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The event at Pete's house is at 7pm and P'Type will pick him up at 6pm but Can has been busy dressing up since 3pm. Lay teased him, "Do you want to have dinner at your friend's house or go on a first date with your girlfriend, Phi?" Can didn't answer it, he just threw a pillow at his annoying sister's face.

Getting closer to 6 o'clock, Can's heartbeat is increasingly erratic. Even though he tried to lie to himself, he knew for sure the reason for the heartbeat. Tin. Just remembering his name makes his heart ache. He admitted that he did not like feelings of anxiety and erratic eruptions like this when everything felt fine when he was with Tin, without ties. That was the reason for rejecting Tin that day. But now he hates his feelings more since Tin 'disappeared' from his daily life. Even just hearing his friend mentioning 'IC' had made his heart pound, especially if his friend mentioned Tin's name. Can still doesn't know if what he feels is love or something like that but surely he misses Tin. He misses Tin accompanying him, he misses the many things Tin did for him, he even misses his kisses.

He used to think than kissing Tin was only the price he had to pay for Tin's kindness. Whether it's because Tin drove him home, bought food, accompanied him to watch a movie or whatever. But now he realized that it was only his feeling. He felt that Tin lips always trembled when he kissed him, even though he always put on a cool and indifferent face. Even sometimes his face looked disappointed after he kissed Can. At that time Can did not care at all, the important thing was he got the food he wanted.

But after Tin's confession, Can began to realize Tin's attitude all this time. He also realized it because of the added words and advice from his friends that Tin really likes him, even loves him. This stupid Can would have never thought that there was someone who loved him like Tin. For Can, football and food are his love, so he never thought of giving his love to other humans. Furthermore, to the same gender as him. No, he's not a homophobic person, he just doesn't care about 'annoying' things like love.

He remembers when he was upset when he heard Lay saying that Tin and Pete were a couple. At that moment he got angry at Tin because he thought Tin was trying to separate Pete and Ae. But was that really the reason? Or is that just the reason he made to cover up his feelings.

Can's head and his heart want to explode. Learning at school alone has become a torture for him, now his head is forced to think about something he never imagined.

This past week, Tin somehow always appeared before him but would leave immediately when their eyes met. Can remembered those eyes. Eyes that were filled with sadness, just like when Tin talked about himself being abandoned from his own family.

"I am a snob. I have no friend. My family ignores me. Did you know?... My mother... She is just a second wife. The reason she married my father is because they both are wealthy and perfect for each other than the first wife. Even my name... it comes from unintentionally care. They just came up with a name sounded closed to my half brother. Who's the first heir of the family. So, I never trust anyone. But, I want to believe in you. "

That was the first time Can saw a weak and fragile Tin. All his arrogance collapsed at that time, even if only just for a moment before he returned to his original cold face. Although Tin always said that it was only a lie to get Can's sympathy, Can knew for sure that Tin was being honest. Especially after yesterday he forced Pete to tell about the Tin family. Pete did not dare to tell much because he felt it was not his right. He just told the main story, and it was the same as everything that Tin said that day.

Although Can did not have any feelings for Tin at that time, but he promised, he would not let Tin feel abandoned, at least not from Can. But Can has broken his promise. He was the one who 'threw' Tin. He was the one who hurt Tin once more.

Unconsciously, Can cried. He was stupid but hurting someone who loved him never crossed his mind at all. He didn't know what pain Tin was feeling, but Can was sure that Tin was more hurting than he felt right now.

Tonight he decided to come to the Pete's Mom birthday dinner and hoped to meet Tin and get everything done. He wanted to apologize and give his heart a chance to accept Tin. And promised himself to never let Tin be hurt again by anyone, especially by him.

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Type and Tharn picked up Can at his house. Can's face is more radiant than a few days ago. But he ignored Type's question that was confused with his mood changes.

Arriving there, Ae, Pond, ChaAem, Champ and Good have arrived. Shortly after, P'Techno, N'Nic and N'Kengkla arrived. They immediately gathered in the backyard of Pete's very large house. There is a table full of food and barbeque stuffs.

"Has everyone arrived, honey?" asked Pete's Mom.

"Not yet Ma, just waiting for Tin. He said he will arrive soon."

Deg....deg....(sound of heartbeating) ... Can's heart started to beat faster. Can was feeling happy and nervous at the same time. Glad to finally be able to meet Tin and be nervous about having to talk and finish everything with Tin today.

"Hi ... sorry I'm late. I had to pick up Natt at the airport first."

The voice interrupted their conversation and automatically turned towards the sound. Tin comes with a beautiful and fashionable girl. Pete immediately stood up and hugged the girl, while Tin just smiled seeing them both hugging.

"Guys, this is Natt. She is our best friend at high school. But she continued her studies in Canada and left us. Tin, how can you bring her here? Now isn't the holiday season?" Asked Pete.

As usual, Ae's stare seemed to want to kill. Luckily there was a P'Type next to him to calm him down. Whereas Tin just smiled a little at Pete's happiness, without even glancing at Can. Yes, he indeed kept the arrival of Natt from Pete a secret. He wanted to surprise him.

Actually Tin really wanted to look at Can. He missed him so much that he almost went crazy, but Pete advised "the game must continue until it's finished. Don't lower your pride first." So Tin must hold back his longing as long as possible.

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Tin and Natt sit next to each other. Natt looks very clingy to Tin. Tin also looks very comfortable near Natt. Anyone who sees them must think they are lovers. Pete did not look as comfortable as Tin, maybe out of fear of making Ae angry and messing up his Mom's birthday party. Occasionally Type, Champ and Pete glance at Can. Pete is really shocked to see Tin bring Natt here without telling him first. He really wants to help Tin and Can's relationship, but this is not the way. But he can't do anything at this time. He did not want the atmosphere to be awkward.

Since the arrival of Tin and Natt, Can wants to cry. All the words he prepared tonight swallowed back into his mind. His desire to give his heart and Tin a chance was gone. In addition when he seen the scenery presented before him, they look very good together. If things like this alone hurt him, how about it in the future. Tin is too perfect. Handsome, rich, smart and caring. Who won't fall in love with him? He just had to snap his fingers, then that person would come to him. Whereas Can ???? He is just an ordinary person, stupid, not handsome. In essence, they are like heaven and earth. At least Ae was smart enough and was good at playing football, so it was more appropriate to stand with Pete.

"Pete, where is your toilet?" Can asked suddenly.

"Let me take you there, Can."

Pete immediately stood up and took the Can to the toilet because Pete heard Can's voice trembling slightly earlier.

You're so stupid Tin, Pete thought.

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NOTE: Don't bashed Natt. She is originally M34n friend, a fellow model. The problem is it's hard to find photos of M34n with girls, so I just look for it.

Published : 05.01.2019 ; 12.22pm