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Hi, I'm Emmie. I'm just your average girl who like everyone else plays Pokemon go, goes to school, does exams and so on. I've got a great family, a good few friends and a stable environment to call home. I live in the picturesque countryside which I take for granted way too much, and in grateful to live in such a brilliant place.

Notice how I missed out one big thing here.

This is, an LGBTQA book after all, and not once in that opening paragraph did I say anything to do with the LGBTQA community.

For some reason, I always thought I was different, most girls at my school loved to play with dolls or play princesses. As for me? Well I was either on one of the computers or with the group of boys. When I first joined high school, and I was met with the terryfying amount of girls who were a lot hotter than I was, I knew something was up.

I discovered my true sexuality a year back when my friend said over text message that I should reconsider my straightness.

I am glad to say i'm now officially straight as a bendy ruler. I'm bisexual, and I go by she pronouns.

Most people get their first dates and loves and what not when they hit high school/middle school (depending on when your from). For me, I have had too many crushes to think about, but never had an actual girlfriend or boyfriend, even after the countless attempts my friends have made to get me with one of my longtime childhood crushes.

It was at the start of my of my last two years of high school when I developed my first real crush, not like a seven year old crush you get in pre school.

It was a bit of a rollercoaster of emotions, the highs of fantasising every tiny detail, but then the lows came like a punch to the face.

One tiny little crush tore one of my strongest friendships apart. And all through Christmas and new year, I couldn't help but feel deflated and lost by the whole situation. And on those final seconds of 2015, I sort of wished that 2016 wouldn't come at all, so I could stay lost in the good memories of year before. The laughs and the smiles, all the joy. I was scared, I was scared of what 2016 may throw at me.

But, eventually, everything was eventually resolved.

I'm glad to say any relationships that had been soiled have healed, and the friendship that tore my world apart has been rekindled. I have come out to my parents which has lifted a huge weight off my shoulders. Through the whole experience, I did loose a few of my friends due to homophobia and weariness, but in the end, I made it out of the battlefield alive.

So, to all those in the darkness of times like mine, take this message. Do not loose hope, don't ever loose hope. There will be light at the end of the tunnel, trust me. Don't face your fears alone, get help from the people closest to you, that's what their there for. No one has to go through the dark alone.

Trust me.

You'll get through it eventually, kid.