《MindFulMess》Opinion
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They say.. I, that my opinion matters.. They say I should make my own decisions. They say I matter. That I am worth it.
But they also say.. I waste their time.
They also say I'm taking up space for other people
They say I don't know any better that I can't make my own decisions. That the decisions I make are stupid and pointless! They say I can't do anything right! They say they know better then I do about myself and what I'm fucking capable of..
They say.. The words.. That strips my confidence.. They say.. The words.. That kill me.. They don't realise just how much it hurts me! That these thoughts go round and round in my head making me feel more and more shit about myself.. Making me put scars upon my skin clench my teeth with the pain I am in.. Make nurses sigh Every time I walk through those doors.. Cause they know.. Why I am here.. They know.. My pain I bear here.
They don't know.. The weight I carry.. I don't know.. If I'm worth anything.. All I know is.. My opinion doesn't matter.. All I know is I don't matter.
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