"You're disgusting!"

"Ew!"

"She thinks she's so pretty?"

"Go to hell!"

"Die!"

"Just kill yourself!"

"No one loves you!"

Were the words I hear first thing in the morning as I enter school. It was unbelievable how a rumour can make them turn their backs against you.

Half of the student body hates me, no, me. I don't mind, really. At least I'm minding my own business while they're trying to snoop on mine. What little minded people.

Well, maybe I do mind...sometimes, I have this feeling of...taking my own life away. I don't care how I'll do it, I just want to leave this world. Why stay when people hurt you? Why stay in a place where you're not welcome? Why stay, when you're not loved? My patience on my everyday life is running really low. I can't take it anymore.

Walking through the hallway, I ignored the nasty comments people were throwing at me. They were snickering, laughing bitterly, and gave me disgusted looks.

Lowering my head lower into the books I was holding, I accidentally bumped into something, or someone. I gasped, as the books I was holding were scattered on the floor and the notes I placed inside came flying.

"I-I'm so sorry--" I began to say but was rudely interrupted by a voice I dreaded to hear.

It was no other than, Cato. The Cato Allen.

"Damn, watch it!" He shouted, giving me an icy glare that made my heart race. He looked scary as hell.

"I-I'm so-sorry. I didn't see you." I explained, while picking up the books.

"Listen, I don't care! All I know is you're a worthless person who doesn't deserve to live in this world. No one loves you." He spat bitterly, pulling my hair forcefully and pushing me back, making me stumble.

At this point, my blood was boiling and was about to reach its peak, but I calmed myself before I was going to lunge at him and punch the living hell out of him.

Yes, I was vulnerable and hopeless in the eyes of the people in this school, or anywhere at this matter. But once it passes my limits, I am going to murder you.

"And no needs an asshole like you in this school." I bitterly said, pushing his chest.

Okay, maybe that was a wrong move but hell, this guy needs to be put in his place.

"What the hell did you just say?" He asked, gripping my shirt. His knuckles were turning white and I could see I made him as furious as ever.

"What I just said." I said monotonously, glaring at him.

"Go to hell." He venomously said before slamming my back on the wall. I winced in pain as it made a hard impact on my back.

Douchebag.

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Today wasn't really a good day, I mean, who was I kidding? My days were always as terrible as my life.

I had to deal with the douchebags at school while they beat me up and all they do is say crap about me.

As the day ended, I finally got home. 20 minutes tops. I was out of energy. That little incident with Cato sucked out all my energy. I don't know what came into my mind that I fought back. He was known as the cold hearted guy in school, no one messed with him- but I did.

I drew in a deep breath, taking my almost ripped shirt revealing my thin, bony body. I looked at the mirror closely, as new bruises were starting to form on my back and my arms.

Honestly, my appetite is really small. I don't eat much, and I had gotten used to it. Since my mom spends all of our money going clubbing, getting drunk and wasted, and maybe get laid, there's nothing left for groceries. She's selfish, I'll tell you that.

Walking in my bathroom, I took a quick shower to freshen up. I walked over to my closet, deciding to wear something comfortable- I grabbed a black sweatshirt and shorts to match with it.

Looking around my room, the paint on my walls were starting to chip off because of how old this room was. Spider webs were starting to form on the corner end of my room too. It was disgusting, but that's fine. I won't be here for long.

I was exhausted; wanted to refresh my mind and think. Don't know what exactly...but I decided to go to our rooftop building. My safe haven. That's where I go when I feel depressed as the wind makes me feel calm.

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I opened the heavy steel door. Revealing the beautiful view of the city. At least that's the only beautiful thing in my life.

No one's usually up here since their busy with their life, while I on the other hand, have none that's why I'm here.

The cool breeze lightly brushed my face, and at that moment, it had already calmed me a mere bit. The fresh watered plants smelled really good too.

I hate my life..it sucks. Why do I have to deal with all these? No actually, it doesn't suck. It's messed up.

Everybody hates me, wants me six feet under, and probably wants to torture me 'til my last breath. What did I ever do to deserve this? What did I ever do to make them hate me so much? All I wanted, was to be a normal teenager. Living her life, but no. Fate wanted otherwise.

All of the words they throw at me everyday in school has been marked in my mind for the rest of my life. It was like a scar. A never-ending, painful scar. I may act like I don't care what they say, but deep down it sliced my heart to tiny pieces. That can never be put back together.

Before I knew it, tears were rolling down my bruised cheeks. Heavy gasps took over me as I couldn't help myself to bawl my eyes out.

*Flashback*

I looked up the sky with sparkling stars, and smiled as a tear fell down my eye.

I was standing on the side railing of the building, my uncontrollable body was shivering of coldness nd nervousness..

I held the metal thing on the side tightly, and drew a deep breath and closed my eyes..

My heart was pounding, as if it would get out of my chest any minute now.

All the memories came flooding back, like a tsunami.. re-thinking of all the pain and suffering that I had felt.

In any minute, It would be all gone. I'll be at peace, at last.

I'm quite sure they won't care if I died.. I hope they're happy that I'm going to fulfill their wish any second now..

"I DESERVE TO DIE! NO ONE WANTS ME HERE!!" I screamed as loud as I could, and just sobbed.

cold sweat was trickling down my body..

On the count of three, I'm going to jump. - and I'm not going to stop, I don't belong in this wicked world.

1....

2....

3....

I was going to let go now but.. I got distracted..

"STOP! A-Ari?" Said a voice, about a few feet away from me.

and my eyes opened in shock and my eyes widened as I saw the person which was.. Cato.

His green eyes sparkling in the moonlight, his expression looked like he was.. scared? sad? - He looked pale and he couldn't move.. He just looked at me with a shocked expression.

"What the hell are you doing? Are you out of your mind?"

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(Cato's POV)

I was climbing the stairs, going to the rooftop.

That place was the only place you could ever find me.. That's where I think or just stay there to cool off whenever I'm mad..

I opened the steel door and the beautiful view of the city was revealed.

I drew a breath and sighed.

As I was walking to find a place to sit, I saw a figure - standing on the side railing of the building.

I stopped walking and looked at her for awhile, examining the person if it was a she or he.

"I DESERVE TO DIE! NO ONE WANTS ME HERE!!" It's a she indeed.. She screamed on the top of her lungs and broke down then sobbed.

Her hair was covering her face, sweat was dripped down her body, I couldn't really tell who this person was.

Seconds later, strong wind passed by, causing her hair to move her hair like crazy, now I saw who the person was..

Ari.

I know earlier I said she should die, but I didn't mean any of it! I was so mad and pissed, not because she bumped into me, but by my parents.

I then saw she was about to jump, and if I don't stop her, she would be dead any second!

"STOP!! A-Ari?"

"What the hell are you doing? Are you out of your mind?" I said calmly.

Her eyes flew open as she saw me, standing a few feet away from her.

"P-Please don't jump." I said, making my voice soft.

She scoffed and said, "Ha, Why do you care? You want me to die right? I mean, Everyone does.. Aren't you happy that I'm giving and fulfilling your wishes?" and smiled weakly, as I tear fell down her eye.

"I'm sorry.." I said sadly, my heart ached - regretting and thinking how much pain and suffer I put her in.

I was a damn jerk!

"You're sorry? Unbelievable."

"You won. and probably, you won't feel sorry when I die.. Few more inches, and I'm dead." She added, and looked down.

I walked over to her and grabbed her hand slowly, making her go down the railing.

I was surprised she did. I could feel she was shaking like crazy, she couldn't even stand.

I hugged her tightly, making her cry on my chest.

"It's okay now.. I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry.." I cooed, and caressed her back lightly.

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