Marcus drops the paper down in front of me, I sigh tiredly and look at it. It's the newspaper.

People have been reported missing! Series of animal attacks have been happening, we are trying to find the animal that is doing this and kill it but it seems to be everywhere. There's more than one. We will find whatever this monster is.

I place my head in my hands and shake my head. He promised me didn't he? He promised me that he wouldn't leave me but he did. He gave up and now he's a monster and I have no clue how we're going to bring him back. "Shae we need to bring him back soon, if he kills anymore people then he will feel so guilty when his humanity is back on...... Shae, are you listening?" My head snaps up to look at him and slowly I nod. I'm listening but I'm not really there. He sighs and sits down next to me, "we'll find him and bring him back. He's only gone because he himself knows that you're his weakness and you could make him turn back his humanity."

"He doesn't want to be found Marcus. And if Tyler doesn't want to be found then he won't be found," Eduardo says, Amy sits next to him- his arms around her only reminds me of Tyler and I. Quickly I look away, I just can't look.

"Maybe he secretly does want to be found." Samantha cuts in, we all look at her. She stands and walks over to the table and looks down at the news paper, "he wants to be found, Marcus. If he didn't then he would hide the bodies, he'd make sure that no one knew they were missing. Secretly, he wants to be found."

"But not for us to switch his humanity back on," he mutters and scratches his head and concentration. "Let's just go searching, we need to find him," we all nod in agreement and stand then walk out of the house. It's been three nights and four days since he turned his humanity off, since he disappeared and since hundreds of people have died. And all because of him.

Sam walks beside me silently, she doesn't try to spark up a conversation and neither do I; we're both fine with walking in silence, it isn't awkward like you'd think it is. Marcus holds his hand up signalising for us to stop, he walks further forward and bends down. I can smell it.... the stench of blood. And it's fresh. He's been here, he's incredibly close and that makes hope ignite in me. After all hope is the only thing that stays afloat. Right?

We all walk over to where Marcus is, Eddie/ Edvard couldn't turn up to help look for Tyler. Recently, he found his mate and he doesn't want to get her involved. Her names Amara or something like that, I haven't really been paying attention lately. "It's defiantly fresh," Amy comments, Marcus picks up the body- it's a girl, a teenager. She didn't deserve this, she has her whole life ahead of her and Tyler killed her.

"Start a fire," Marcus mutters. I can tell he's upset, Amy and Eduardo walk off to grab the materials for a fire. He places the body down and walks away, he comes back with some flowers. Flowers. Who knew Marcus could be like this? Ed and Amy come back and place the stuff down and start the fire, Marcus lifts her up and places her body in the fire. We all watch as her body burns, all Tyler is doing is taking people away from their families like someone took his mother away from him.

Silently we walk away, Tyler doesn't show up. The hope diminishes and we walk back home. I sigh as I close Tyler and I's bedroom door behind me, I lay on the bed fisting the blankets in my hands and I let his scent wrap around me. A knock on my door puts me out of my peaceful state, "come in."

Amy and Sam walk in, they both smile softly at me and I roll over on my back clinging the sheets to my chest. "I'm sorry that we couldn't find him," Sam murmurs.

I shrug, Amy stays still. A look of confusion passes her face and she looks at me, she gasps bringing her hands to her mouth. I sit up, we look at her in panic. Has something happened? "Shae...... You smell..... Fertile," I gasp and spring forward off the bed.

"What are you saying, Amy?" My eyes look between Sam and Amy. Sam sniffs the air and her eyes widen and she nods agreeing with Amy.

"You're pregnant. But we don't really know for sure, wait here I'll be back," Amy walks out of the room and comes back a second later with a pregnancy test. She hands me it and I take a deep breath and walk to the bathroom. When I'm finished I place it on the counter and wait.

''Can vampires get pregnant?''

"Only if the males want the female to get pregnant."

He wanted me to fall pregnant? Tyler wanted me to be pregnant with his baby, oh this is some news that is making me nervous. But I swear you don't know if you're pregnant that quickly. With humans it take like 2 weeks or something, I look at the counter and take a deep breath and look at it.

Positive.

I shake my head and the door opens, I hold the test in my hand and they look at it. Both of them gasp, "he wanted you to fall pregnant, Shae." I remember the last time we had sex, he was feeling lonely, he wanted to show me that he loves me and he always will. Maybe he made me fall pregnant to prove a point? But am I ready for this? I don't think so. But he would ask my if I wanted to be pregnant wouldn't he? Maybe his feelings were all over the place and he couldn't control it.

And I cry. "I don't think I'm ready for this," I shake my head. They hug me in a group hug, I need Tyler. I need him to tell me that everything will be alright and I need him to explain this to me because I'm so confused as to why I'm pregnant. Well I know why but I need to know what he was feeling at the time. "But how did we find out so fast?"

"We're vampires, our babies form within a couple of days."

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Amy and Sam left me so I could be alone and process this all, I can't sleep. I need to find him! I sit up and place my feet on the floor, I stand up and walk to the door of my bedroom. I walk out and head to the front door, I open it and step out. It's dark, even inside the lights were all out. The breeze brushes through my hair and I close my eyes enjoying the feeling.

My bare feet step on the soft green grass and I walk to the trees, everything silent except for the howling of the wind. I walk into the woods and I catch the sight of the moon illuminating off a lake, entranced by the sight I walk to the lake and sit down. I can even see my reflection, I look tired. I should've been sleeping, eating; I have another life in me that I need to take care of. So I've been eating for my baby.

The sound of twigs snapping makes me turn around quickly and my heart rate accelerate, whatever it is seems careless that I can hear it. The sight of the man we've all been looking for makes my heart rate only increase, the moonlight hits one side of his face. This time he isn't smirking, he's looking at me seriously. Oh how I've missed Tyler so much. He walks closer to me but stops a fair distance away, but I need to be closer. Still I make no move to get closer to him, my feet stay rooted to the spot.

"You shouldn't be out here alone," he rumbles, so he still cares about me? "Why are you out here, Shae?" He stares at me waiting for a response.

"Why are you out here, Tyler?" He raises an eyebrow at me and smirks. "You left me," I whisper, he smirk stays intact. "After you promised that you wouldn't. Tyler please come back," he chuckles then full out laughs in amusement.

When he sees I'm not laughing with him he stops and looks at me, "oh you weren't joking?" I glare at him, tears push themselves forward and escape. "Pathetic," he mutters rolling his eyes when he sees my tears, he's calling me pathetic.

"You can't say that. If anything you're the pathetic one, you turned off your humanity and I'm embracing how I feel. I'm the one feeling! Just please come back to me, I need you," I cry dropping to the floor. "I need you, Tyler because I love you so much," why do we love when it causes so much pain?

"No you don't. You survived without me before we met, you can do that again," I look up and glare at him shaking my head.

Anger bursts through me, "YOU LIED TO ME! YOU LEFT ME WHEN YOU SAID YOU'D STAY! I need you right now and you aren't here, you could've put more faith in me and listened. We could've gone through this hard time together, your mother would be disappointed in you just like I am." Maybe I shouldn't of brought that up, but he's not meant to feel and he deserves to know this because deep down inside him he knows that she would be disappointed as well.

"Don't you dare say that!" He spits at me, he grabs me by the hair. When did he get so close? He pulls me up by the hair and more tears fall, he's hurting me.

"You really are a monster like the people said," I whisper, an emotion flashes through his eyes. Hurt. I really am his weakness. He shakes his head and closes his eyes and snarls at me, he won't hurt me any more. Only the grabbing of the hair. Because hurting me would be like hurting his mother, like hurting himself.

"Don't.... Don't say that. You know what I hate? I hate that you can bring unwanted feelings, you make me feel alive and you make me want to see you! My body craves you, I crave you," he growls pulling me to him. "Why do I crave you? Why do I need you!?" He roars, I flinch and try to get him to release me.

His hold gets tighter on my hair and I whimper, "you're hurting me." He releases me quickly, "Tyler you're feeling like this because it's love. This is all love, you can just turn your humanity back on and be with me and we'll deal with this," Tyler shakes his head and backs away from me.

Then he's gone as fast as he came. I should've told him that I'm pregnant, maybe that would've made him stay instead of leave me. And I cry yet again.

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