Three days pass and I have done all of the reading and research that Miss Bell has asked of me. I even did a little extra. It's an interesting world. It's shocking and a little uncomfortable coming to terms with some of the things I actually want and need. I feel like a freak for even admitting it to myself. How was I supposed to tell someone else the things I found out about myself. Nonetheless, Miss Bell. I took a few quizzes online with most of them yielding the same results. I like humiliation and pain. I am 97 percent submissive. Apparently I also enjoy being watched. These things are embarrassing to think about but they haven't left my mind. I told Olivia that I wanted to stop our arrangement and she was cool about it. She kept her word and didn't ask why or who. She knows I'll tell her eventually. We tell each other everything. I ring the doorbell to Miss Bell's house. Moments later it opens. She smiles and lets me in. We have a seat at the dining table.

"I read all of the things you gave me." I say.

"What did you think?" She asks.

"It's a lot. At first I was a little overwhelmed, honestly. Though, as I kept reading I realized it's not as daunting as I first thought. It's interesting and makes a lot of sense. I even found out some new things about myself." I say chuckling.

"That's good." Miss Bell says.

"So I have your answer."

"Well?" She asks.

"I want to be your sub."

A wicked smirk slides across Miss Bell's face. "Perfect."

"I only have two hard limits that I'm aware of." I say.

"I'm listening."

"Urine and feces. I don't want to do anything with those." I was disgusted to find out that it was actually a thing, but I read even if you disagree with other's people's kinks it's bad manners to disclose that. It's called kink shaming, I think. Very frowned upon in the community.

"Noted. Give me your safeword."

I know what a safeword is but I have not came up with one yet. I say the first thing that comes to mind. "Pointe."

Miss Bell chuckles. "Fitting."

"What do you expect of me?" I ask both nervous and excited at the same time.

"I'll give you all of the rules before you leave. I expect them to be followed at all times. When they're not, you'll be punished. I expect your fidelity."

"You have it but I need the same. If you decide you want to be with someone else or you want another sub, then I want to stop."

"You have my word. Anything else?"

I bounce my leg nervously. "I also need you outside of being my Mistress. I'm already very needy when it comes to gentle physical touch so I can only imagine how intensified it will be afterwards."

"Okay." She says staring at me. It's so hard to read her sometimes. I never know what she's thinking.

"I have a question." I say.

"Yes?"

"Is this dynamic 24/7?"

"Yes."

"So I am completely yours at all times?"

"Yes."

"Also," I say putting a finger up, "what do I call you?"

"Ma'am. Mistress. Master. Whichever ever comes to mind first."

"Okay."

"Anything else?" She asks.

"One more thing." I say standing up. I've been dying to do this for so long. I kiss her slowly and hungrily and she kisses me back. Miss Bell stands and breaks our kiss.

"Let that be the last time you do that without permission." She says.

"Yes ma'am."