Not knowing what you think

or if you want me in your life is killing me.

I feel as if you not talking to me, makes our friendship fall apart

and I don't want to lose you.

Losing you would lead me to losing myself.

When I see you with them I feel betrayed

even though you're not even mine.

I wish I could ask you so many questions and

everything would be fine, but I can't because I'll ruin

this friendship more than I already have.

I wish I could read your mind,

so I can know your honest opinion.

I want the raw truth.

I don't want you to tweak it so it will "please" me,

no.

If I ask for the honest truth I should get it,

but I don't and I want to know why.