to the blue eyed boy who sits at the library

everyday after school;

i have never felt so entertained than when I watch you drown in books

how your eyes so quickly skim the page

how your fingers trace the words like dancing feathers

and you stop at certain words to feel them.

and it saddens me so

how I will never get to sink deep into the blues of your eyes

and look at them long enough before it is deemed creepy.

how I wish to hear your voice speak my name

how my insides would shatter like glass

before you speak again and crush what's left of them;

you are oblivious to the control you have on me.

how I wish to roam the chambers of your heart

and study the constellations that hold you together;

every diamond star wedged in between your broken pieces,

patched up with glue and stardust.

but I can't ask you, and you won't tell me

for you've no clue of even my name;

how I wish to erase you from my mind

but you've marked your spot with permanent markers.

so the thought of you comes so naturally

and you grow a garden of butterflies that fly

from my stomach to my lungs

watered by stolen glances and rarely exchanged smiles.

how I wish to know of the things that break you and make you

of the words you keep coming back to

of the glue that holds those stars together;

I wish to know her name.

one day you stopped reading ,

the words no longer traced and the pages no longer turned;

the words only looked empty in your eyes

and i wonder how they would taste if I read them to you.

I cannot slay the dragon that breathes fire into your blood

nor can I extinguish the flames that seethes inside you

but I can grow flowers instead

that spread ichor to your veins.

and perhaps it will soothe you, perhaps it'll hold you better than glue

but with time the flowers will wilt, so how can I water them

when I don't know my own voice nor will I ever hear of yours

because I can't hear anything, and you don't have one.

but I can hear you in the silence,

I see you in the dark,

which is more than enough for you

to ignite a spark.