I was having my daily cup of tea when I heard that Razor was at the door. Of course, I let him in. "What's the matter, sweetie?" "Teacher, Razor feels... weird with someone... but Razor don't know what mean."

I was surprised, Razor never talked about his feelings before, he'd always been quietly listening and sometimes asking a few questions here and there, but this was the first time he came to me with a question in mind.

"Please, go on." "So uhh... Razor stomach feel weird, face feel weird... everything feel weird. With... this person... only..." "Hmm... sounds to me like you've fallen for someone." "Fallen... for someone?" "It means you love them, more than just a friend, a mate. Someone you want to spend the entirety of your life with, that's someone you love." "Ok... think understand... thanks, teacher." "No problem, sweetie."

Love... that what called... how Razor tell Bennett? Maybe Fishcl help.

~Time Skip~

"Fischl?" "Ah, if it isn't thy loyal subject that reigns from the realm guarded by one of the Four Winds, Wolvendom? What troubles thou on this fine evening?" "Razor... wants to... tell Bennett... that Razor love him... but don't know how..." Fischl start, laugh? Razor not understand, stare.

"If that is what is troubling my dear subject, thy grant thou the opportunity to hear thee speak in the common folk." "Ok?" "So, you're trying to confess your feelings to him, yes?" "Yes." "Then you've come to the expert, all you need to do is...

The two Electros had mostly a one-man conversation as Fischl rambled about her ideas, all Razor could contribute to the conversation was the subtle "mhm" and "hmm" sounds he would make.

On the topic of Bennett, Razor's face was as red as a Windwheel Aster, while he just stared at Fischl as she talked and talked for what seemed like years but was only around 20 minutes. From afar, it would seem they were partners, and that was what a certain platinum blonde thought from around the corner...

MY LUCK IS THE WORSE! *sigh* All I wanted was to take a stroll around Mondstadt, and I end up seeing Razor with Fischl. They... I should've seen this coming... Knowing my luck, I could've guessed he wasn't into guys, much less me... but... it still hurts so much.

I ran through the crowds of people with tears running dry, trying to vent my sadness. And when I did reach home, I continued my sobbing session.

I walked into my bedroom and fell like a rock onto my bed. Staring at the ceiling and processing my thoughts, I regretted a lot of stuff but what I regretted the most was falling in love with him.

Lost in thought, I turned my gaze to the butter knife I kept on my bedstand. It's my knife of choice for both spreading jam, and butter on bread, as well as my knife of choice for...

Three slashes on my right arm, five on the other, a solid 10 on my torso, and 28 on my stomach. Yeah, I might be really unlucky, but most of these were done by my hand.

It's all my fault, now he's gonna leave me for her. The only way to bring his attention to me is this. If only I had the energy to grab the butter knife, I could-

~~Time Skip~~

It hurts but I deserve the pain anyways. Cut after cut, I cut away my thoughts, it was painful but satisfactory. The smell of blood always pleased me, reminds me of how much bad luck I have, how much I just want to press the reset button. Maybe I can fulfill my requests.

All it takes is one more stab to the gut to reach the 29th and I can...

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A/N

Hello, I am back from the dead. I honestly have no excuse for that :/ I kept telling myself to write but couldn't really write for more than 10 mins sooooooo

Anyways, if you're wondering if I have a plan for the confession, yes I do. Orrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr maybe there isn't a confession at all?

QOTD (again, i am cringe)

First 5 star?

I got a Mona on Zhongli banner, and luck gave me 2 more to go with it, C2 Mona and I don't use her :/