Entry #6

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Jongin and I are still not okay. He's still mad at me after what he did to me. Shouldn't I be the one who's supposed to get mad at him? He's still doing it with Krystalㅡbut this time, in our own house.

Every night I'm sleeping, I always hear their loud moans. In early mornings, I'll always hear the loud bang of the door and see Jongin looking at meㅡwith his eyes full of lust. And he does it to me under the moonlight.

I am so tired, jagiya. I want to leave him. I want to set him free. But I guess I just love him too much for me to not leave him. I wanna be away from him but I don't want to let go of him. What should I do?

Kyungsoo