I woke up sore, my inner thighs were very sore. I wasn't used to this type of pain. I liked it. It feels like I have done exercise few hours ago. I felt too high, far from the floor. I was so comfortable as my body laid in a soft material. The sun was shining in my eyes, I'm guessing that's how I woke up. I didn't dare to open my eyes though.

I heard someone hissing out lot of bad words and the person growls, groans. I quickly opened my eyes. Taking in my surroundings, the dark floor and the navy blue walls, the pictures hanged up. The medals and trophies everywhere. Noticing I was in a room that did not belong to me. It was unfamiliar. I sat up, but quickly grabbed the sheet and covered my chest.

I was naked. Then clips of last night flashed back and I was alarmed. I turned my head around slowly to face the male starring back at me. He had a blank stare. He's eyes were yellow? I wasn't sure what that meant. I didn't know how he felt at the moment.

I was afraid, confuse and AFRAID! I started to shake without my knowledge, I didn't want to. I didn't want to show the Alpha I was scared. He just looked ahead. His back was facing me. I couldn't help but admire his toned, flexed, tanned back. My eyes gaze down and I very much wish it didn't. I was his buttocks, white blanket was wrapped around him but that didn't help me feel nervous.

I waited for him to say something. But he didn't. Just sat there, at the side of the bed- he was barely on the bed. One question popped in my head.

Off course he does! Look at me. I'm not the beautiful girls he normally has around him. I'm not Quincy. I'm not Amy. I'm just a fat bag. An ugly used fat bag. Useless to the pack. I haven't even shifted for god sake. Pointless. Am I even a werewolf?

He sudden movement startled me. I followed his movement with my eyes. Following him with ever move. He stood up. He dropped his blanket that was covering him. I squealed and squeezed my eyes shut. I felt his eyes on me.

I slowly opened at looked at him. He stood tall starring at me with a straight face. He had his boxers on. He must have put them on while I was sleeping. He clenched his jaw and continue. He got his dark jeans out of the closet and put it on. Then he got a plain green polo top. He grabbed his leather jacket. He gave me a look before but it one.

"What happened?"I asked.

What the fuck was I thinking? Wait I wasn't even thinking. Why did I speak for? Stupid, stupid! He's going to kill me now.

So? Tom hates me. He's probably going give him high five.

"Don't act like you don't know!"he says.

He's voice was raspy and more deeper in the morning. More huskier. He gave me a side glance, I noticed his little apple move.

"I guess I do"I say this quietly. Just to myself.

But he heard.

"Do you jump in bed with anyone who gives you attention"his voice was hush.

I was taken back by the tone of his voice and the look on his face. My heart dropped and I just knew that something was going to happen today and it wasn't going to be good. I shook my head quickly before speaking.

"No. You were my first. I had no control. You were my alpha-"

"Oh so because I'm the alpha you jumped at your chance?"he's clenched his jaw, sharpen his jaw.

Why is he making sound like I am a slut or some kind of power-sucking person. I would never just sleep with someone because they were power.

"No alpha. That's not what happened"

"Then what happened. I was drunk. Out of my head. You should have known better"he yells.

I didn't think my heart could drop any lower. I suddenly felt dirty, like I have taken advantage of someone. I didn't know he was drunk but slowly everything rushed to my head. He said he missed me, he looked really happy to see me- Calvin didn't care about me so why would he be happy to see me? What was I thinking?

"I-I am so sorry. The was colours flying around, I didn't know if this was real or not. I'm sorr-"

" Wait... Colours flying around"he had his thinking face on.

"Fuck!"he shouts punching the wall.

That must hurt. Although, he didn't look like he was in pain. Just angry

"We are mates. That's why you smell different" he says. He said the last bit to himself

He sits down on a chair and doesn't say anything else. He and I both were shaking. I was shaking because I was scared, on the other hand, Calvin was shaking because he was so angry. It doesn't take a scientist to know that.

I knew we were mates because of everything I have studied during the wolf school I use to go before Tom pulled me out but hearing Calvin say it hit me, really hard. I found my mate and he was the Alpha.

"I can't do this. No I won't do it."he says to himself before jumping up.

He looked at me.

"I can't have a mate. I can't do it. I'm rejecting you. It's your chose whether to accept the rejection or not." He says with no emotions. He looked at me dead in the eye and said the word I was afraid of from a young age.

"Be gone before I come back"

With that he left. Slamming the door shut. Leaving me with this pain in my heart. I stared at the door.

He rejected me. I'm rejected. Off course he did. Was he actually going to accept me? The ugly, fat, unshifted, useless, cursed bitch?

The real question is... Why should I stay here? What's the actual point of me staying here? In this bloody mean pack. My own last hope was my mate and he just rejected me. After sleeping with me. I will run away. Being a rogue is better than staying in this pack. Being dead is better than this. At least then I will be with someone that loves me. I will be with my father.

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I was back at my house now. Tired and drained. I was so happy to see that no one was at home. Tom was probably with some chick, having round two.

I decide that I wouldn't cry over Calvin, even if I wanted too. I wasn't going to cry over my brother either. I wasn't going to cry over anyone who didn't deserve my tears. It was my fault. I got in this mess myself. I should have told Tom. I shouldn't have let father walk out. But now...It's too late. My mother has won. I lost.

I climbed the steps of my stairs slowly. I wanted to take in and remember every inch of this house before I leave. Before I set myself free. Free from this hell hole I once called home. Free from this pack I once thought as family. Free from Tom who I once trusted, loved and cared for. Free from Calvin who I once respected. I would be free.

Once I entered my tiny, dull and unexciting room, I packed the small amount of clothes I owned in a duffer back pack I stole from Tom's room. I stole few papers which I ripped out from a book that was left on his desk and a pen.

I was going to leave him a note.

I started writing. At first I wasn't sure what I was planning to write. What I wanted to say.

I re-read the letter, making sure it was right. I didn't want to tell him. I didn't know why I still cared. I'm just doing this for my dad's sake. I wasn't going to leave like my father did.

I had to leave a note at least. I guess that makes me a less of a coward.

I folded the paper and walked to his room. I left the letter on his king sized bed. Then I made my way down stairs, walking toward the front door. Holding the bag in one hand. I couldn't help but look back. Just to have one last long look before walking out.

I had to see Amy really quickly. To say goodbye and to tell her I love her so much. To tell her that I will miss her. I walked to her house. Avoiding everyone. I didn't want to see anyone and I sure as hell they didn't want to see me either.

As soon as I made it to her front door. I knocked feeling nervous and scared. I looked around hoping no one has seen me. I wanted to be gone before Tom came home.

After few knocks the door finally opened relieving Amy. She was so shocked to see me. She jumped at me and gave me a huge friendly hug.

"How did you make it out?"she asked me.

"He doesn't know I'm out. Listen I have to be-"

"What? Charlie turning into a rebel?"she jokey asked herself.

"No actually a coward. A bigger coward then before."

She stopped smiling and have me a frown.

"What do you mean Charlie?"she asked me.

"I'm running"

"What no! What happened to I will find my mate and then we will run? What did Tom do? I swear I will kill him!"

"It's not him this time.. I found my mate" I say looking down to my foot.

"That's great. Omg congrats.... Why you're not so happy?"her sudden happiness stop as she noticed I wasn't jumping with her.

I didn't reply. Just kept looking at my foot.

"He didn't.. No he can't. Please tell me you're joking"

"I wish I could Amy. Look I have to go" I said as I looked around, making sure no one was around.

"Who is it. I will totally kill this bastard!"

"I doubt that honey." I said quietly but she heard.

" I only came here to say goodbye. I will tell you everything next time I see you"

"If you see me again"

"Don't think like that Amy. I will see you again. I love you"I said pulling her for a huge.

"I love you more"

I pulled away from tearily Amy and gave her a small smile.

"Impossible" I say.

"Bye"she manages to say.

I began to walk away. Looking back few times. Seeing Amy cry hurt me but I had to go. I couldn't stay here no more. It wasn't safe for me. It wasn't home no more.

They're not my pack. I'm a rogue.

I run. I run away from the pack's territory and into the woods That I once had nightmares about.

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P.s I'm planning to rewrite this. I want there to be a bit of fighting coming from Charlotte's end.