The ringing in my ears won't stop no matter how badly I want it to. It's gotten so bad, I started to hit my head, just to make it stop. All I can see in front of me is a worried Luke, having no idea what's happening. Honestly, I probably look crazy right now.

Luke hugs me tightly, making the ringing not as loud as it was before. Now, I can hear myself think, which is not the best idea. At least I can try to make myself not think about the car crash. Who am I kidding? It's my fault she died. I was the one driving. No matter what I do, all the people around me end up dead because of me. And it feels like shit.

"Emma? What's happening? Are you okay?" Luke bombards we with questions, I can't answer right now, since I can barely hear my thoughts.

"I'm so so sorry Aarya," I cry, holding my knees up to my chest. "I didn't want to!"

"Emma!" Luke shakes me and I finally pay attention to him and not my terrible thoughts. I try breathing deeply and it calms me down a bit.

"What's happening? Are you okay? Do I need to call an ambulance?" He asks and I shake my head, crying into his chest. Thankfully, he doesn't say anything anymore. He just holds me, patiently waiting for me to stop crying.

Some time passes by and I finally calm myself down. "What time is it," I whisper and Luke jumps a bit. I think he was asleep.

"It's 1AM," he says with a raspy voice and I nod.

"Would you like to tell me what happ-" he gets interrupted by his phone, making him shut up. I thought he'd ignore it, but he doesn't. He takes it out and sighs.

"I'm sorry but I have to go."

Without an explanation, he gets up and throws his phone on the bed. Then, starts dressing himself. Is he serious right now?

I just had a panic attack or whatever that was, and he's just going to leave me all by myself?

Apparently, I'm too selfish. I expect too much of him.

"I'll be back as fast as I can, I promise," he kisses my cheek, running out the door.

That's just great.

A phone buzzes on the bed and I roll over to check it.

Wait.

This isn't my phone.

Luke forgot his phone.

This is the best time to check who Maya actually is. I try turning it on, but it's protected with a password.

What would luke put his password as?

Fuck you.

It unlocks. "I can't believe that worked," I murmur to myself and open his snapchat. I find the name "Sunshine

Me: hi, is this Luke's cousin?

Maya: cousin? Who are you?

Me: I'm his girlfriend. Who are you?

Maya: he has a girlfriend?

Me: yeah, for the past 6 months? So I'm guessing you're not his cousin?

Maya: absolutely not. I had no idea he had a girlfriend.

I sigh, leaving her on read. My heart breaks into a thousand pieces and I feel a lump in my throat. I won't cry anymore. Not because of him. If he actually loved me, he'd never do that.

At first, I wanted to pack up my shit and leave, but I decided on waiting for him. A few hours later, he comes home.

"Woah Em, you scared me there," he laughs, turning the lights on. But his smile quickly disappears when he sees my bloodshot eyes.

"Em, are you okay?" He acts as if he cares.

I hold his phone up, "I'm gonna ask you for the last fucking time. Who is Maya, cause I'm sick of playing these childish games," I spit and his face pales.

"She-she's a friend," he stutters and I throw his phone at him, which he catches.

"You fucking liar! You saw me have a panic attack, then probably left to meet her, instead of staying here with me, which I did every. Single. Fucking. Time. With you!" I lose my shit and start yelling, getting closer to him.

"What'd she do huh? Suck your dick? Let you fuck her?" I continue, feeling my veins popping out on my neck.

"I wasn't-" "you weren't what? You weren't fucking her, you just let her suck your dick, didn't you?" I interrupt him, fuming.

"I WASN'T WITH HER!" He yells at me and I don't stand down.

"Where were you then?" I raise my eyebrow at him and he opens his mouth, wanting to say something but he closes it.

That's what I thought.

"You're here, kissing me, doing all sorts of things to me, but most importantly lying me, all while having a thing with her! How could you?" I'm really close to him, pointing a finger at him. He looks really confused and lost. He's probably surprised that I caught him.

"And you bought a whole fucking house, for what huh? To make it more believable?" I take a deep breath. I said everything I had to and before he gets to defend himself, I leave to our room - it's his room now - and start packing. He's right behind me.

"What do you think you're doing?" He asks me, leaning on the door frame, with his hands crossed on his chest.

"I'm packing, as you can fucking see," I hiss and continue packing.

"You're not going anywhere," he says in a low tone and I stand up, looking at him.

"And who's gonna stop me? You? News flash, we're through," I freak out at him, tears running down my cheek. Here goes the no crying rule.

"We didn't break up," Luke grabs my hand and I jerk it away from him. He must be delusional.

"Yes I just did."

"No you didn't," he smirks, grabbing my hips and pulling me closer to him. I'm not falling for this.

Not today.

I push him away and grab my bag, not caring what's in it. I'll come and get everything else when he stops acting psychotic and when he realises we're through.

I run out the door, before Luke can stop me. I don't look back, I just keep on running, until I find myself alone on the dark street. Nowhere to go. Feeling terrible.

With my bag over my shoulder, I walk down the dark street, to the hospital, to visit Jack. I know it's late and he should be resting, but I have nowhere to go. Ugh, I'm being selfish again.

After a long walk, I arrive to the hospital, exhausted and tired of crying. I sneak into his room and lay down next to him. He murmurs something, hugging me in his sleep. Again, Jack's here for me, like always. And I couldn't be more thankful.

I cry into his chest and he wakes up.

"Emmy?" Jack mumbles and I look at him with teary eyes. He doesn't say anything. All he does is kiss my forehead and hugs me. Using no words, he made everything better. Using no words, he made me feel all sorts of things about him, so I hug him tightly and fall asleep in his arms.

I wake up, finding Jack on a chair, eating breakfast. His parents must've brought him some food, since hospital food isn't the best. He sees that I woke up, so he flashes me a cute smile and I return it to him.

"Good morning sunshine," he says, his mouth full and my stomach twists, hearing that word. I hate it. No matter how much I want to love the way he calls me cute names, I can't stand sunshine.

I make a weird face, since I'm apparently not able to hide my hate towards that word, and he furrows his eyebrows. "What's wrong Emmy?"

"I just- I hate that word. It's not your fault, don't worry though," I give him a weak smile and he gets up, walking up to me and sitting on the bed.

His hand is resting on mine, as he looks at me with his sparkly eyes. "What happened yesterday?" His voice is gentle and soft - something I can really use right now.

I tell him the whole story, breaking down multiple times. The entire time, his hand is holding mine and he's listening to me constantly.

When I'm done I don't have any strength left in my body, so I plop on the bed, closing my eyes for a few seconds. When I open them I see Jack on top of me. I giggle, as he tickles me. It's so annoying because I can't do anything, with his weight pushing down on me.

He finally stops tickling me and looks me straight in the eye, not moving off of me. "God Emmy, you're so beautiful," he murmurs and then kisses me gently. I kiss him back, as his hand holds my cheek, his thumb caressing it.

Suddenly, he moves away, "I'm sorry," he sighs, sitting on the bed. "I shouldn't be doing this to you. It looks like I'm taking advantage, but I'm not. I just can't hold back. You need to figure it out with Luke and then I'll know where we stand. If you choose me, then I'll be the happiest man alive, but if you choose Luke, that's okay too. I won't be leaving you," he offers me a weak smile and I nod, thanking him.

We talk for a while, and he lets me sleep in his dorm. He's being released from the hospital in a day. He'll still have to go to his therapist to check up on him. He also won't be allowed to be all alone and I volunteered to look after him.

I decide on taking a walk in the central park, to clear my head.

While walking, I listen to some music, to help me relax.

"Hey," someone says from behind me and I jump, looking back. There, I see a tall guy with short brown hair and brown eyes. I haven't seen him before.

"Uhm, hi?" I take out my earphones and look at him. He just starts walking next to me in a slow pace, his hands in his pockets.

"How are you?" He flashes me a smile and I raise my eyebrow, being cautious.

"I've been better... not to be rude, but who are you?" I look at him and he doesn't stop smiling for even a second.

"Oh shit, I'm so rude! My name is David. What's your name?" Hm. David. Never heard of him nor seen him around campus. He does look my age, so that's strange.

"I'm Emma," I smile, offering him a hand and he takes it, kissing it. I blush and giggle, making him laugh at me.

"So why did you, you know...," I point at us and he looks confused for a second and then nods, understanding what I mean.

"Well I just thought you were really beautiful, so I took my chances and came to talk to, hoping you won't tell me off," he laughs and I blush.

He thinks I'm beautiful?

"That's really sweet of you."

"So...do you have a boyfriend?" He surprises me with a question and I remember about Luke. About cheating Luke.

"No," I shake my head and he breathes a "yes" and does a weird motion with his hands, making me laugh.

"Would you pleasure me with giving me your number?" He asks and I giggle, nodding.

I give him my number. "I'll text you?" He asks me with the biggest smile on his face, still walking next to me.

"Okay." I say and we say our goodbyes as he walks away. He sits in a black car, parked near and leaves.

Not a minute after, I recieve a text.

I smile at the phone as I type my response.

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