(Will's POV)

I'm going to bed early this day, way to early, but I'm to tired to do anything and to excited to sleep so I'm just laying here. Slightly confused.

Today really happened a lot, to much, from my point of view, but it's fine I guess.

We walked home after a while, Nico and me, after it got to cold to sit in this park any longer.

He didn't say that much. I probably to much. Not enough.

I guess I get it now, why he doesn't want to talk to me, or spend time with me even he could obviously need it.

He just never really was this kind of person, to easily forgive and forget and to trust, and it didn't got any better. Obviously.

But he did came back after he left.

So maybe... just maybe there's a chance that he'll - well, what? Forgive me? Befriend me? Fall in love with me?

I hope so.

Probably he's actually right and I should stay away from him, he's so sad and broken and I know that it won't be easy, not at all.

Just these things he said, about running.

It doesn't work that way, if you keep running you'll stand on the end of the road at some point. And when you have really bad luck there'll be a cliff at the end of this road. I guess he knows and I guess that's the thing that scares me.

But that's also the reason I can't leave him again, can't let him run away.

When he reaches this cliff he needs someone to pull him back and tell him that he has to stop running away from his problems since this is a fucking problem itself.

And also, I want this - stay with him, not leave him.

He was my best friend, and he really was a lovely person and that's still there, I know it.

And he's hot. I mean really.

But none of these is the actual point.

I want him close to me, as close as possible.

He's so cold and so lost and I want him to stay warm, I want him to want to be close to me.

So I'll know he's alright. So I know he's there.

It doesn't even have to be like this - I mean, he is hot yes, and if he wanted it to be like this, Jesus, I wouldn't say no - but it doesn't have to be. Just close. As much as possible.

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Someone knocks on my window.

Again. I wish whoever does this would stop.

I open my eyes, my room is completely dark, the blinking letter on my clock say it's one in the morning. The knocking continues.

My room is on the second floor, it isn't supposed to offer people to knock on my window. In the night. In a city I know no one.

No one except....

I get up and look at the window. At first I see nothing, but then there's Nico, still knocking. I open my window.

'What the hell?'

He is standing on the roof of a car he parked carelessly close to the house, so he can reach my window.

'Do you remember what you said?' he sounds, I don't know, excited, probably.

'What? When? Why are you here?'

'About beautiful things. And stop running. I want to see something beautiful. Now. Are you coming?'

'It's one in the morning. We have school tomorrow. Are you even allowed to drive a car?'

'Have you always been so boring?' damn it. This boy. Of course I'm going to jump out of my window on a car roof for him, no matter how late it is. Damn it.

'Five minutes.'

I go back into my room and get dressed as fast as I can, take my phone and go back to the window. Nico is back on the ground again, standing behind the car, I get out of the window.

If I'd go through the front door my parents would probably wake up, they are both very light sleepers.

'Who's car is this? Can you drive? Where are we going?'

'To many questions, Solace.'

'Will.'

'Get in the car.'

I have to climb over the drive seat to the passenger seat, since the car is still to close to the house. Nico gets down next to me and drives us away surprisingly smooth.

'Is this illegal?'

He just looks at me and smiles, not smirking, not sarcastically, just a small little smile that makes his eyes light up for a second.

It's not really worth it - driving away, through the night, with a car he isn't even allowed to drive to who knows where he wants to go, just to see Nico smile.

But god damn, we are young and I think I love Nico and even I know it isn't really worth it, right now it feels like it is.