So I know I said I would update Friday but I couldn't handle it so here's an update now and there will be an update on Friday. Enjoy the chapter.

I couldn't handle it anymore, after we both said those things to each other I realized that we might not be for each other. I decided to do what I wanted to do for a while now, I was going to London, my parents had a house owned there where they lived in when they were in a London in their first parts of their marriage. This house is in the middle of the forest hidden from everything and more importantly everyone. The only people that know about this house are Ferit and I. It was the thing that our parents left us that neither my aunt nor grandmother knew about. It was the most perfect place to go to if you ever need a break before Ferit went and stayed there to relax and for his opening of a hotel branch in London that was also where he met Serkan for the first time. Last night as I was trying to sleep my mind kept going back to my conversation with Serkan I turned on the bed to look at his innocent face as he slept and I realized that I couldn't continue anymore that I truly needed a break to think about everything that has happened. During that time I decided to go to London I booked my ticket that same night and left the house at 5 in the morning and went home to pack my bags luckily Ferit wasn't there. I texted Serkan a goodbye message on my way to the airport and texted ferit that I was going to travel for a couple of days to get some stuff.

Ferit was a little suspicious about what was going on between Eda and Serkan since he got a message from Eda saying that she was going to be traveling when the wedding was supposed to be happening soon. Everything that was going on didn't make sense. Serkan was stuck with work and never left the office, Eda traveled. The only people that seemed to be sane in his life were Ceren, Kaan, Selin, Engin, Piril, and Melo. Seyfi and Melo had broken up because they realized that they wouldn't work out. They broke up a couple of hours before Eda had her flight so when Melo went to Eda's house and saw her packing to go to London she decided to go with her as not to leave her alone and also to get a break from Istanbul and everything going on. Kaan and Selin had gotten married except they decided not to have a wedding and just announce it to their friends, a couple of days later so did Engin and Piril. Then Ferit got the biggest bomb of his life (more like three), the first one was that he was going to be a father Ceren was pregnant!, the second was that Eda and Serkan broke up, and the third was that Eda packed all her stuff and moved to London. Ferit froze when he found out those news he didn't know what to feel he was happy that he was going to become a father but also he felt bad for his sister. Serkan was sitting there seeing everyone getting married and having a happy and easy life while his was a mess and the only person he blamed was himself. He left the company early today and went to the gym he started punching the punching bag without gloves until his hand started bleeding. He was starting to go into a deep depression that he didn't know what to do at this point. His mother was busy with her life, his father was never involved in his life since the beginning, and now the person he loved with all his heart had left him.

It has been two weeks since Eda left and I don't know what to do anymore I feel like my life has no purpose anymore and that I can't breath. Last week I couldn't handle being at the office anymore so I left everything to Engin and Piril, I'm still trying to solve the bankrupt problem but nothings working. I haven't told anyone about it because I feel like when I try to tell people anything I either push them away or they leave me. My brother left me first, then my father stopped bothering about my life, now my moms to busy with her life to even have time for me and Eda the person I thought would be different in my life just left. I realized that at this point I'm a lost cause that I shouldn't try to get close to anyone because I will end up losing them or pushing them away with my actions. The only person that I could talk too was Ipek. She was my brother's girlfriend and when he died we have become close friends whenever something was wrong I would just talk to her and she would always have a way to help. Just as I was about to call her I found her calling me. We had decided to meet for coffee at my house since we didn't want to go out and risk the paparazzi seeing us. She came over right away I made us some coffee and we sat on the couch. Her knowing me so well immediately recognized that something was off. She raised her eyebrows at me and jumped straight to the point saying "Spill it! What's going on with you?" I chuckled at how well she knew me and then I went to tell her about everything that happened with Eda and how I feel that every-time I get close to someone I feel like I make them leave. She took my hand and told me "Serkan, your not the reason people leave yes I admit you made a mistake in not telling Eda what's going but don't ever blame yourself for people leaving, that's their choice and also their loss. You're a great person and you have a pure heart please stop telling that to yourself. Listen to me you know I see you as a sibling and that I always have your best interest in heart and that I say what I mean so listen to this and don't take any offense 'GET YOUR HEAD OUT OF THAT S*** HOLE THAT YOUR PUTTING YOURSELF IN'". Least to say I was surprised by the words Ipek just said but I realized she was right in the end. We finished talking about Eda and she told me that she also fell in love she looked scared as she was telling but I understood her reason. She felt that she would be betraying Alp if she falls in love again. I assured her that he would be happy for her and that there is nothing more that makes me happier than knowing that she was able to move on. After she left I found Ferit telling me he had to go to London because he wants to get Eda back to Istanbul. When I told my first instinct was to go with him but my mind told me to give her the break she wants that I shouldn't pressure her. After hearing Ipek's words repeating in my head I said "Screw it I'm going to talk to her". I texted Ferit to wait for me and we both rode on the plane to London.

The first week after I left Istanbul I have been feeling nauseous and dizzy at first I thought it was stress at first but when it was going on for 4 days I decided to see the doctor and after some blood tests the doctor told me she will call me back in 2 days with the results. Exactly two days after I went to the doctor I got a call back to come for the results as I sat in the doctors waiting room I was starting to panic then the nurse came out and called my name. I went inside and after shaking the doctors hand sat down. Then she said something that almost caused me to faint "Evet, Eda Hanim you appear to be 4 weeks pregnant" right after that I started coughing a lot, the nurse got me a water while my mind started calculating everything that happened and I realized that the time period she was talking about was during my graduation day. I took a deep breath and thanked the doctor as I walked outside her office to go home. I sat there for an hour shocked not knowing what to do, how I should tell Serkan, or what's going to happen. I thought of many scenarios going on if I would have told him. I broke out of my thoughts when I heard the door bell ring and I saw Burak a childhood friend from when we were in London with out parents before. I opened the door to him and we both sat down to drink coffee. I decided that to tell him the news he was shocked but very supportive I showed him the ultrasounds. The doorbell rang while I was going to the bathroom so I told Burak to open the door, as I was coming out of the bathroom I said "who is it burak?" and I got the surprise of my life Serkan there holding the ultrasounds in his hand while looking between me and Burak. I immediately understood what he thought, Serkan thought that I was pregnant with Burak's child and that was why I wasn't answering his calls right when I left. I saw Serkan put the photos down and start walking out I ran up to him and caught his wrist, he turned to me and I said "Serkan, wait! I can explain" all he said was "you don't need to explain to yourself". I pulled him by hand again and said "The reason why I wasn't answering your calls wasn't because fo what you think I just needed time to think things through and the ultrasounds you saw yes they are mine but I'm not pregnant with Burak's child, I'm pregnant with yours". With that I saw his eyes shine and his facial features soften. I heard Ferit say "What?" while Ceren was cheering "oh my gosh! congratulations!". While the only person I could focus on was Serkan, everything seemed confused.

Even though Eda was pregnant and everyone was happy Serkan and Eda didn't know what to do they were stuck in between they were going to become parents but they still had so many things to say to each other. As Serkan and Ferit went out to the balcony to talk they left their phones on the table five minutes after they went outside Serkan's phone flashed "Ipek❤️" next to Eda, she took a look at the screen and froze, she didn't know who that person was and what she meant for Serkan but all she knew was that this was like the cherry on top of their messed up cake. She took a deep breath to calm herself down and when Serkan and Ferit entered Eda coldly said "Your phone rang" and then left to go to the kitchen. Serkan was confused and then he saw Ipek's name on his phone and he started to have an idea. While Ipek was telling him on ways he could get Eda back, she was thinking about how to get Serkan to open up to her and with the baby on the way she decided that she could use that as a way for them to get closer again and for her to know what was going on that made him lash out during that time. She thought if she understood what was happened she could forgive him and try to help him out. So she decided to enter that game if things get well then maybe they could get back together but if it doesn't then everything between them is over. So the choice now was in the hands of Serkan without even knowing he entered a game that could either help him have a family or make him lose it before it even begins and be distant from his child. Stubborn Serkan obviously is still stuck on the fact that he shouldn't tell her about it.

Will Serkan change his mind? Will he be able to connect to his family or will he lose everything without even knowing it?