*Liv’s POV*

My eye lids flickered open and I could feel a shooting pain in my head. I placed my hand to it and winced...what had happened last night?

I slowly sat up taking in my new surroundings and realised I wasn’t in my hotel room...where the fuck was I?

I felt the bed sheet move and my attention was taken to the tanned back next to me. For a brief second I almost died....the thought of having sex with anyone bar Dan makes me feel physically sick. But as if on queue he spoke. “Tink stop watching me sleep.”

I giggled to myself as he slowly rolled over “I’m not.”

“You were and you still are.” He replied before slowly opening his eyes.

“Dan what are you doing here?” I ask glancing down at what I was wearing. Realising it was his top. “How did you find me?”

“Don’t you remember what happened last night?”

“Not really.” I replied trying to think back. Dan sat up and looked at me a worried look in his eyes.

“Why? What happened Dan? Why are you here?”

“Tell me what you remember about last night.” He asked, linking our fingers together...I’d missed this.

I sighed before saying “Well I wanted to go out and get drunk...forget everything for one night you know?” he nodded at me but never spoke, allowing me to continue. “So I got ready, got tipsy and headed out to Movida. Things get a bit blurry after that. There was a lad there I think...but I’m not sure.”

“There was...do you know who he was?”

“Not that I know of. Why? What happened? I didn’t do anything with him...I wouldn’t...not with a stranger.”

“Yea I know. Don’t panic. Nothing happened with him. I got to you in time.” He smiled tight lipped rubbing his thumb over my hand.

“What do you mean stopped him?”

Dan’s eyes dropped from mine to our hands.

“He erm...”

“Tell me Dan...what happened?”

“He tried to rape you .” Dan mumbled before his glance met mine once again.

I couldn’t speak. It felt as if my tongue had vanished and my throat was as dry as the desert.

“Who? What? When? Why? Who?” I begin to panic...what state had I gotten myself into last night?

I thought back, trying to remember what happened but I couldn’t think.

“Lucien.” Dan whispered looking at me. I was puzzled...who was Lucien?

“Who?”

“That lad from last night...his name was Lucien...you know as in Amy’s sisters boyfriend...” Dan began. Then it hit me...Lucien...I remembered.

He had me in the boys toilets until Dan saved me.

My hands flew to my mouth as tears began to fall down my cheeks. “Oh my god.”

“Everything is fine, he never touched you. I made sure of that.”

“Thank you.” I whispered still in complete shock

“I’m so sorry for everything Tink.” Dan sniffed

“Why are you crying Dan? You’ve nothing to be sorry for.”

“Because this is my fault...it all is.”

“No it’s not....I was the stupid girl who got so drunk that I never knew what was going on.”

“Well if I hadn’t lied to you, you wouldn’t have been drinking alone or if I had never been with Amy...Lucien wouldn’t be in our lives and if I’d have never been with Amy…we’d still have a baby on the way.”

I took in a deep breath...our baby.

“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have brought that up.”

“It’s fine...it’s not like we’re never going to talk about it are we.” I reply as he links his fingers through mine, clutching my hand so tight.

I couldn’t believe he was blaming himself for this. For all of this. It wasn’t his fault. Things just happen to us...all the time unfortunately. I just wanted to hug him. I wanted his arms around me again.

I pulled back the quilt and he looked up at me.

I placed my knee next to his hip then placed my other on his other side so that was straddling him. I wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him into a bone crushing hug. I felt his arms wrap instantaneously around my waist, hugging me so tightly.

“I’m sorry” I whispered down his ear placing a small kiss on his neck before resting my head on his shoulder.

“You have nothing to be sorry for baby girl.” He replied kissing my neck in the same place I had kissed him, his hands rubbing the bottom of my back under my top.

“How did you know where to find me?” I ask quietly

“Chris rang me. He was on a night out and saw you with Lucien...figured something wasn’t right.”

“Thank you.” I replied smiling to myself

“What for?”

“For rescuing me...and for just everything.”

I began stroking behind his his ear and felt him smiling.

I pulled away from him and rested my forehead on his, just gazing into one another’s eyes. My heart beat was going so hard against my chest and the butterflies were flapping like crazy in my stomach.

It was like that first night we kissed in the kitchen...but this feeling was so much more intense.

I missed him...

***

“Can we go home please?” I whispered as his lips were about to touch mine.

I felt a sigh hit my lips and he nodded. “Of course we can.” He smiled

I hugged him again and felt his lips press against the side of my head.

“I need a shower first though, I feel....dirty.” I mumble getting off Dan pulling my top lower.

“Yea sure.”

Knowing what happened last night, his hands all over me, touching me...I felt cheap and dirty.

I walked over to the bathroom as Dan asked “You...erm...want” he mumbled

I turned my head towards him and he was rubbing the back of his neck nervously. “Would you like any company?”

“No thanks...I’ll only be two minutes.” I reply before shutting the door, hearing him sigh and the bed springs ping as he collapsed onto the bed.

I didn’t want him near me when I felt like this. I turned towards the mirror and took in my refection. I had a plaster on my head...from last night I’m guessing. I slowly took off Dan’s top, throwing it onto the floor and hated the sight Isaw before me. I had two rather large hickies...one on my lower neck and the other one on my chest. I also had four red marks on each of my arms which were now bruising and scratch marks across my shoulders, arms and legs.

I took some make-up wipes and removed the reminder of my makeup whilst my tears removed the rest. I turned on the shower allowing it to heat up as I ran a brush through my hair. I heard the bed room door shut and I locked the bathroom door. I wasn’t sure if it was Dan leaving or someone coming in, but I wasn’t in any state to be surprised.

I took off my underwear before stepping into the hot shower allowing it to destroy any trace of Lucien on my skin. I must have washed my body a thousand times but still felt dirty. I know he didn’t...rape me. But it was that his hands had touched me and I couldn’t stop him. I washed my hair then sat on the floor of the shower, my knees tucked into my body as my arms wrapped around them.

*Dan POV*

I thought she was going to kiss me...but she didn’t, on the plus side, she wants to come home. She got off my lap making her way to the bathroom. I cheekily asked if she wanted any company...but she shot me down.

I could hear her crying in the bathroom but I didn’t want to go in there. I dont think im the person she needs right now...she needed Evie.

*Buzz Buzz*

*Chris*

[I got Liv’s bag off Dave last night, I’ve just dropped it off at your hotel. Hope Liv’s okay.x]

[Ahh cheers mate, well she’s not too good but we’ll get through it...we always do. x]

I made my way down to the reception to collect Liv’s bag. I just hope it was this hotel she was staying in.

“Hello, how can I help you this morning?” the concierge asked me

“Hey, my friend has just dropped off my girlfriends handbag.”

“Ahh yes. Who may I ask does the bag belong to?”

“Liv Williams.”

“That’s correct. Here you are.” he replied passing me Liv’s clutch bag from last night.

“Cheers.”

I head towards the lifts checking through her bag for her room key. Luckily enough it as this hotel she was staying at, but I had no idea which room.

I ran back to the desk, asking him which room Liv was in.

“It tells you on the key.” He replied sarcastically.

“Okay thanks.” I reply bluntly walking back over to the lifts. I hit the button and straight away the door pings open. That never happens. I walk in hitting the button for the eight floor, finding her room and going inside.

I collected all of her stuff, putting it all into her suitcase. I checked all of the draws, making sure that I left nothing behind. Good job I checked because her bloody passport was in the bedside draw. I double checked everywhere before making my way back up to our room. Hopefully she can just get changed quickly then we can leave and go home.

Hoping things go back to how they should be. Me and Liv together.

*Normal POV*

“ you still in there?” I heard Dan shout faintly, through the water pelting down on my body, as the bedroom door shut.

I pulled myself up from the floor of the shower and turned off the water, stepping out of the shower and wrapping a huge towel around my body and one around my hair.

I came out the bathroom to find my suitcase open on my bed, grabbing the hotel dressing gown putting it on over my towel, before letting that slip from under it.

“You can get dressed in front of me you know? I’ve seen you naked hundreds of times.”

“Yea I know but it’s...doesn’t matter.” I reply grabbing my hoody and joggers out of my suitcase with some underwear and going back into the bathroom.

I got changed, making sure that the hoody covered my neck as much as it could. I came out of the bathroom and Dan was sat up on the bed flicking through the channels on the TV. I never spoke to him; I just walked over to my suitcase, pulled out my make-up before applying it in front of the mirror.

I could feel a pair of eyes burning a hole into the back of my head as I got ready.

“How did you get my stuff?” I ask as I apply my mascara.

“Chris dropped your bag off at reception this morning; you left it in the club last night. I used your key to let myself in before and got your stuff whilst you took your time in the shower.”

“Oh right...thanks.”

I glanced at him through the mirror, catching his eye for a second before breaking eye contact. I took my hair out of the towel, running some moose through it and hair spray causing it to go wavy.

Dan never spoke to me again, he just lay on the bed silent, the tv on low playing music in the background.

I got up and put everything into my suitcase, zipping it up pulling it off the bed.

“Ready?” I ask and he sits up looking at me sadly

“Yea, let’s go home.” He smiles at me, I smile tight lipped at him.

I grabbed all my things before heading for the door then down the corridor to the lift leaving Dan to lock up the room. The door on the lift pinged open and I walked in, I hit the other button allowing the doors to stay open so Dan could get in as well.

“Thought you were leaving without me.” He mumbled walking in as the door closed behind him

“I said we were going home...not me.” I smile at him and he nods smiling.

Dan checks out of his room as I check out of mine. We get a taxi to Movida so that we could collect Dan car. Dan placed my suitcase in his boot as I got into the passenger side, buckling up.

About ten minutes later we were pulling up outside our home. I hadn’t even got out of the car when Evie came running out of the house and over to me.

Her arms flung around me so tight as tears flowed down both our cheeks. Neither of us saying a word, just standing there crying into each other’s arms.

“Let’s get you girls inside.” Luke says coming over to us.

I wipe my tears away as I wrap my arm around Evie’s waist as she does the same to me. I lean my head against hers as we walk inside.

“First of all...are you okay?” Evie cried and I nodded

“I’m just glad to be home.”

“Me too...I’m so sorry...” she begins but I stop her from talking

“Let’s just forget about it yea. I forgive you all I just don’t want to think about it.”

“That’s fine, now Liv...what happened?” she asked softly, running her finger along my cheek catching my tears

My eyes flickered to Dan who was stood awkwardly by the door.

“Can we talk in private?” I ask looking back at Evie

“Sure .” She replied standing up and heading for the stairs.

“Girls before you go up...brew.” Luke smiles passing us two steaming mugs

“Thanks Luke.” I smile and he kisses my cheek

“Welcome home .” He smiles and winks at me and I smile back. “Good to be back.”

I follow Evie up the two flights of stairs to her and Luke’s room. I sat down on their window sill wrapping my arms around my bent legs.

“...” she whispered sitting down opposite me, resting her hands on my feet.

My eyes lifted from my feet up to her eyes. “He....” I began

“I know what he tried to do.” She whispered, tears steadily falling down both our faces.

“I feel so dirty. He’s touched me.”

Liv, Dan got to you before he did anything didn’t he? That’s what he told Luke?” she began to panic

“Well, he never touched me like that but his hands were still all over me. His presence is still on me.”

“How?”

I pulled the sleeves down on my hoody covering my hands, using it to wipe my tears away. I took a deep breath before taking it off showing her my arms. My hair was covering my neck at the moment.

“Oh ...” she sighed, running her finger over the marks.

I was about to show her my neck when there was a knock on the door. Startled I quickly put the hoody back over my head, as Luke walked through the door.

“Me and Dan are about to order chinese...wondered if you girls wanted anything?”

“I’m fine thanks Luke.” I smile

“I’ll have my usual please .” Evie smiled at him

“Liv i’m ordering your usual as well.” He replied

“I’m not hungry.”

“You’re going to eat something.”

“Not if im not hungry I’m not.”

“Don’t argue guys.” Evie sighs, “Just let Luke order your food and if you want it later you can warm it up.”

“Whatever...I’m going.” I sigh getting up from her window sill and walking towards Luke who was stood by the door.

“Liv...” Evie says and I turn towards her “We haven’t finished.”

“It’s fine.” I reply walking out of the room, down the stairs and going into my room, bumping into Dan on the way in.

“Oh sorry.” I mumble

“It’s fine , I’ve just put your suitcase in here.”

“Thank you.” I reply looking up at him.

“Everything okay baby girl?” he whispered, brushing his fingers against mine.

“Oh err yea. Just Luke making me eat when I’m not hungry.”

“You do need to eat though .”

“I know...I’m just not hungry.”

“Well I’ll order your usual and then you can just warm it up later.”

“Okay.”

I walk over to my bed and open up my suitcase, tipping the contents onto my bed and putting my dirty clothes into my washing basket in my bathroom.

I was sorting through everything that was in a heap on my bed when I felt two arms around my waist making my jump out of my skin.

“Shit, sorry .” Dan apologised after I pushed him away from me

“It’s fine.” I reply

“I didn’t mean to scare you.”

“It’s fine, I’m just on edge you know.”

“Yea...I should have thought. I’m sorry.”

“‘Dan it’s fine.”

I move away from him, placing my make-up back on my desk before moving everything else back. Dan was sat on my bed just watching me as I tidied everything away.

“Are we ever going to get back to being the way we used to again?” he asked me

I stopped what I was doing, placing the clothes that were in my arms down, looking over to him.

His eyes met mine, sadness taking over them by the second. “I hope so. I think it might just take some time. We can’t expect things to be normal right away. We’ve been through hell and back these past couple of weeks.”

I walked over to my door, hanging up scarf up. I was on my tip toes, placing it on the hanger when I felt Dan’s fingers run along my skin at the top of my pants.

My whole body tingled at his touch; his presence had an overwhelming effect on my body. His arms wrapped securely around my waist as his lips began to gently attack the back of my neck.

I quickly moved out of his grip, pulling my hoody up, not wanting him kissing my neck...or me at all. Lucien had marked my skin...I felt like I was his property now. I felt bad for pushing Dan away but I didn’t feel comfortable.

He sighed and walked out the door without saying anything to me. I took in a deep breath before I shut my door and changed into some clean PJ’s and a clean hoody. I got under my quilt and cried myself to sleep. It may only be 1.39pm but I just wanted to cuddle up under my quilt. I just wanted last night not to have happened; I just wanted to forget everything.