I'm in my room cleaning up the mess that I didn't even make. I was so irritated. I'm still sore and little fragile. I just need to relax for awhile. I lean down to look under my bed, and it a total shit fest. I don't understand how you come into some else's room and mess up. I hear the downstairs door close, and I stand up to walk down the stairs. It's my dad.

"Daddy?' I call to him

"Yeah..." He says from the kitchen.

"Who was in my room when I was in the hospital?" I ask.

"I think it was Jalonni. Why?" He asks coming around the corner.

"My room is dirty and I didn't leave it like that." I say annoyed.

"Well he needs to clean it up." He says.

"Daddy I already cleaned it. I was wondering can you buy me a new lock for my door." I say knowing how he might protest.

"I don't know. You know how I feel about locks, and what if one day a fire or something happens, or somebody breaks in and Faizon or La'rey need to get in your room." I blink several times with no response to him.

"So is that a yes or......"

"I'll think about it." He says.

I groan "Ugh okay Daddy. You doing too much." I say as I walk back up the stairs.

"You better shut the hell up..." He says laughing but I'm dead ass serious. Me and my dad have a great relationship. I don't understand why Jalonni is such a problem child. He was closest to my mother so that's probably why. Weird right? You would think I would be closer to mom but I didn't happen like that. I think my mom new Jalonni had issues.

I walk into Faizon and La'rey's room and they're playing the Wii. Faizon runs over ain't grabs my hand. "Play with us." He says in a playful voice.

"I don't know how to." I say in a silly voice.

"Hyden you do it like this..." La'rey says as he grabs my hands and attempts to show me how to play Bowling on the Wii.

"Aww. You're a good teacher " I say as I act like I can't play. "You're better at it than I am." I say sadly.

La'rey hugs me. "You will get better." He says poking the side of my face.

"Oh I will huh?" I chuckle as I grab him and start to tickle him. I swear I loved playing with my brothers. I need to be here to protect them each and every day.

After I watch them play for a while I go back into my room, and lay on my bed. I cut on the TV to watch a little SpongeBob and I doze off. I need this little nap.

I awake after 2 hours of sleep, and I walk out of my room. Walk down the stairs, and dad is sitting on the sofa talking to Jalonni so I try to listen in.

"Jalonni I know it gets hard when I'm not home. I'm keeping the bills paid, I'm keeping money in everyone's pockets, and I'm trying to keep everyone happy."

"I know Dad, and I get that. It's just we never see you like we used to, and we almost always having to move." Jalonni says.

"That's why I leave money here for you to take care of everything but I don't like Faizon and La'rey telling me you hit them and Mahyden when I'm not around. Don't try to be a bad ass when I'm not present. Act like your a adult In charge. You know how I feel about that especially since... You know."

Jalonni nods his head. "I understand and the only reason I hit them is because they do stupid stuff. I don't want them embarrassing the family." He lying like hell.

"I get that. I do. It's different ways you go about stuff. You think I don't want to beat your ass when you piss me off? I don't be cause that's not love and if that's how you show it. You'll never get love in return. Go out here and get you a girlfriend to occupy your time." He says nudging Jalonni a bit.

"I even think Mahyden got him a little boo. He probably thinks I don't know he likes boys but I do..."

This sentence shocks me. So I listen in closer.

"But, I still love him the same. That's not my business or yours. I want all my kids to be happy. You been really upset since your brother and mother died. They're in a better place. I'm mad at myself because your brothers didn't even get to meet him." Dad say and I'm taken aback. We had another brother? Is that why Jalonni is so evil towards me? I'm confused.

I slowly creep back up the stairs to my room. I close the door quietly and lay back I'm my bed. I can't believe dad has been keeping all these secrets from me.

After a while of them talking I guess Jalonni finally came up the stairs. I got out of my bed, and looking into the hallway. Jalonni was going into his room. I walk down the hallway and knock on his door. He opens the door, and turns around for me to come in.

"Um, did you by any chance mess up my room?" I ask

"I was looking for something." He says.

"Excuse me...Like what?" I ask again.

"Why are you questioning me. You should be glad I'm not in there now." He says with a smirk.

"You dumb bitch. I'm asking because you fucked my room up, and you should've cleaned it up." I say semi yelling.

He laughs. "You bucking cause dad home huh?" He asked with a raised eyebrow.

"No. You're just starting to get on my last fucking nerve." I say walking out of his room feeling accomplished. Did I really just talk to Jalonni like that? I feel good. My dad on the other hand has some questions he needs to answer because I believe he does know about Jalonni's behavior and I intend to find out what he knows.