"Val! Val! Get me my socks please!" I yell and she groans before stomping up the stairs. It was about 8 in the night and all she wanted to do was go sleep.

It was Friday already and Art was going to pick me up in about 15 minutes, we were going to drive all the way to Sicily. I don't understand why we weren't going either by train or flight but who am I to question it?

I placed my suitcase near the door just as Val ran down and handed me my socks.

I had on a pair of corduroy shorts that I had handpainted about a year ago. And a tank top that said 'fuck the government, fuck Boris' with Stromzy's face on it, on the back it had lyrics to his song 'Vossi Bop'. For some reason about a year or so ago I entered my Stormzy face after I saw one of his concert videos on my phone.

I am kind of still in that phase.

That era of Marnie was revolutionary, one time when I visited the UK I had worn this, a couple of death stares were received but I didn't give a shit. It was also my rebellious phase and the whole 'nobody cares if I die' phase. Now the only problem was those years I broke the most rules, and maybe even laws.

Once Sadie and I snuck into an underground fighting ring when we were 16 turning 17, got shit faced drunk and sold people drugs that we had stolen from someone. That was the same year I got chased by the cops with molly in my back pocket, I raced through the crowded Italian streets in the most bizarre heat with my skateboard. While eating a sandwich. It was a different day.

The things I got out of it? The adrenaline rush, the thrill of being alive. Not gonna lie, that was probably the one time that I felt the most. Fear, anger, frustration, joy. The lows made me want to run into oncoming traffic or sleep on the train tracks but the highs- oh man the highs- the highs made me feel like I was floating, made me feel alive, it made me want to live more, to get through the lows just so I could cry a bit, get over it and feel this again.

I slipped on my socks as ma and papa kept on asking me if I had packed this and that.

"Yes, I packed my toothbrush." I laughed as I got up after lacing my boots.

"Please be safe darling. I love you." Papa said and I hid my surprise. He wasn't one to tell me he loved me, I would have to literally beg it out of him.

"I will, I love you too." I grinned hugging him as I kissed his cheek. The stubble on his face pricked me and it just reminded me of when I was a kid and he would hold my little face and rub his unshaved beard on my face until I was screaming laughing while my cheek turned red.

Ma would come yelling at him to stop but he would pick me up and run away all while laughing and still rubbing his sharp ass beard on my face. Eventually, he would stop but by then my stomach would hurt from laughing and then we would dance to an old Bollywood record.

My sister on the other hand would ride a bike inside the kitchen, I would sit behind her and ma would scoop in food and as soon as I passed by her she would stuff the food in my mouth, we would take a round and by then I would have chewed and swallowed the food. Val would sometimes get so tired but she would continue pushing herself until I finished my dinner.

And then she would sit on Ma's lap as she fed her. It was the most amazing time of my life.

I would roam around with an old phone that didn't work and act like a diva. Ma would slather oil on my hair and tie it into two pigtails, which I would call fountain because- well it looked like a fountain.

When papa would come home at night he would come in singing some song and I would literally hop on his lap and tell him all the ways that I was annoyed today, it would start with ma accidentally burning the food or getting mad at me.

"Chal idhar aa." Ma grinned before kissing my cheek and hugging me.

"Be safe, eat well and don't get lost or anything. Keep calling us." Ma said as she kissed my cheek only about another hundred times before letting me go.

"Yes ma, I will." I smiled kissing her cheek before hugging Val.

"Always keep that stuff on you, don't be afraid to just knock someone out okay? I know you've got a mean swing." Val whispered and I laughed before hugging her.

"Don't die," Val says after we part and Ma lightly hits her arm.

"Don't say things like that," Papa said and she laughed.

A knock on the door followed as soon as I grabbed my suitcase and walked over. I pulled open the door to find Arthur.

She looked just as pretty as yesterday, maybe even more.

Definitely more.

"Hey pretty." She mutters as I stand on my tippy toes to hug her. My arm goes behind her neck while her wraps around my waist and suddenly- my heart is beating a little too fast.

"Hey, you look very pretty," I whisper as we part, she is dressed in plain white shirt and lavender trousers underneath.

"Take care of her," Ma says as Art shakes their hands.

"I will." She smiles just as Val grabs my suitcase.

"I'll walk you out." She says and I nod slowly while hugging ma and papa one last time as we walk out the door.

"Bye-bye." I wave at them, Val in her sleep shirt and her curly hair pulled up in a bun walks towards the car.

It's a- surprise, surprise! Green convertible.

"Hey did you pack your lucky hello kitty underwear?" Val asks loudly and I turn around as quick as lightning with wide eyes.

Why did she have to bring that up?

I can hear Art trying to suppress her laugh and Val grins at me.

"Ugh God, I did pack it, did you take your boob growing supplements today?" I sent her a saccharine smile and this time Art laughed loudly.

"You bitch." Val muttered as I took my suitcase from her hand but before I could even lift it Art grabbed it from me and put it in the boot.

"We're all ready to go." Art said standing up next to me.

"I'll see you on Monday then?" Val muttered and I nodded hugging her one last time before getting in the car.

"Bye!" I waved as Art opened the roof of the car and the wind quite literally smacked me in the face.

"Woah." I grinned as I looked at Art.

"What do you want to dress up as for the St. John ball?" She asks and I have been looking at a lot of stuff to figure out what we could go as.

"It's gonna be a fun weekend." She smiled before handing me the aux cord.

Lenon was sitting in the same ceramic bowl but this time in the backseat with a seatbelt around that bowl.

I gladly took the aux cord but on the inside, I was panicking wondering what to play.

"Play anything." She smiled and I nodded before plugging my phone in and going through my playlists.

What I knew was that Art performs and listens to a lot of genres, her favourite being rock and R&B.

I played 'Right here' by Chase Atlantic and she looked at me grinning.

"I love this song." She smiled, one hand on the wheel while the other rested on my bare thigh.

I could tell you a million things wrong with what I felt towards her but the one thing right with what I felt was big enough to drown everything out.

Ecstasy.

She made me feel like I was high on fentanyl, not that I knew what it felt like. She made me feel like I had the highest score in my entire school, she made me feel like the last day of school before summer vacations started. She made me feel like taking a huge bite out of my favourite ice cream in the hot and heavy summer. She made me feel like getting wrapped in a warm blanket in winter. She made me feel the euphoria that I did when I would watch the leaves change colours and slowly fall down.

"Staying right here in bed. I didn't hear a word you said, I wasn't that high I swear." We sang and it was true. If she would've said something to me a second before I wouldn't have heard it. Although I am not one but high.

"It's happening again, well I don't give a fuck about your friends I'm right here." We almost yelled over the sound of the wind whipping at us.

The night was dark and somehow getting even darker. The sky was a velvet with a million diamonds studded.

"Well, baby take a look around I'm the only one that hasn't walked out I'm right here." We sang, I rested back in my seat, my body melting into the leather.

"One draw at a time yeah, one more you'll be fine yeah." I sang and she just kept looking at me.

"And I swear she was right there, the blue glow and the nightwear." She sang her head finally moving towards the street and I grinned taking out my phone and taking photos of when we passed the beach view.