Andy

December 31st, 2020

It was probably really stupid of me to believe that he would come or even want to see me. I hadn't spoken to him for a year, ignored every single thing he sent me, even blocked him for the majority of the year. Why would he want to see or speak to me at all?

I was sitting in baggage claim, waiting for him. I had spent most of the year in Washington for work, gotten two cats and just focused on myself. It was actually great, it was really sucky and painful at first but something that I needed. I was visiting Ro for the week and I had been thinking about Tom all month for some reason, I needed to see him. He hadn't responded to me at all, probably ignoring me or moved on and forgot about me.

I was tapping my foot profusely, looking at all entry points in the area just waiting. I was sitting there for hours, it was 11pm already, I was stupid to believe that he would come. Tears spilled out of me and I buried my face in my hands, bending over into my knees. I'm so stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

"Andy."