn't know how or what to react to the person standing infront of me. Should i hug her? Kiss her? Tell her that i forgive her even after she took advantage of me? Or should i yell at her? Call the police for sexual assault even though technically i had given her my consent? I was sure i love her, but my mind just couldn't accept what had happened. She had lied to me about everything, how can i trust her again?

Lisa just stood there motionless, her expression was pained as she finally breathed in and spoke.

"Do you hate me now?"

I was taken aback by her sudden question. This was certainly not what i was hoping for. An explanation maybe. Or a lousy apology. Just something that will make me want to forgive her despite everything.

"I..." I said and hung the sentence mid-air. I really didn't know.

"It's okay. I-I understand..." Lisa said defeated, shifting her foot in the snow.

"I just thought that i should explain everything to you. Jisoo advised me to come after you and let you know the full story. It's okay if you still hate me after this but i just hope you know, my feelings for you were true. I... I really love you Jennie. So..... much. And im sorry for the pain that i caused you. I'm sorry for being a selfish jerk and only thinking about myself. I shouldn't have deceived you. But please listen to m-" Lisa said with her eyes brimming with tears as she was interrupted by a shrill buzzing which sounded different from a usual ringtone.

Lisa looked at me in shock as she fumbled for something in her pocket. She took out her phone and turned the buzzing off weakly. I saw the light reflected from her phone.

"I guess we're just never meant to be..." Lisa whispered to herself and i heard it.

"I'm sorry Jennie. I-I hope you have a happy life from now on. I love you. Always." Lisa said hoarsely her tears rolling down her cheeks as she forced out a smile.

What? No! Explain to me Lisa! I need to know everything! Why the fuck is time running out now!?!

"No. Please. Lisa. Tell me everything. Just summarize everything. Don't leave me Lisa. Please tell me!" I screamed, standing up and grabbing her shoulders urgently.

Lisa just stared at me, as if trying to memorize my features. I was panicking and begging her to talk but she shook her head crying.

"It's no use nini. You won't remember any of this tomorrow."

"I hate you. I hate you so much!" I cried, punching her chest several times before collapsing in her arms sobbing as she embraced me and cried hard as well.

"forget me jennie."

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