My two girls, I couldn't be more happy about having a child with my kitten. She probably doesn't believe that it isn't a girl but I have a feeling it is but one of the reasons is that I don't want her to have a boy.

"Xzavier"

"Ah..just a minute!" I shout back , I was going to surprise her today. It's the least I could do with what happened at the hospital with him anyway.

This couldn't go wrong in anyway she's the love of my life and she's caring our child so of course I'm going to be ten times over protective of them. She just couldn't see that yet but she will in due time this is waists best for our family.

I ascend down the stairs in a rush to get her into the car without asking to many questions until we reach our destination , but that didn't happen.

"Where are we going?"

"To... my parents house"

"Why"

"Because they want to check up on you and the baby"

"Why couldn't they come to your place?"

Oh my god what's with all these questions, she has to know something is up because man my mind can't think quicker than hers.

"Because... I said no?"

"What did you say that like a question? Why did you say no? What was so bad of having them come to your place to see me? Why aren't you answering me?!" I couldn't think of answers to all those questions so I remained silent I didn't want her angry and I didn't want to tell her the whole truth yet.

I could almost see the steam leaking from her but I refused to say anything or spare her a glance , I might die before I make it but at least once she knows the truth she would know that I had a good reason for it.

I know I shouldn't but my hands itch to touch her so I slowly pick my hand up and touched her thigh. It calmed me when I was touching or near her I don't know why but it did.

She pushed my hand away and scoots more to the door , I would be lying if I said I wasn't hurt because I was and she knew it to but she didn't say anything. She just sat there with her own little attitude, I guess having a baby really can do more damage to a women's mood swings and having Autumn with mood swings is like having a psychopath being in the same room as the person they despise the most. Not good at all.

All I can hope she that she doesn't kill me before we even make it her surprise , she's going to love it.

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He thinks he can just ignore me and than want to put his hand on my thigh?! He has another thing coming to him! I will treat him just the way he's treating me and let's see how long he would be able to last.

Oh I can can tell you how long he can last because he's a fucking psycho who thinks he can just boss everyone the fuck around but that will not be me! Not tonight!

He might just be lying about everything and is trying to kill me off somewhere deep in the forest. Is he even capable of that?

He probably is ,I'm going to keep my eyes on him just in case I have to knock him out.

We pull up to his parents house and so far that wasn't a lie so I follow him. Of course he tried to put his arm around my waist but me being who I am , I moved to the far side of the pathway and walked alone to the door. He's really mad now , who cares? Not me.

"Kitten come here"

"No I'm good I can walk by myself" I continue to the house and he follows me.

"Well I know that but I want to walk with you" he tries to grab my hand but I pull it behind my back instead.

"I'm okay" I told him nonchalantly while continuing to walk to the the door steps.

"I'm not okay! Why are you acting like this" I don't say anything and ring the doorbell instead of having a pointless conversation with him that's only going to lead into us arguing.

"So you aren't going to answer me? Fuck Autumn why do you always have to be so damn irritating and confusing!"

I know he did not just say that I was the irritating one!

"I'm irritating?! Your the one who's so fucking crazy that ever guy I talk to you have a problem with and I don't know why- oh no I'm sorry I do know why , it's because you think I'm going to fuck them because on one drunk and stupid night me and your brother kissed and you know what?! I didn't even remember until you made me remember Xzavier-"

"Don't blame all of that on me autumn I shouldn't have to look out and check on your drinking , you should be old enough to do that your damn self I'm not your fucking guardian!"

"E-fucking-xactly Your not my guardian so stop always trying to boss me around and tell me who I can and can't talk to!"

I haven't even noticed the amount of eyes that were staring at us until I looked back at the doorway where my family and so was Xzavier's standing with shocked and embarrassed faces. I hated when this happened , it's always like this and I can't stand it. I took a very deep breathe before turning back to Xzavier who stood just a step down from me.

"We need a break , I want a break from all of this"

"No. We're not doing that again autumn your not running away from me because i wanted to touch you that's all ,I just wanted to surprise you with a party because your birthday got ruined is that to much to ask for my fiancé to be happy?"

"I'm not running away Xzavier, I love you so much but we need a break from each other. I won't be staying at your place and I don't want to see you all day every day , if you want to check on the baby and I than I'm fine with that but after you'll leave and I can have space to myself"

"Why?"

"Because we haven't been apart for more than twenty four hours since we've meet and that's not healthy. We need to have time apart because us going back and forth arguing isn't going to do anything but make what we have worse"

"But-"

"I love you okay and I love that you wanted to surprise me with this party but right now I need to be alone. Call me later" I kiss his cheek and walk from down the stairs, I just hope that my words sunk in and that he doesn't chase me because I'll give in and our relationship will be as toxic as ever.

I hope us being separate solves all of our issues with one another because if I'm going to marry and have his child , we need a better relationship than the one we are currently in.

Sometimes I feel as if we're in this never ending cycle where we fight and make up on a daily basis , I can't let that be a normal thing with me being pregnant I have to think about our child and what's best.

"Wait autumn" I turned around about to give him another speech but he silenced me with a passionate kiss.

"I love you too and even though I'm going to go crazy every second that your away from me , I want this if it's best for us so I agree with whatever you want as long as we aren't breaking this engagement"

"I wouldn't think about it baby, now be good while I'm gone" I kiss him once more before climbing inside of the car with my parents and driving off.

I'm happy that he's agreeing to this , we may have just improved with our communication. Fuck I love that man. My Xzavier, all mine.

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