Ever since losing my orgasm at thirteen, I've been completely unable to regain my ability to climax no matter what I've done, and it's caused me immense distress over many years.

I believed that if I were stimulated with a very strong sex toy vibrator, that it might allow me to have an orgasm again.

Due to living with a family member, I didn't want to order a vibrator online. I was too afraid they might see it and maybe even open it, and with just the two of us living here, it wouldn't be too hard to figure out who ordered it.

Since I definitely didn't want that to happen, I resorted to buying a vibrator in person.

For many years I had desperately wanted a vibrator, but was too embarrassed to buy one in a store, so I just suffered without one.

One day when I was twenty-five, though, I starting feeling so desperate for a vibrator that I decided to buy one in person.

I started by researching vibrators on the website of the store I planned to buy one.

The power of each vibrator on the site had a rating from one to four, and I was only interested in the most powerful vibrators, so I dismissed all with a rating of three or lower.

While I had found the one I wanted, and gone to the store, things didn't go as I had planned.