I woke up slowly, and it took me a few seconds to realize where I was. I was in a hospital bed, and a nurse was hovering over me.

"You all can come in to see her now," she said, "How are you feeling, sweetie?"

My head was pounding, and my entire mouth felt dry.

"Can I have some water?" I groaned.

The nurse nodded and left the room.

In came Effy, Katie, Emily, Naomi, and JJ.

"Guys, what's happened?" I said.

"After you passed out, your pulse rate dropped considerably, so we called an ambulance. The doctor said you suffered a serious miscarriage. He also said you were around one month pregnant," JJ said.

"Why didn't you tell us? Does Cook know?" Katie said.

I shook my head, "I was going to tell him, but he kept on interrupting me. And as for you guys, well, it's not that easy to tell someone, Katie."

She sighed sadly and nodded her head.

"The most important thing is you're ok," Effy said as she held my hand. The nurse came in with water and gave the cup to me.

"Guys, where's Cook?" I said.

Emily took my other hand and looked at me sympathetically, "We tried texting and calling him, but he hasn't picked up."

I nodded my head, trying to understand, but I was still upset.

"Look, we got to get you home. Your mum's called at least five times already," Naomi said.

"What? Did you answer?" I said, reaching for my phone on the side table.

"I answered. She knows you're ok," Katie said.

Katie and Emily helped me up, Naomi signed me out, and we all left. When I got home, I was so exhausted I fell asleep on the couch. I knew if I tried to walk up the stairs, I probably wouldn't be able to walk up the entire flight.

The next morning, I woke up to the sound of my mom's car pulling out of the driveway. It was just as well. I didn't feel like being talked at for a half-hour straight about everything that happened. All I wanted was Cook. I needed to see him.

It was about ten o clock, and normally I was hungry around that time. But instead, all I wanted was something to numb my pain. So, I took my mom's bottle of vodka and walked to the harbor with it. The water was silver and calm that day. It was a pretty view to watch. Similar to the day Cook and I went in the water and kissed properly for the first time.

I pulled out my phone and called him. I waited for him to pick up, only for it to go to voicemail. After the beep, I left a message.

"Hey, Cook. It's Bri. I haven't seen you since last night. Emily told me they tried to call and text you, but you never responded. Um, I don't know where you are or what happened, but I uh really need to talk to you. Something big came up, and I don't think it should be addressed over the phone. I need you here," I said as I started choking up, "Please call me back when you get this. I love you."

I hung up and put my phone in my pocket. I fell to my knees and started sobbing. What if he died? What if he decided to leave and never come back? What if everything he told me was all a facade?

"Bri?"

Before I even turned around, I knew who it was.

"Sid, I don't know what to do. I love him so much."

I was standing in place and trembling because of how much I was crying.

"I know. I know you do. Mum told me about the baby incident," Sid said as he walked over to me and hugged me tightly. He actually smelled like he took a shower for a change.

"What am I going to do?" I said, "We had a plan and everything. I was going to attend Trinity while he worked full time. But now he's gone, and I don't know if he's ever coming back. I texted him twice last night."

He sighed deeply and continued to hold me close, "Mum once told me something. If you love someone, let them go. If they come back to you, then it was meant to be."

I nodded in agreement. It was good advice, and as much as I wanted him to come back as soon as possible, I waited.

I spent most of my Summer with Katie, Effy, and JJ when he wasn't busy with Lara. We all tried to make the most of that Summer, considering it was our last hurrah in some ways. And every day, I anxiously waited for any sign that Cook was back. And every day, I was disappointed, and I was slowly starting to lose hope.

I guess it just wasn't meant to be.