The news about your fight with Tom had spread across Hogwarts quicker than you had thought was possible. Three days had passed and you were sure even the teachers knew about it by now. And everyone seemed to know more about it than you did.

You had heard stories about you hexing Tom in the hallways, about him threatening you there, about you almost drowning yourself in the lake, about Benjamin trying to kiss you, about you trying to kiss Benjamin. The list was endless. And none of it was true.

The way people looked at you made you angry to a degree where you had to control yourself not to smack them. Your anger was also fueled by the fact that Tom had not apologised yet. Three days. Feeling as long as three years when the whole school seems to watch your every move while you are waiting for your future husband to make up his mind.

Those three words alone made your blood boil. Your future husband. Who certainly was the most conceited, hot-headed, mistrusting bastard on earth. Who you had agreed to marry for your sister. Who thought you would cheat on him, in this imaginary relationship, on the first chance you got. With Benjamin Hilt... Maybe he was also the daftest future husband on earth.

But nonetheless, you wondered far too often when he would finally walk up to you and apologise. You had even considered apologising to him just so you wouldn't have to ignore him anymore. But that thought hadn't lasted longer than a minute. He had to learn his lesson.

Tom's friends seemed awfully aware as well. Although Avery and Lestrange stayed out of your way, some others made you feel like you were constantly observed. Almost as if they were his spies, telling him where he could go to avoid you. Tossers.

The only person keeping you sane was Camille. She knew the truth and shut down every rumour that came to her ears. She had also tried to talk to Tom, much to your dismay. But he had ignored her completely.

"Still no news on the fiancé front?" Camille asked when you sat with her in the courtyard.

"Don't call him that," you answered.

"Sorry," she said but smiled. "I'm sure he'll talk to you soon."

"You think so? I'm not so sure. And I don't really care."

Camille laid her hand on your shoulder. "You don't care, huh?"

"I don't."

"Oh well... You talk about it an awful lot for someone who doesn't."

"You started it this time," you grinned. Changing the subject seemed appropriate. She was right. "Do you want to study together around 5? In the library?"

"Sure. I still haven't done the homework for Charms."

"Me neither."

You watched the people around the courtyard. They looked comfortable. Cosy with their scarfs on. Carefree, wandering around and talking to their friends. You wondered if you looked like them too. Or if they could see how bitter you felt. How uncomfortable and tired. If your poor attempt of faking indifference was enough to deceive them.

The bench where you sat with Tom three days ago was right next to you. You had specifically chosen not to sit there but at the one next to it. Not that anyone had a clue, not even Camille knew which exact bench it was. But it felt good to avoid it.

One of Tom's friends, Evan Rosier, walked by. Another spy, another rat, running back to the nest, to tell him where not to go. He locked eyes with you for a brief moment but retracted ever so quickly and went inside.

"It's cold," Camille said and pulled your gaze away from the other students. She rubbed her hands together and crossed her arms. "Want to leave?"

"Just a few more minutes," you said and took a deep breath. The cold air didn't hurt. It was sharp and fresh, it kept you awake.

"Okay," she answered and laid her head on your shoulder. "Look, Ben and his friends are over there."

They sat on the ground next to the stone walls, about fifty feet away. They didn't seem cold either. Some of them had their coats open, their scarfs only hanging down loosely from their necks.

"They're strange," you mumbled.

"I know, right? Like outcasts. But cool ones."

"Cool? I'm not sure about that."

Camille laughed. "I don't know. They seem so happy all the time. As if nothing mattered to them really."

"If that was true, Ben would know how to mind his own business."

"You know what I mean."

"Yeah, I guess."

You turned your head away from them, looking to your left where you heard footsteps coming your way. And indeed, someone was approaching you. The person's shoes seemed oddly familiar and all your muscles tensed when you looked up and found out who they belonged to. Tom.

Camille noticed your movements and looked over as well. Tom stopped in front of you, not saying anything, just looking from you to Camille and back to you.

"I, um," Camille cleared her throat. "I think I'm gonna go inside. I'm freezing."

You nodded, watched her leave, then looked up at Tom again and waited for him to say something.

But he didn't. He just looked back at you, or through you maybe, until he finally sat down next to you.

He sat there, staring straight ahead in silence, even though you gave him every chance to speak. The wind tousled his hair in those everlasting minutes of curiosity. What was he doing here, if he didn't want to talk?

People around you had noticed as well. They were looking over in turns and proceeded to whisper to each other. Like you wouldn't notice.

"I have something for you," Tom suddenly said and fiddled something out of the inner pocket of his coat. "My grandfather sent an owl."

Seriously? Three days of silence and he came up to present you a letter? From Marvolo Gaunt of all people. The nerve of him.

"And?" you asked.

"And what?"

"Don't you think you should say something first? Like an apology?"

He sighed and looked away again. As if he had known you wouldn't let him get away with it. As if he had dreaded that moment.

"Yes," he then said, so quietly you could hardly hear him. "I'm sorry for how I behaved. That I haven't trusted you and that I didn't let you speak."

He looked like it hurt him physically to apologise. But it wasn't enough.

You turned towards him, watching him staring into the distance. "Now look me in the eyes and say it again."

Tom turned his head your way, his brows furrowed, eyes looking into yours, filled with such anger, making you regret what you had said. You couldn't tell if he would rather stand up and leave, or curse you right then and there for what you asked of him.

"I'm sorry," he repeated nevertheless.

"Thank you," you answered and wondered if you should comment on how long it had taken him. Better not.

Tom pointed to the letter in your hands. "Now read it."

The parchment was old and smelled damp and mouldy.

"Tom,

I was informed by an unknown source that people at Hogwarts are doubting the authenticity of your relationship with your fiancée.

Someone sent a letter and implied they would notify the ministry about it if we wouldn't cancel the wedding ourselves.

Let me remind you two, that our plan must go through. If it won't, the little one will pay for it.

Improve.

Marvolo Gaunt"

Breathing felt harder all of a sudden. There was a lump in your throat that burned and stung right down into your lungs. If the ministry would doubt the validity of your relationship, they could definitely null and void the marriage before it even happened. Which would be fatal.

"Merlin's sake," you sighed. "Who would do that? Threaten your grandfather..."

"You don't know?" Tom asked and looked over to the group where Ben sat. "I got a suspect."

"Of course... And what are we going to do about it?"

Tom took the letter and folded it back together, not taking his eyes off Ben. "Let me handle him."

"What will you do?"

"Nothing too bad," he said. "Possibly."

"And how does Marvolo expect us to improve?" you asked. "We can't change what people think about us."

"Make them believe. It's not that hard to fool people."

He was right. Tom might have been a prick, but he certainly wasn't a fool. If rumours about your fight spread so quickly, rumours about you making peace would spread even faster.

"Hold my hand," you said.

"What?"

"We have to make them believe. Better start right away. There are lots of people around. Maybe we can even trick Ben and his friends."

He restrained for quite a bit, then ever so slowly reached for your hand, still not looking at you. His skin was warm from being inside, almost hot against yours. He felt stiff and mechanical, as if he didn't know how to behave. It was a bit uncomfortable, having your hand lying in someone else's, who didn't really hold it but simply let it lay there.

You adjusted your fingers and put them right against his, which made him turn towards you. His pulse pumped softly against the tips of your fingers. It was faster than you had thought and made you smile. Tom didn't. But he looked at you, differently.

His brows weren't furrowed anymore, the anger from before completely washed away. His eyes were open, studying your face with a deadpan stare until he squinted.

"You're cold," he said and brought his other hand around the back of yours, now properly holding it with both of his.

"I've been here for a bit," you told him and looked around, letting his unfamiliar warmth spread through your veins. "I think it's working."

"Hm?"

"The people. They're watching."

Tom took a glance, his fingers twitching as he did. The other students turned away one by one when his gaze neared them. Even Ben and his friends had noticed but ducked their heads now too.

Seemed that making people believe was actually easy.

"And he really held your hand? Wow. Even I wouldn't have guessed that," Camille whispered when you told her about what had happened.

"I know, me neither," you said while opening the Charms textbook.

"And I wasn't there to see it. Damn it. I knew I should have peeked around a corner."

"Gross," you joked and looked around if anyone could hear you.

The library was quite full, but you had found a desk at the far end, where no one would bug the two of you.

Studying with Camille was, as unbelievable as it may sound, one of your favourite parts of school. It brought tranquillity and effect together. Feeding your brain with new information and sharing it with one another was a sensation you got nowhere else. You had done it since first grade and it had worked well ever since. No matter how dry, or tricky the material was, you had always found a way to remember. You were great together. Balanced.

And she brought chocolate, every time. Major plus.

It had gotten dark outside a while ago when you finished the Charms essay. Only then you noticed how tired your eyes were from the dim light. Camille had completed hers two chocolate bars ago and was waiting for you by the window.

"Done," you sighed. "Finally."

"Great. Let's go then," she said and started packing up her things.

"I haven't proofread."

"Oh," Camille nodded and teetered from one foot to another.

"But you can go. Really. You've already waited for so long. I'll just read it again and then I'm off."

"You sure?" she asked.

"Yes. Somewhere you need to go?"

"The loo," she whispered and you laughed.

"Then run!"

You rubbed your eyes and folded the parchment flat out under your hands. One more read-through and you were done. It was even quieter around you, now that Camille had left. The only things you heard were the librarian's steps, as she tiptoed through the rows every now and then, and some quills scratching on paper from afar. It was a hypnotic silence, that made it easier to read. So easy, you didn't even notice someone walking up to you.

The sound of the chair next to you screeching lightly over the floor was so startling, you almost knocked over your inkwell.

"Merlin's sake," you whispered as you screwed down the small bottle. "You can't creep up on me like that. Almost ruined my essay."

"Pardon me," Tom said. "Who could have thought people had to be quiet in a library?"

You shot him a look to prevent yourself from telling him to keep his cocky jokes to himself. "What are you doing?"

He opened up a book, giving you the same look in return as if to say, what do you think people do in here. "Reading."

"Alright then," you said and leaned over your parchment again.

Just a few more pages. But suddenly the words you had written didn't make sense anymore. You had to read each sentence twice, to even understand what they meant. And you were awfully aware of your breathing. Tom made you nervous.

It took you twice as long to read one page and the fact that you watched him from the corner of your eye every other moment didn't help.

Concentrate. Forget he's even here. You had eventually found somewhat of a rhythm again, laying one paper aside, when Tom touched your hand.

You automatically jolted and looked over to him. He was still reading his book, now holding your hand firmer, more proper than earlier that day. It seemed like he wanted to finish this particular paragraph before he looked back at you. And the blank expression on his face said more than ever before. It was a mix between him waiting for you to pull away and simultaneously telling you not to dare to move.

It was the same silence, the same tension that occurred when he had come for dinner at your house, when you were alone in the dining room with him. But yet, it felt so different.

So you held him, too. Quietly. Still staring at him. While no one spoke a word.

Your fingers folded along the back of his hand perfectly, like they were meant to be there.

And then, he moved. His thumb swayed back and forth across your skin, so lightly you could barely even sense it. So softly, as though he was scared it could hurt and break you. His eyes were fixated on you. He studied every breath, every flutter of your eyelashes, every muscle moving in reaction to his touch.

And there it was. Something different in his eyes. Something more than the notorious apathy. A spark, a tiny hint of what you would call emotion.

Something you had never seen on him. It suited him well. So you let him feast on it. For forever if he asked you to.