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Beam waa sitting nervously in front of psychiatrist.

Its his fifth meeting and everytime they start with some easy questions.

So Mr. Beam Baramee, I'll be taking it really slow and easy.

Please don't hesitate while answering.

Start the doctor once he found Beam is relaxing.

Beam nod with a hesitant smile.

Relax Mr. Beam. It's not first time right.

Said the doctor who is an old aged man with warm smile and friendly appearance.

Forth hold his hand which were resting on Beam's lap.

Beam looked at Forth and Forth smiled, boosting his morale.

Beam didn't smile but didn't freed his hand also.

Forth felt hurt but ignore it as his priority is Beam.

The doctor start talking him with simple questions.

He inject some drug and then Beam felt himself more relaxed and more free.

"Beam?"

Call Doctor.

"Hmmm."

Replied Beam.

"You okay?"

He asked again.

"Hmm..

I'm."

Replied Beam again.

"How are you feeling?"

Asked Doctor.

"Its feeling light here. But.."

"But what Beam?"

"I'm."

"Hmm you are what Beam?"

"I'm not fine."

"Are you hurt Beam?"

"Umm."

"Where dear?"

Beam didn't respond and just cried silently.

"Beam.. Are you listening me?"

Asked Doctor.

Forth face turned hurt seeing Beam crying.

"Beam?

Where are you, son?"

Asked Doctor.

Beam didn't respond.

"Can you hear me Beam?"

He asked again seeing Forth getting restless.

"Umm

I can."

Replied Beam shortly.

"What happened Son?

Where are you?"

He asked again.

"In P'Forth's bedroom."

Replied Beam.

"What are you doing there?"

"Reading new manga. P'Forth bought it for me."

Said Beam smilingly.

"What's the time here Beam?"

"Umm ten.."

"Aren't you sleepy?"

"Ahaa... Naah..

P'Forth hasn't arrived yet.

I'm waiting."

Beam Replied whiningly.

"Hii P'Forth.

Ahhhhh..

Auchhh P its hurting."

"Beam what happened?"

Asked Doctor.

"P'Forth no... No... Don't do this P...

I'm Beamie your Baby P..."

"Beam... Beam what is happening there? "

Shout doctor.

"You are drunk P... Please stop.. it hurts P... No.... Let me go P... You... You... You promised....I'm not ready.

Not ready P.. Ahhhhh.."

"Beam... beam... calm down Beam."

Doctor said hearing Beam is facing trauma again.

Beam was crying, restlessly moving in his seat.

"P'Lam...

Please... P'Park, its hurt... No... Don't do this P... P'Den help..P'Forth.. ..what happened to you My P'Forth.. Why you are drunk... Be sane P.... I'm Beam. Your Baby Beam... You promised P... Please... Its hurting.

Awwwwuchhh"

Beam cried loud making Lam and Park enter inside the room.

They got surprised to see the situation.

"Don't P... No... I'm not ready

Stop it please.. Its hur... Hurting...

Blood..

I'm dizzy...."

Beam slowly mumbled and fell unconscious.

Forth immediately hold him, tightly in his arms with silent tears.

He turn to doctor who is scared to death seeing the bloodshot eyes of Mafia leader.

"Can you make him alright?"

He asked sternly.

Doctor shake his head.

"I can supply medical treatment Sir D.

But the one who can actually treat his wound is you."

Said Doctor calmly.

"He loves you and its proven by his previous counseling.

You need to be patient."

Recommend Doctor and Forth nod.

Lam was angry and clenched his fist.

"We need to be more protective.

Don't blame yourself Baby."

Whiaper Park in his ear.

Forth picked Beam up and drove to mansion by himself.

Once he is at home he tucked Beam in bed.

He was stroking his hair gently with lots of pain in his eyes.

"I didn't knew i was this brutal Baby.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry my Baby Love. P is sorry for everything Baby. P is terribly sorry."

Cry Forth hugging Beam.

"Dwaddy Cly? "

Akky askee once he entered inside his mommy's room.

"Daddy don't deserve your love Baby.

Daddy is so bad."

Said Forth flowing in emotions.

Akky couldn't understand the adult language and just climbed on bed after a little struggle.

He didn't said anything and wiped Forth's tear with his soft, tiny hands.

"No cly Daddy.

No veek. "

(Don't cry Daddy. Don't be weak)

Forth burst out in heavy tears and hugged Akky too.

"What i did in my past life to have you Son?

I'm filthy mafia. Not a human being.

Still i have two precious gems."

He sobbed hard making Beam flinch in sleep.

Beam opened his eyes hearing the commotion.

Ughhh..

Bema yawned.

"Sorry.. Did i disturb you?"

Asked Forth hurriedly wiping his tears.

Beam didn't said anything and tried to stand up.

He felt dizzy.

Forth hold him and help him to sit.

"Did i passed out again?"

Asked Beam slowly.

Forth didn't said anything and just pulled beam in his arms.

"I'm sorry Baby."

Forth could whisper only this.

"Mommy sweepy?"

Asked Akky with his doe eyes.

Beam smile though he was feeling heaviness in his heart but once he saw faces of Akky and Forth he smile.

"Mommy is hungry Baby.

Can you asked P'Cherry for food?"

Asked Beam to Akky.

Akky nod like an obedient child.

"No sweepy mommy.

No cly Daddy.

Akky bling phood.

Okay?"

Asked Akky from his parents showing his index finger.

A tear again dropped from Forth's eyes which didn't escaped from Beam's eyes.

"Ok baby now go."

Said Beam and Akky ran to door.

Cherry was at door waiting for Akky.

Beam turn to Forth.

Forth didn't said anything.

He sniffed and comb Beam's hair.

Beam find that Forth is not meeting his eyes.

Forth caress his face .

"I'll ask P'Olivia to bring dinner for you."

Said Forth getting up from his place but Beam hold his hand.

He lightly pull Forth's hand asking him to sit.

Forth sat again but avoiding his eyes.

"Look at me."

Said Beam slowly.

Forth didn't raise his eyes to meet with Beam.

Beam slide close and pull Forth's chin by his pale finger and thumb.

"Did i said anything today?"

He asked slowly.

Forth didn't said anything and just pulled Beam again in his embrace.

"Why didn't you kill me that day?

You had your gun right. I gave that gun to you for your safety. Why didn't you use that gun Baby? It was right there beside bed unit. Right? Why you endured all those sufferings Baby? Why why why? "

Forth couldn't control himself and finally burst out.

Beam hugged him back when he found Forth is trembling.

"Why you didn't kill me Beam?

Why not called Lam?

Why Baby?

Why you left Baby?

You should punish me Baby.

I'm terrible person. No I'm not even human being to be called.

I didn't commit mistake. It was sin. It was sin baby. And i should be dead or in jail with capital punishment, not here living."

Forth was pouring his feelings with warm tears.

"Don't cry. "

Beam said barely Because his breath was hitched remembering that unfortunate day.

"I caused you this pain Baby. I'm the reason for your condition. Why you are still good on me? Why don't you kick me, beat me or better kill me Baby. You can ask Park if you can't take my life. But punish me baby. Punish me. I won't be at ease until you punish me. I don't deserve Angel like you. I don't deserve your love. Be healthy, be completely fine. I'll send you back to your brother. No need to live with a monster like me. I won't took your son back. Akky is yours. You are his mother and father both. I don't have any right on him, on you. I'm sorry Baby. For everything, for every pain i caused on you. No need... No need to forgive me. There shall be no forgiveness for a monster like me. I'll send you back. I'm sorry."

Forth said each word with thousands of knives cutting his heart.

Today he saw the demonstration that how much Beam has suffered from his one act.