It's just me or my conscience

My imagination or my desire

I am always curious of those things which i never did

But I don't wanna do too

That's why I dream of those questions

Imagine myself as third person of the story which lead actress is someone who just look like me

Never dare to stood in her place but do give her my appearance

A more beautiful perspective of myself

More slim, smart, classy, gorgeous and most importantly overbearing

A successful person, making everyone enviously admiring me

Want to be just like me, looking up on me from down

Isn't that something everyone want

I know that even dreaming about something is just to pricey

Because I see them in my dream that's why I pay for it in real world and never able to get to those dreams true for real

And hurts even more when someone have the same life what you always want for yourself

It feels like they stole my dream, that's the most harsh price I ever paid in order to see those dreams

You would say just stop seeing those dreams

But I am addicted to dream, I will never sleep until I dream

My all unfulfilled wishes, desires change into dreams

Because we aren't able to get them in real life. thus I see lead actress having it

Make me think I will get those when I will be the most preferred version of myself

But those things I want for myself, were never mine to begin with

At least not in reality, i don't deserve them here

And they end up going away in real

And also to someone who I know truly deserved it