"Minsu misses you, he says you don't really love him" Minji said chewing her gimbap. I rolled my eyes. I talked to my brother almost every other day, he's the one that is always at work or busy. Hell, I don't even have a job yet!

"Tell Minsu he knows where to find me. I don't have a job right now so that ball is in his court" She giggled.

"So I take it everything has been going really well with Bangtan"

"Yeah I can't complain much. Seokjin is warming up to me so now he's just regular ice instead of dry ice" I shrugged. "I guess we can call that progress. Hoseok has opened up a lot more to me, we can be in the same room alone without it being awkward anymore and the rest of the guys are just absolute delights."

"I am so happy to hear that, I knew this would be good for you and them, and I can tell you are a lot happier. I bet you haven't experienced any panic attacks or passed out since you've connected with them" I just smiled in response "Ahh I really am super happy for you, have they said when they would make you all public yet?"

"No not yet, I asked Taehyung about it yesterday actually and he said they have a plan in motion and for me not to worry so much because everything is under control"

"Well that's good, at least they aren't just sitting around twiddling their thumbs. Just be patient and enjoy the peace you have for now because your life will do a 180 when you're revealed. Korean entertainers are held to a different standard than westerners and some of their fans can be really, really, REALLY intense"

"Yeah I have thought about that and I've been doing my research on the guys specifically, it's crazy how devoted these people are, it's like a religion or a cult"

"They are called idols for a reason but BTS are extra special, they really started from nothing and worked like dogs to get everything they have now and their fans were and are a huge help, inspiration and driving force behind the success. Everything they do is with ARMY in mind"

"I'm not throwing shade or hate, I respect the dedication on both ends. It's pretty awesome to have that kind of support and love, to have people genuinely want to see them win and do well" Minji nodded then stuffed another piece of gimbap in her mouth

"Why aren't you eating?" she asked

"I never cared much for gimbap I'll eat with them"

"So what else have you been up to? Any leads on a job yet?"

"None yet. I haven't been very diligent in looking this week but I have sent copies of my resume to six companies so far" I took a sip of my water. I'd been with Minji for about twenty minutes and was already missing Taehyung, I didn't want to just leave after such a short time but I needed him

"What's wrong? You're frowning" I wanted to tell her about my night with him but I've never been close to any female besides my grandmother. Do I tell my sister about my sex life? Is that weird or normal?

"I want to tell you something but I don't know if it is appropriate..." I started, Minji put her plate and chopsticks down and dusted off her hands giving me her full attention

"You can talk to me about anything Ma-ri, even if it's an uncomfortable topic"

"I had sex last night" I spit out then covered my face so she couldn't see my blush stained cheeks

"Oh... okay, uhh isn't that normal for people in a relationship?" she replied with a question, probably confused as to why I felt embarrassed

"Yeah but it was my first time" I mumbled, still covering my face. She pulled my hands away

"What are you saying?"

"It was my first time!"

The silence was so loud.

She didn't respond right away. Maybe she was processing what I just revealed to her, was it abnormal that I was a virgin in my mid-twenties? I didn't think so.

"Well that's normal Ma-ri, lots of people want their first time to be with the right person or someone special. Did it feel right to you?"

"It did" I tried to resist smiling thinking of Taehyung's touch "Do-do sisters talk about stuff like this?"

This time she smiled gleefully "Yes they do"

"I didn't have any close friends growing up so girl talk is foreign to me and I don't know what's okay and what's off-limits"

"It depends on the relationship between the friends, or sisters in our case. As such I don't mind you talking to me about anything, you can set the boundaries of what you are willing to share and what you don't want to tell me. I won't ever pry, you've got the right to keep certain things to yourself or just between you and your boyfriends"

"I think we've gotten close enough that I'm comfortable talking to you about sex, it's still very new to me and I'm not totally ignorant about the topic there are just certain things I would like another's woman's take on"

"Okay, that's fine with me. So how was your first time" she leaned in close, seemingly excited about what I was going to tell her.

"It was good, really good. Do you know what cravings are?" She shook her head no "Okay so soulmates develop intense desires to be with each other sometimes called cravings. I had my first one yesterday and it was awful"

"Oh no, so what happens? How do you stop them?"

"Only two options. One, you try to endure or ignore it or two, satisfy it. Same as if you're craving a certain food. I couldn't take the intensity for longer than a few minutes, for me it was painful and uncomfortable, so that's where Taehyung came in. Since my craving was for him we ended up having sex"

"Wow, well at least your first was good and with someone you care about. I know he's technically your boyfriend and my future brother-in-law, but I'm curious... is he...you know, adequate?" She asked, using her hands as a method of measurement

"Very" I bit my lip "I am a satisfied woman"

"Amen to that!"

"Thank you. So the after effects of a craving include a bout of clinginess and even though he's only two floors away I am missing him like crazy"

"Say no more. Got to your man-men" she chuckled "We will talk again soon. I love you" she opened her arms for a hug

"Okay, I love you too and tell our brother he's a chump." Our hug lasted about five seconds but it was a good one.

***

"You smell so good, like apples" Taehyung's low voice rumbled over my skin, giving me goosebumps in its wake.

"It's my lotion" I sat on his lap sideways with my legs hanging over his thighs and arms wrapped around my torso. My left arm was hooked on the back of his neck "How do you have a break already? We haven't been here two hours yet"

"Some of the equipment went down" he answered nibbling on my ear lobe and neck just below it "And I was missing you"

"Me too" I captured his soft lips with mine, openly making out with him and not caring who might see us. One of his hands slipped up my blouse to squeeze my breast through the satin cup of my bra. I hummed a moan and fed him more of my tongue, he eagerly reciprocated the action helping us engage in a heated make out session that made me squirm in his grasp.

"Mm we...we should stop now. I can't promise I won't take you right here in the conference room" We slowly broke the steamy kiss, giving one another lingering kisses until they were simple pecks then nothing. "I can't stop thinking about last night, you were so good"

"I feel the same way" he smiled against my cheek while rubbing my thigh while shivers ran up my spine. We continued to sit with each other until Hoseok came to get him so they could get back to work

"The problem has been fixed so let's get back to work" He said poking just his head through the door

"Come on baby" I stood up first and Tae grabbed my hand so I could follow behind him

"Is it okay for me to be in there while you guys are practicing? Won't you be distracted?"

"Nope, I need you close. "He smirked, letting the door close behind us. We went down the long hall to the huge dance room where the other guys were waiting. I bought my laptop with me to keep myself occupied since we would be here all day.

"You good now?" Namjoon asked Tae with a goofy grin plastered on his face. Taehyung just pushed him away and started dancing around to the music being played.

Watching them interact with one another was something I could watch all day. They were so natural, whether they were just joking and poking fun at each other, having heartfelt conversations, talking seriously about work and business issues, or just casually talking amongst themselves. Nothing was forced or staged, they really liked, loved and accepted each other. I was slowly being weaved into the fabric that was BTS and I think I was blending in nicely.

I spent the remainder of the day between watching them and entertaining myself with movies and online shopping. When it was finally time to go home I was really tired, just wanted to crawl in my bed and pass out as if I was the one dancing all day. We finally made it home and before I could sneak off to my room Taehyung hugged me from behind and pulled me into his. The gesture made me smile and fuzzy so I walked backwards with him. He sat on the padded bed frame and pulled me on his lap, kissing on my neck

"Thank you for today" He said, pulling back to look at my face

"You're welcome but I didn't do anything, I was just there"

"Exactly. You have no idea how good you being there made me feel. I like having you around since day one I've loved your presence"

"Really?"

"Mmhmm. You know soulmates can have multiple connections or sub connections with each other and I think I'm emotionally connected to you on a low frequency because being around you makes me calm. I don't get nervous or anxious often and I'm pretty level headed in general but something about being with you or around you makes me feel better even if I'm already feeling good" he explained. Taehyung is so sweet and to hear him say those words to me made me feel useful. I knew I belonged but I still didn't feel like I had a role, I didn't know what I was actually adding to the relationship until then.

"I'm glad I could be there for you. Believe it or not I really like being with you too. The more time I spend with you the more attached I become and I like it. You make me feel like I have a purpose with you all and it's nice." He kissed my nose and hugged me. I was seeing that opening myself up to them was helping me see myself in a new light, a brighter light.

"I'm falling in love with you Ma-ri" Two months ago that would have scared me and sent me into a state of panic but I took his words in and let them warm me up from the inside out. I had no doubts that he spoke honestly.

"I'm falling in love with you too Taehyung" His heart was beating a little faster but I think it was from excitement. He tapped my thigh so I would stand up and he stood in front of me taking my hands in his.

"Stay with me tonight, please"

"Okay" He wrapped my arms around his waist and rested his chin on the top of my head

"I'm going to take a shower, care to join me"

"Yes I would"

We took a hot shower together where I washed his hair and body, literally bathed him from head to toe. The intimacy we had in those moments were precious to me, it could have easily turned into sex and that would have been okay too but being with him like that, butt naked and wet without the physical part made my heart swell. We talked as if we were fully clothed in a room full of people. I felt like he really saw me as his soulmate and girlfriend and not just another body to play with, which is something I worried about until that night then.

After our shower I went into my room to put on some pajamas, which was just a t-shirt and panties, then hurried back across the hall to his bedroom where he sat waiting for me in nothing except some briefs. We both got situated in his bed, this time he rested on me. I laid on my back and he laid his head on my abdomen, just below my breast and his arms wrapped around me. I didn't think I could fall asleep like that but I was very wrong, having his body head and weight on me was way more comfortable than I expected it to be. I finger combed his hair until we both fell asleep, comforted by each other.