Zara

I woke up this morning to not just an empty bed, but an empty house. After walking around and yelling his name for 10 minutes. I gave up.

He's the most protected person here so I'm not worried about him at all. I'm more upset that he didn't leave a note, or some food, before he left. I know for sure he was in bed with me last night.

I also know for sure he was horny! I felt him touching on my body all last night. He rubbed me all over, squeezing my boobs and butt. He explored every inch in me, I know not one spot on my body went without his touch. He stroked on my vagina, rubbing on my clit. I could tell he was pleasuring himself by the way he's breathing was uneasy.

The only reason I didn't react is because I was sooo sleepy last night. The type of sleep that only happens when my heat is coming. That could be why he was so horny last night, maybe he could sense that it's close.

I made my way in the kitchen and made myself a bowl of Reese's puffs. I just needed something quick to eat and I didn't not want to cook.

As I was eating I heard a knock on the door. I picked up my bowl because I will not allow my cereal to get soggy for anyone. I opened the door to see a mail woman.

She looked to be about 55 years of age, red hair, dark eyes, face full of freckles. She gave me a warm smile and handed me the mail.

"Hello, Luna Zara. Here is the mail for today. I hope I didn't wake you from your sleep." She said, looking to the ground.

"Thank you, and you don't have to look down when you talk to me. What's your name?" I said, taking the thick stack of mail.

"Myra," she said, daring to look up.

"Nice to meet you Myra. Have a good day!" I said.

She smiled, actually looking at my face. Not necessarily my eyes, but close enough.

I sat the mail on the counter and looked it over as I ate the rest of my cereal. It was 2 of them that said my name, so I opened them.

It's work from my school, wonderful.

I looked at all of the work, about 7 pages front and back, and decided to let Jesus take the wheel.

I washed my empty bowl and made my way to our room. All of my clothes were up properly finally, making it easy to find some clothes for today.

I got myself together, taking a long shower, brushing my teeth and my hair.

I wanted my hair to be fully natural today so I didn't do much to it besides brushing it. I know my heat is coming soon so there's no real point in looking 'nice' today. My hair is naturally slightly puffy with loose curls.

I then put on a random t-shirt and nothing else. I just wanted to be comfortable for this pain that was going to rip it's way through my body. Besides I'm going to feel so hot it's pretty much no point to have so much clothing on.

Just as I finished getting ready for my body to fuck me over my phone rang.

I smiled once I saw it was Zoey.

"Hey Zoe" I breathed out.

"Hey I've missed you, I didn't get an update about the dinner" she said.

"I'm so sorry, it was kinda chaotic and a long story" I said trying not to rethink the night.

"Like I should stop for a long time?" She asked. I laughed to myself. If she says anything about coming over she's already on her way.

"Is this your way of asking if you can come down?"

"It's my way of letting you know that I'm on my way," she laughed.

"Good, I need someone to talk to"

"I should be there tomorrow so please have clothes on"

"Girl, good bye! I have to get some work done anyway" I laughed while hanging up on her.

After we got off the phone I decided to get some work done. Even though it's the last thing I care about right now, I don't want it to add up on me.

After 5 hours and 50 minutes of work I finished all of those papers over stuff I would probably never need a day in my life. I placed them in the return envelope and sighed deeply.

Then it hit me, I've been here all day by myself. Where the hell is Kai? I actually miss him.

My wolf started to pout and fill my head with thoughts I did not need.

What if he's with Abigail? I mean why wouldn't he. She's better than me in every way. Her honey brown colored skin held a natural glow. Her bold hair color was perfect for her, it really brought out her brown eyes. Her body is amazing. So fit, perky, and strong.

What if he's hurt? He is an Alpha. It's lots of people who want him dead. Lots of people who would try to challenge him. Why else would he be gone without telling me why?

What if he decided he didn't want me anymore? I mean my body is not the best. I have a little gut, my stomach has never been completely flat a day in my life. My breasts are small and barely there. My skin is so pale it looks like I've never seen the sun in my life.

My breathing started to race as my emotions took over. Everything hit me at once. My tears, my insecurities, and my heat.

I tugged on my hair and fell onto the floor as I cried harder than I've ever done in my life. I'm so weak. Why do I cry so much? Why did he leave me?

My stomach clinched, my head pounded, my eyes burned, and vagina ached.

I was alone. So completely alone.

I had no friends here, all I have here is Malakai and he's not even here with me. I have nothing here without him.

I thrashed on the floor and yelled out in pain as the fire started.

I then heard the door open, I instantly tried to quit my cries. My senses heightened as I soon realized who it was.

"Zara, I'm so sorry! I didn't know your heat was coming" Kai said, running over to me. I moved away from him even though I knew that his touch would help this pain leave my body.

I could see the exact moment my heat hit him. His eyes held a darker tint to them. He's chest started to produce endless growls and I could see him shaking to stay in control.

"Where were you!?" I yelled through my sobs.

"I'm sorry Zara. I was checking on Abi. She wasn't herself last night and-"

"As long as she's okay right? While I'm here all by myself with no one to talk to? While I'm here by myself in pain. As long as your fucking girlfriend is okay!"I spat. At this point I was doing the ugliest cry possible. Why do I keep crying over this same situation? Why do we keep having this same conversation? I hate it, but I can't help how I feel.

"No, no. As soon as I knew that you were in pain I left and got to you as soon as I could. I didn't mean to be gone for as long as I was. I honestly thought you would sleep a little longer. She's not my girlfriend Zara, I was just worried about her" he said, reaching out to me.

God we are so toxic.

"Kai, I'm not going to compete for your attention. She has a mate, he can check on her. I need you here with me to make sure I'm okay. I'm your mate!! Not that bitch" I said, holding onto my chest as it throbbed.

My body was at war with my mind.

I wanted to fuck him, fight him, cry on him, hold him, punch him in the face, and sit in his face all in one action.

His eyes were fully dark, his wolf was present and that both excited and scared mine.

"I know Zara, trust me I do. I've started to realize that. I can't have you in pain. You're mine. Let's run you a cold bath to ease this pain okay? You have me all to yourself, how about I make it up to you tomorrow. A full day whatever you want, what do you say?"he grabbed my arm. His touch felt so cool, so comforting and so damn good.

Why did I have to be so emotionally fucked up right now?

"Kai," I moaned softly.

He pulled me closer to him, closing the gap between us, and wrapped his arms around me. My pain eased, but it did not go away fully.

I wrapped my arms around his neck, I enjoyed this feeling like I wasn't just yelling at him.